As A Late Diagnosed Autist I Will Say One Of The Most Damaging But Transformative Experiences I've Ever

I feel like there are a lot of people out there who needs to hear this:

If you dropped out of school because of diagnosed (or undiagnosed) ADHD, Autism, ADD, OCD, Dyslexia, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, psychotic disorders, schizophrenia etc… You did not fail. The education system failed you.

It's OK to rest

all your stuffed animals love you. they're not sad if they're in a box, or on the floor, or not held/played with as much. they understand. they know that you might need another stuffie more, or that you don't have enough space. they're just happy to be with you, and if you ever give them away, they'll be happy there too. stuffies are for comfort. they understand. they love you too. it's okay.

on the subject of control

People can only be truly happy in the two extremes of control: either total control or none at all.

think about it. you gain access to one thing, total say in what one thing does, you’ll want control over more. What it creates, what creates it, what it does. And that leads to wanting more and more and more and there’ll always be that thread of dissatisfaction, no matter how small, until you get absolute control over everything.

on the flip side, complete lack of control means absolute peace. A state of non-existence because you don’t even have control over yourself, your thoughts, your emotions, thereby reducing you to nothing. So since you don’t exist, you are both the happiest you can possibly be and not at the same time, because ‘you’ don’t exist.

and since nobody will ever have full control over everything, everyone will always have that thread of dissatisfaction. we also all want this level of control, but it will never exist so long as there are other living beings. which could also be a way of saying as long as other living, thinking things exist we will never get over that small thread.

Or maybe it’s just me and my melodramatic brain making everything philosophical who knows.

Hey. Hey you. The person aimlessly scrolling, stuck in an immobilized standoff with your brain

It's not your fault. You won't be stuck forever. I know you're trying. I know you hate it. It's ok.

And tell the Mean Voice in your head that it's not helping. It knows as well as you do that you would get up and Just Start the task if you could. You're not doing this on purpose.

Take a deep breath. Relax your jaw. I see you trying so hard to break out of it, but you can't force it. You'll get Unstuck eventually. All you can do in the interim is be kind to yourself.

imagine if there were ads for spells Banishment to the Shadow Realm. Ever find yourself wishing something would simply…disappear? Well, with this neat trick, your wish can come true! Quick. Easy. Versatile. And reversible too if you ever change your mind! Banishment to a Shadow Realm. The ultimate solution.

wow, finally getting to making a tumblr

is everyone here supposed to be rabid or was i just unlucky?

Seen a couple posts on the dashboard lately about writing with ADHD. So, for the ADHD and neurodivergent folks who like writing but struggle sometimes… check out StimuWrite.

You can set it to make little sounds as you type (or leave them off), and emojis pop up in the corner. You can change the background, dark and light themes, set your word goal, and it gives you a percentage and total word count at the bottom. Though it’s more meant for getting a draft written up, so it doesn’t have spell check or anything like that. You’re meant to just copy and past what you write here into Google Docs or Word or Scrivener or whatever else you use and go from there. Honestly love it when I’m struggling to get words down, though. And apparently there’s an update now for StimuWrite 2?👀

Anyways, give it a try if it looks like it may help. It’s currently name-your-own-price.

’life isn’t fair!’

yeah, but isn’t it kind of our life purpose as humans to try and make it more fair? If this unfairness can’t be controlled that’s one thing, but if you give a child four snacks and the other none then explain it as ‘life isn’t fair’ well no, that’s still on you, because you had the power to make it fair. It was in your control. life isn’t fair as justification for intentional unjust actions is stupid.