Latest Posts by sp1d-d3rr - Page 2

I want to sniff you also but affectionately and lovingly and caringly this is not something im getting off to i just love you

Thank God, i don't want someone getting off to me like that

How to help my friends when I myself am in desperate need of help :((

postal artists are so insanely talented wowww,,im always amazed whenever i see fanart for this game

LOOK EVERYONE BEE'S MAKING ANOTHER LONG TEXT POST!

LET'S ALL READ IT AND REALLY REALLY ABSORB EVERY LAST WORD!

Hello, it's me, Bee. I'm typing with proper capitalization to show you how serious this post is.

Recently, and especially yesterday, I've been getting increasingly upsetting and alarming engagement from fans (it feels stupid saying "fans" but also maybe my overfamiliarity is part of what's biting me in my huge ass.)

I am always of the mindset of letting people do their freak shit, never yucking anyone's yum, etc etc, but I think I have to start being a lot more explicit about where I stand on some things.

First of all, I want to specify upfront that Newfag Runs The Gauntlet is a work of fiction, and what's more, it's very explicit social commentary. You are Not supposed to root for Newf. He is purposefully Not A Good Person. That goes for pretty much everyone in NFRTG in fact; like, yes the CrowdSauce posts are funny and ridiculous, but if you find yourself reading some of the more violent and disturbing parts of those threads and being like "woah that's just like me!" then I urge you to understand that it's not a Good thing.

NFRTG isn't written to be representation for paraphiles or radqueers. I in fact do not use either of those terms to describe myself, because I personally am deeply uncomfortable with how broad and vague and muddy the definitions are, and how it invites and potentially encourages some really unsavory behavior. NFRTG is a cautionary tale first and foremost. It's a horror novel because it is SCARY how willingly all these characters agree to ruin people's lives for a laugh. It's also FUNNY because I am very funny :) and it's HOT and you can think it's HOT because I do! And definitely write parts of it to be hot and horny! That's part of the horror, too! Not knowing whether you're disturbed or disgusted or aroused! But please please please know that these characters are Not the good guys. There are really no good guys to be found. Intentionally. And that's not a Good Thing.

I'm going to take a big big BIG step back from fandom engagement for my own sake. There inevitably comes a point where creators kind of can't afford to keep up intense fan engagement and I think I'm there, so I'm gonna untrack my tags and let you all have your fun without mommy breathing down your neck. If you want me to see something, you can tag me or submit it to the site for sure! I WANT to see your art and writing and theories and all that! I LOVE it! I just don't think I need to be privy to ALL of it.

My closing remark is I am so grateful and so lucky to have gotten such a following so fast. Pretty much everyone I've interacted with has been very kind and sweet and curious, and I so admire that. What a lucky little bug I am! I want to keep feeling positively about my work and the impact it's having on others, so I urge everyone to approach NFRTG with a critical eye, understand that I am very much Pointing Out A Problem when I write characters doing or saying terrible things, understand that I very much Don't want people to kill themselves or each other, that I don't think these behaviors are just things we should turn our backs to. I was once a deeply suicidal, nihilistic, self-entitled channer who frequented gore sites and watched awful shit for fun. That was not good, and it took years of therapy for me to even START to unpack that and crawl out of that hole of self destruction. But I'm so much happier and healthier and better off now that I'm away from all that, and I will always encourage people to do the same. I really really would prefer it if people stayed alive and helped themselves and didn't harm others. That is my ask.

Thank you for your reading and I love you and I LIKE you. Please be safe and good :)

Yeah, I regret nothing. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm going to *remembers suicide is often not a desire for death itself but rather an attempt to radically change one's life because the current state of being has become unbearable but the person can't think of any way to change it other than death* kill myself

i would make such a beautiful dead bird on the sidewalk

Sigh...old yeller style baby...that's what it's all about..

When will it be my turn to be put down like a sick dog

AHAHAHAUHDHDHSOFJFBFODV I'm def a casual enjoyer of KoRn :3

(seriously tho JDevil means the world to me)

“allll day i dream abouuut fucking…”

i wanna cut you open and look at your organs

take me to dinner first

Me when I'm at the skeletonization state of decomposition 😸

I'm just going to start saying shit and if someone sees them cool cool cool 🤷

Yesterday afternoon I couldn't. And I stress. Couldn't. Stop thinking about how nice it would be for someone to put photos of or like videos of me on the Internet after running out onto incoming traffic. Like the thought of my guts and blood sprawled against the warm pavement while some sick pervert puts the beauty of my death up on the internet for people to jerk to or something just really satisfies a part of me. Maybe even record myself absolutely slobbering over a shotgun before pressing the muzzle up against my pallet and blowing my brains out. Letting the camera or my phone capture the splatter of meat, bone, and blood against the ceiling and wall just so others can enjoy me for one last time!!

Maybe it's my newfound appeal to Newfag Runs the Gauntlet but guts and blood have always been a part of me, from the hunt to the kill it's all a thrill 🙏

*typing into Google while narrating for myself frantically (on an old computer with a really loud keyboard ofc)*

How to...be cool on Tumblr when you're scared....so scared....oh boy......

Even if they're not into it the state of distress as they watch my hands explore their innards would be great....i'd love to see the look on someone's face as I hold onto their lungs and hear them gasp as I squeeze...maybe even grab at their intestines and pull just to show them how pretty they are on the inside 🤤🤤

Ever since I could remember I've wanted to be vivisected painlessly but still able to feel it. The vivisection scene in JTHM did something to me.

I've wanted to be on the other side of that!! Having my hands in someones guts while they're clearly into it would be so good

Erm....serious topics my fault

I feel really disconnected from myself and who I am, maybe because of my depression or maybe just getting older??, any tips on how to figure out how to define myself while transgender and other hearted?

Mmmm....animalistic desire to hurt, hunt, and kill 🤤

idk if this counts as confession:

I really want to bite, I mean flesh to the molars, bite down, and tear, and I think it's because I've always wanted to just chew on raw meat but wasn't allowed to. It's all kinda mixed in with the wanting to beat someone up thing where like I end up wanting to just bite someones throat out ?? lmao idfk anymore.

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Haiiiiii okay so..first...so I guess it'll be my intro!! (Still figuring out how to work this..)

I'm Seth!! I'm nineteen, live in the 🇺🇸🦅, trying to learn German but my native language is English!

This blog is kinda just whatever interests me in the moment and I try to stray away from NSFW but..well...not always happening..and well there's gore and death and weapons and violence and gays and suic!de mentioning and really just a lot more that you may feel free to look at!!!

(You can find more of my many many names and other information on my pronoun page, and I've got a Pinterest for those who are interested in looking!!)

Pronouns.page

@-SPID_DERR- • Pronouns.page

Hi hii hiiiii!!! Youre probably a friend of mine so ILY DUDE TY FOR TAKING THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND ME!!!! If youre not!!! Welcome…

Pinterest

SP!D_D3RR (sSALTYG00SE) - Profile | Pinterest

SP!D_D3RR | Formerly the eldritch horror Stag_Beetle <3 Ps you can call me an it aswell i don't mind :]

On the NSFW aspect I will clarify I personally don't like rape and I don't really have a thing for piss - but I do enjoy CNC and sadism (and a bit more stuff but I digress), I try to keep an open mind when it comes to other things like piss kinks since as long as every participant is into it and/or simply willing 🤷🤷

-Long lasting interests-

• Animals (like canines, felines, birds of a few kinds, hoofed animals, a bit of reptiles and amphibians, and finally arachnids and insects [I personally am other hearted for a few animals so you'll see things like that too])

• Shows, movies, and short films (Bluey, My Little Pony, Dexter, Spider-Man, Deadpool, Anime [Like Dungeon Meshi and others])

• Books and writing (Warrior cats, Shakespeare, Wings of fire, web/reg-comics, and manga [unless we can count that with anime])

• Video games (things like rn Skyrim, Minecraft, Roblox, Postal, Baulders Gate [DND in general], Sonic, Stardew Valley, and Animal Crossing)

• Art (Things like music [singing, dancing, instrument playing, Rock, Metal, Industrial], painting, drawing, sculpting, coloring, poetry)

And clearly more!