I’ve Lost So Much Of Myself In Other People I’m Not Sure What’s Left

imo i get why its called boymoding but i legit think the fact that it's called that has like done worse for girls

"Oh ur BOYmoding, ur dressed as a BOY bc ur wearing BOY clothes"

like it creates a bad feel loop. a tgirl telling me to reframe it as dressing masc/butchy has done wonders for me itr

they don't need me in the way that i need them, and i think that's the most painful thing i've ever experienced.

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

so embarrassing to have my mood swing based off of someone else’s interactions with me

ngl but if im giving u attention its basically like someone trying to hand you a billion dollars and yet some motherfuckers want to be like "ehhh i dont really want the billion dollars. Maybe some other time." What the fuck.

ohhhh so you only gave me affection and attention for a month to "entertain yourself" ohhh okay that makes sense.

actually no what the FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT??

just bc i dont see myself as human doesn't mean i dont want to be fucking treated like one holy shit.

i hate when they dont message for a single day so now im undergoing mental torture constantly switching between "oh god something happened please be okay please be okay please god be okay" and "stop fucking ignoring me you make me sick you make me sick you make me fucking sick"

I will never trust anyone again, people are bad, selfish and cruel!!!!

i hope they realize how much sweeter i was than they deserved