SOBBING ABOUT ORV AGAIN

here's the next part of my orv collection tagging @chocolatemalt because my darling your tags give me life. no, btw. it's still not over yet, i've got so many remaining

link to part 1, part 2 and a webweave i made out of story snippets that is yoo joonghyuk centric. also, part 4. (this one is part 3)

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ketzal_coatl

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please stop living so far away i want to cook your favourite dinner for you

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ON THAT ONE PARTICULAR BRAND OF URBAN LONELINESS

Nigel Van Wieck, Aron Wiesenfeld, Mitski, Holly Warburton, Maïté Grandjouan

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Sono Osato, Japanese-American ballet dancer (1919-2018)

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On Yearning

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surmayah

1 year ago

mom can you make my favorite ramen? can we go for a walk like we use to mom? can you hold my hand again when we do? mom can you make the pain go away like you did when i was little? mom i'm sorry i'm a bad daughter. can you put oil in my hair and we can watch a movie you like? mom can we try again? i promise i'll be good this time around.

[An overpass with cars driving on it, large buildings an be seen in the distance]

relationships with your mother are so peculiar. you are everything i have, you dont know how to love me in a way that doesn't hurt. your voice soothes me and your tone scars me. we share the kitchen table while you dream about a version of myself i will never be and i read and weep about mothers hating their children.

I need you - I need you to look at me, Mom.

I need you to really look at me and see me.

Mom, I need you to see me.

[A painting of a person on the phone]

I'm sorry mom I'm still trying

My mother and I are so afraid of each other What if I become you, I shout What if you become more, She shrieks

and now that i think about it, i haven't been kind to my mother either.

truly, the art of jabbing knives is hereditary.

[a picture of a farm field, crops beginning to grow, there's a sunset behind the field]

And so, he goes back home. Home home, with his mother. He goes as if he might find an instruction manual there. It's an incurable feeling.

Your mother wouldn't approve of how my mother raised me

But I do, I finally do

Coming to terms with your mother's humanity

@death-born-aphrodite/@bitterl/Supernatural/8.46am on Instagram/Hailey Noecker/Fatima Aamer Bilal/Winterhats, literally from AO3/Mitski

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web weave web weaving

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surmayah

9 months ago

Oh, to be pure again

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surmayah

1 year ago

René Lalique, Kiss, Pendant, 1900

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me to that one person

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surmayah

7 months ago

"You were in my dreams last night" yeah our souls have been clawing through our chests to get to each other since we met but I'm glad you noticed

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surmayah

1 year ago

My brother never touches his cricket bat with his feet. It will anger the gods within it, he says. The goalkeeper of my football team kisses the goalpost before the beginning of a match, a silent prayer to the deity within. My sister never puts her paintbrushes on the floor and my father holds his stethoscope with unmatched devotion. You see, the gods are what you want them to be, where you want them to be. In your mother’s lap, in your best friend’s hug, in the coffee you are almost addicted to, in the equipments of the gym you love working out in or in the books you bought but will never read. The gods are wherever you want them to be. The gods are wherever you need them to be.

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