Dear People With OCD: The Next Time You Have Spiraling & Intrusive Thoughts, What-ifs, Or Catastrophizing

dear people with OCD: the next time you have spiraling & intrusive thoughts, what-ifs, or catastrophizing scenarios, I am sending a cardigan-wearing 46-year old NYU professor directly into your brain and he says "Aaaaand scene!!!" and he claps his hands slowly. and he says "Wow. Wow. Powerful stuff. Evocative imagery. A little bit post-modern, a little bit hysterical realism in the vein of Don Delilo but let's pause right here." and you will recognize your thoughts as a perplexing avant-garde film shown to an audience of 15 liberal arts students who are now trying to get a good grade and sleep with their professor.

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theancientdreamer

2 months ago

Digital fanart for Omniscient reader's viewpoint. It's a series of black and white illustrations making out a single monologue through their accompanying text.
"I suppose, in a sense".
Kim Dokja looking at something under his feet. His face is hidden under a heavy shadow with only a single eye and a crack running across his face visible. Behind his head there's a disc of a halo crumbling away on a background of pitch black sky.

"I'm also a writer"
A shot of Kim Dokja from the back. He is standing on a path made out of screens-tiles, each depicting a scene. Closest to him are a scene of his companions calling out to him and a scene of unconcious Yoo Joonghyuk sleeping somewhere. Further aways, disappearing in the dark, are two female silhouettes, possibly Lee Sookyung and Han Sooyoung back on Earth.

"Worse than a proper one"
Two bright white parallel lines - two bridges extend into the dark, never getting close. Kim Dokja stands close to the lower edge of the art, watching someone standing on the other path far away, also wearing a white coat.

"With my hands accustomed to turning pages"
The text sits in the screen of Kim Dokja's phone held by his crumbling hands.

"Not filling them"
That text, in contrast, is printed on a stack of pages held by different hands, with painted black nails and different type of scars.

"My heart as well"
A close up of Kim Dokja's face, looking down. There is no heavy shadow over his face, yet his mouth are not drawn. Despite that, his eyes look dull, sad.

"Accustomed to seeing"
A reflection of younger Kim Dokja in an old pc screen. He looks down, just as sad and disheartened as his older self. There are pages visible on the screen.

"But not participating"
A shot from inside the train carrier. Hands claw at the closed doors, leaving bloody traces on the glass. It's Kim Dokja's crumbling hands. Behind the glass there is a night sky.

"Maybe that is why"
Kim Dokja is sitting on a train seat with his legs, looking to the right. He is wearing his stark wjite coat, and looks empty. He is surrounded by an empty void, all alone in the space he is in.

"Their expressions are hard to pin down"
A mirror image of the previous one, but this Kim Dokja is looking at his companions, who surround him. They all sit on grass, with a darkening sky above them. Still, all the faces of Kim Dokja's companions are hidden as if drawn over with a pen.

"If i never experience that strong of a feeling"
Kim Dokja at the end of the 1863 arc, from the back, hunched down with his black wings framing his back. His horns are crumbling, and so does the black star of a constellation above his head.

"How can i put it on a page?"
A mirror image of Kim Dokja from the first page - but now it's Han Sooyoung looking down on Kim Dokja with her face hidden under a heavy shadow, her expression impossible to pin down. She is wearing a bright white coat.

"A story written by someone that inadequate"
A page almost fully black. In the upper left corner, there is barely visible figure of young Han Sooyoung in front of a computer screen, typing. On her chair there's barely visible hand of the Dokkaebi king. Only whatever is bathed in the light of the screen is visible.

"Surely it's not a read you would approve of"
A similarly almost completely black page. In contrats with the text, a happy Kim Dokja, visible in the light of his phone, sits in a hospital bed. An IV drip is visible next to him, with the bags going from seemingly normal one to Story fluid the higher they sit.
Full text says:
"I suppose, in a sense... I'm also a writer, worse than a proper one, with my hands accustomed to turning pages, not filling them. My heart, as well, accustomed to seeing, but not participating. Maybe that is why their expressions are hard to pin down. If i never experience that strong of a feeling, how can i put it on a page? A story written by someone that inadequate... Surely it's not a read you would approve of."

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theancientdreamer

2 months ago

I’m not sure if it supposed to be funny but I laughed out loud reading texts 😂

[ID: Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint fanart by Blackbox of Kim Dokja and Yoo Joonghyuk smiling emotionally at each other, overlaid with the text "fandom so small i became soulmates with the main character". End ID]

thank u! @nebulations

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theancientdreamer

1 month ago

Project D by Terry Wei

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theancientdreamer

2 months ago

Terrifying

P2 👇

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Personally Punching Gods

Dedicated to those who live in spite of the horrors Spent a whole month working on this project and here it is just in time for my city's i

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theancientdreamer

3 months ago

“ Look Around You and Try to Live Somehow “

- ORV -

I am still trying to fully understand it’s meaning…

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theancientdreamer

1 month ago

Loki the giant and Charlotte Lola from One Piece

Loki is on his elbows and knees in front of Lola looking at her fondly.

He's gifting her a tiny red flower, that he holds carefully between his index finger and thumb.

Lola Looks up at him with no expression on her face.

The same image but this time it's zoomed in on their faces.

The original manga panel of the scene where Loki gifts Lola the flower.

Only their silhouettes are visible.

I need their lore like I need air

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theancientdreamer

1 month ago

Look how innocent they looked…. Their whole lives have been robbed for eternity… 😢 💔🌹

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theancientdreamer

1 month ago

My friend who didn't even reach chapter 400 of TCF asked me why I love ogCale so much ?

I told her every single reason why I love ogCale so much. And I don't love him after reading chapter 656, I have loved him since chapter 1 !

The reasons I loved him before reading chapter 656 are:

His face! He looks like an angel. I started reading TCF after seeing his face!

He never hurts anyone physically.

He hates gangsters and scammers.

He respects women and defends them (according to wiki).

He doesn't create problems for his step family.

He comforted his father after Jour's death (he was between 5-8 years old)

Unlike other 2 faced nobles, he is true to himself.

He isn't greddy for powers or titles.

He never shouted or raised hands at Basen

And the reasons I loved him after reading chapter 656 and side story are:

He understands krsCale so well. He never let any misunderstanding happen when they talked.

His smile is very bright despite what he went through.

He destroyed his reputation for his step family at the age of 8.

He kept acting nonstop for 10-12 years.

He survived 20 years in the middle of the war.

He showed director Mia her/his place. (Director Mia harassed krsCale quite a lot)

He truly wishes krsCale to live happily and peacefully.

He told krsCale how he could avoid being the duke.

He took care of krsCale' responsibility despite the fact that he can easily avoid it.

His eyes were shaking when he heard Choi Jung Soo is dead. Means he actually cares about the dead people.

He can do anything for his family and still cares about them.

He didn't insult Harris villagers because he is a heartless person, but rather, he was also hurt (It's not justification but explanation)

Because of him, krsCale now fully accepted his new identity.

He is very elegant and noble-like.

But when it's needed, he becomes a a cool trash.

Most importantly, he let krsCale dig his mom' grave and let krsCale have Jour' power.

All of the TCF characters are tragic. Like KRS, Choi Han, Raon, Alberu, Mary and everyone else.

But I can relate with ogCale more than I can with anyone else.

He lost his mother at the age of 5-8. Instead of mourning himself, he comforted his father. Then when his step family came, instead of creating problems for them, he destroyed his reputation for them. He also kept his distance from his family for their own shake despite the fact that he loves them dearly . He also gave up his birth right for Basen.

Despite doing so much for everyone around him, he lost his family. Instead of hiding from the war, he participated in the war to avenge his family. He knew he could die but he still kept fighting.

Then after doing so much, he agreed to let his place taken by a stranger. When everyone got a second chance, he didn't get any. When everyone forgot all the pain they suffer in the 1st timeline, he still remembers it.

It would be easy to do so when his family was dead. But now that he knows they are alive, isn't it pure torture that he can't meet with them?

Maybe he wished for a very long time so that his family would come back alive. Now that they are alive, he isn't allowed to see them.

Now he is taking care of a unknown child and a team he has no connection with.

He never lived his life for himself.

1st for his father after Jour's death.

Then for his step family.

Then to avenge his family and territory.

Finally, for a his niece and team.

He never lives for his own shake!

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theancientdreamer

2 months ago

Greetings bugs and worms!

This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)

If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.

The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!

Reblog to teach your followers about OCD

(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)

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theancientdreamer

1 month ago