ugghh uaahhfh aaafdhhf a I write about war. Constantly in the trenches. You’re safe and wanted here.
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being a writer is so embarrassing sometimes like awww no my feelings got hurt guess i'll go make up 90,000 words about it. ugh
things I have googled in the past days:
-percentage of homeless war veterans
-war crimes list
-propaganda definition
-triumphant synonyms
-dawn definition
-hard synonyms
-twilight definition
-straining definition
-hydration definition
-atomizer definition
-utopia definition
-modification definition
-irreversible definition
-socialist definition
-abdomen definition
Yes, writing is my full time job.
do you torture the character you relate to most and recreate your own abuse in fiction to cope or were your needs and feelings acknowledged as a child
if you ever finish reading a really dark story and find yourself wondering if the author is okay and stable no they aren’t.
writer culture is creating a sunshine character and then making them go through so much trauma that they're unrecognisable
or don’t be kind. Don’t make them learn a lesson. Make them worse with no turning back. Let them never be able to deal with what they went through. Make it take years until they are finally able to take a breath again without wanting to die. That’s what life is like sometimes. Merciless. Nonsensical. Painful.
Let them stay up night after night just asking why? Why me? Why me? Why me?
Every happy ending has to be fought for desperately, and even then there’s no guarantee that you get it.
What do they take for granted? Take it away from them.
The one thing they know for certain? Make them doubt it.
Their worst fear? Throw it at their faces.
Make their plans fail. Make them cry. Make them question things and then learn about them and the way they react in the process.
Be mean to your character. Then be kind to them for a while, because after all that they may deserve it.
If this wasn’t my job I would always write „deffo“
being a writer is spelling disembowelment correctly on the first try but somehow always screwing up definitliely
at this point let Cadence have their village vacation. Let them be free.
I’m relieved to know I’m not the only writer experiencing this. Because somehow you would think „I’m the writer, I’m in control“ but then this kinda stuff happens and suddenly you’re questioning how that is even possible
chasing that character that never follows the outline and ends up doing random shit that adds nothing to the plot for 5 extra chapters you hadn’t even planned
chasing that character that never follows the outline and ends up doing random shit that adds nothing to the plot for 5 extra chapters you hadn’t even planned
PREACH ‼️ YELL IT ‼️‼️
Just a reminder that people who still live with their parents as adults deserve respect and for you to stop being ableist. There are multiple reasons someone could still live with their parents! From invisible to visible disabilities, finance issues, and more!
Stop using the “well they’re gonna turn into a creep living in their parents basement” punchline! It’s disgusting. STOP. BEING. ABLEIST. STOP. FORGETTING. THE. POOR.
As a late diagnosed autist I will say one of the most damaging but transformative experiences I've ever had was being misdiagnosed with BPD.
Everyday my heart goes out to people with BPD.
The amount of stigma and silencing they face is astonishing and sickening.
I took DBT for years. Therapists use to turn me away because of my diagnosis.
I would be having full blown autistic meltdowns, crying for help literally - but because I was labeled as BPD ANY time I cried I was treated as manipulative and unstable.
As if the only reason I could be crying was if I was out to trick someone.
95% of the books out there with Borderline in the title are named shit like 'How to get away from a person with Borderline', 'How to stop walking on eggshells (with a person who has BPD)'
I was never allowed to feel true pain or panic or need.
That was 'attention seeking behavior', not me asking for help when a disability was literally inhibiting my ability to process emotions.
There were dozens of times where I had a full meltdown and was either threatened with institutionalization or told I was doing it for attention.
My failing relationships weren't due to a communication issue, or the inability to read social cues. No, because I was labeled borderline, my unstable relationships were my fault. Me beggong nuerotypicals to just be honest and blunt with what they meant was me pestering them for validation.
Borderline patients can't win.
And the funny thing is - I asked my therapist about autism. I told her I thought I was on the spectrum.
BPD is WILDLY misdiagnosed with those with autism and I had many clear signs.
Instead - she told me 'If you were autistic we wouldn't be able to have this conversation'. She made me go through a list of autistic traits made clearly for children, citing how I didn't fit each one.
And then she told me that me identifying with the autism community was the BPD making me search for identity to be accepted - and that I wasn't autistic, just desperate to fit in somewhere.
I didn't get diagnosed for another ten years. For ten years I avoided the autism community - feeling as if I were just a broken person who wanted to steal from people who 'really needed it'.
Because of my providers - I began to doubt my identity MORE, not less.
Ten years of thinking I was borderline and being emotionally neglected and demonized by a system meant to help me.
To this day, I still don't trust neurotypicals. Not fully.
I know I'm not borderline now - but my heart aches for them. Not for the usual stuff. But for the stigma. And the asshole doctors. And the dismissiveness and threatening and the idea of institutionalization hanging over their head.
I love Borderline people. I always will. I'm not Borderline but if you are I love you and I'm sorry.
You're not a bad person. You're not a therapists worst nightmare, you are a human with valid feelings and fears.
Borderline people I'm sorry.
also what’s with the narrative that when there’s a disabled body it has to be fixed? Implying that it is not right the way it is.
Not every disabled life is a physically painful experience.
Disability is natural, disability happens. The difficulty of being disabled by an outside world that barely adjusts to your needs is the problem, not the disabled body.
A lot of suffering disabled people go through is made up of people not caring/looking out and the societal idea that a disabled body is a broken body that has to be pitied.
I will die on this hill.
Writing is so much fun! You can be like "I should process this" and just go nuh-huh, see, I'm going to make up a guy and have them process it for me. Not me! It's the guy I made!
I love you villains who try so hard to redeem themselves but no one lets them. I love you villains who never feel remorse, only the hurt that’s been done to them and the endless rage about it. I love you villains who are soft but clearly try to hold up their facade because they are afraid of being perceived as weak. I love you villains who bend and break the world for a (lost) lover/loved one. I love you villains who bend and break the world because they never experienced anything good in it. I love you villains who are so emotionally unstable everybody is constantly afraid they will lash out any second. I love you villains who are so so apathetic and cold inside, like their heart is made of ice. I love you villains who give the hero jealous looks because it could have been them, if life had been just a little less cruel. I love you villains who are insecure. I love you villains who turn pain into radical passion. I love you villains who are highschool bullies that just suffer through child abuse at home but no one knows. I love you villains who give their all for the one shred of love that is being handed to them by the narrative, knowing they will kill it with their rotten hands and yet proceed because h o p e infects even the darkest mind. I love you villains who were doomed from the beginning. I love you villains who have all the best intentions but a very fucked up way to go about their goals. I love you villains who don’t know what it feels like to not be in pain. I love you villains who are just some guy. I love you villains that are evil for the sake of being evil. I love you villains that are evil because someone said they couldn’t. I love you cliché villains. I love you villains who confusedly soften up a little when someone treats them like a human being for once. I love you queer-coded villains. I love you villains who were forced to eat cement when they were six. I love you dramatic villains. I love you villains that aren’t actually evil, the narrative just hates them. I love you villains that are just some teen girl with mental health issues. I love you villains that get the long awaited happy ending. I love you villains that never kill the hero because then they would feel really bored and lonely. I love you villains who know exactly they are turning into one but continue anyway. I love you villains who criticise societal norms and the flawed status quo. I love you villains who wake up from violent nightmares all the time. I love you villains who don’t have a single glimpse of light in their empty eyes. I love you villains who are children that were manipulated into doing awful things. I love you i love you i love you i love you villains.
very very ill little guy that is soooo nervous, „passion made me crazy“, angry person that is actually just trying to hide how soft they are, the idiots to lovers, unsatisfying/apathetic ‚they will never be the same’ type of open endings
Alright lads, here's one for any and all writers: what are the top five things readers can basically always expect to see in your work?
I love you mean girls in literature, I love you manipulative and scheming elder sisters of the protagonists, I love you ambitious women washing damned spots from bloody hands, I love you “she was always the perfect/favorite child,” I love you Emma Woodhouses and Caroline Bingleys, I love you mean girls with complex and morally questionable but ultimately understandable motivations, I love you mean girls they called evil and never bothered to explain at all, I love you mean girls who are not even girls, I love you queen bees, bullies, cheerleading captains, and heads of the school play in teen flicks, I love you weapons of war and calculating politicians and manipulators of royal court, I love you sirens and succubi and vampiresses, I love you changed by the end, I love you still the same bitch as before-
my ABSOLUTE favorite „no happy end“ tropes
1. „I am rotten to a point of no return… and so are you“
2. „I just started loving you and now you’ve been violently taken from me again“
3. „You are such a broken child and I am trying so desperately to fix you but no amount of love in the world can save you from your own wrath“
4. „You became so obsessed with winning that you overstepped every boundary. Even mine, though you had sworn from the bottom of your heart not to.“
5. „it’s so ingrained in me that my worth can’t be measured in love and gentleness, only in the amount of suffering I can go through without breaking just yet“
6. „My everything has never been enough“
7. „Finally. Death.“
Additions and blorbo tagging welcome
“We need more complex characters!!¡¡!”
Bitch, be for real, you couldn't handle him:
I will kms if i ever stop typing, actually. I need this, it’s therapy
writeblr!! tell us, what keeps you from giving up on your work?
father forgive me for the type of fictional characters I say “he just like me fr” about
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