Does Anyone Else Just Randomly Feel Like They're Annoying Everyone Around Them And That They Should Just

I just want to be important, too.

Bpd is not being able to love yourself unless someone else loves you, but never fully believing that they could actually love someone like you.

One person's tone is off and suddenly I'm incapable of moving or feeling anything other than feelings as extreme as grief for hours on end and I'm unable to communicate or talk to people to be able to ask for help or reassurance to fix the problem. Why does my brain have to react this way

How a person ends things with you, speaks volumes. You always have the choice to be kind and respectful. It’s always there. But he decided not to and although it’s a reflection of him but god damn it always ends with, what did I do.

being suicidal at a funeral is the weirdest thing ever.

thoughts be like:

damn this is sad. they say all those nice things… would they do that for me too? who would come to my funeral anyways? what flowers would they bring? what would the speaker say i did in my life if i never really did anything. i dont want to see my grandma cry but damn i want to be dead so bad but what a bad person am i? its so selfish to want that!

Do you ever isolate yourself from people because you don’t have anything to talk about except for your sadness/mental health? Because you’ve been talking about it for years now so you don’t want to annoy them anymore. Or bring them down with your negativity. So you just sit there silently all alone, choking with all your unsaid words waiting for I don’t know what. Because by now you know it doesn’t get better.

Leave a comment down below, if you can relate.

did you hold me knowing you were going to let me go?

I hate getting close to people.

The more attached I am, the more unstable I become.

But... I can't handle being alone either.

It's agony no matter what I do.

bpd feels like you’re constantly begging for affection because normal amounts of affection doesn’t feel like enough