When Quarantine’s Over, You Have Two Options

when quarantine’s over, you have two options

you could become the girl at the beach, with long slim legs and collarbones holding tiny pools of water.

you could be the girl wearing size 00 denim shorts, held up by a belt, wearing a strappy crop top that rides up, exposing a flat stomach and hourglass waist

you could be the girl with sweat sitting on your face like a radiant glow. who needs contour when your cheekbones could cut a bitch all on their own?

you could be the recipent of the inevitable post-quarantine compliments: “wow, you look amazing!” “have you lost weight?” “i’m so jealous of you!” “your body is actually goals”

you could be happy.

or…

you could become the girl at the beach, wearing a t-shirt and athletic shorts to cover up as much as she can, cowering in the shade underneath her umbrella, afraid of being judged.

you could be the girl wearing leggings on a 90 degree day so as not to expose your fat thighs, watching as a girl in a cute strappy crop top and denim shorts laughs and jokes with her friends.

you could be the girl who sits inside, too self-conscious to leave the house and sweat off your makeup.

you could be an onlooker as people shower your friends with compliments, giving forced smiles and praise, while wanting to curl up and cry on the inside.

you could be the girl regretting everything.

the choice, as always, is yours.

i need some advice :)

so i’m trying to teach myself that food is not for pleasure, only for energy, and i shouldn’t reward myself with food. what other ways can i reward myself after not binging for a while or completing a fast?

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

i hit my first gw!!

i was 123 lbs a year ago.

i am now 2.5 inches taller, and at the same weight. this feels euphoric :)

i’ve officially lost 10 lbs! 20 more to go

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ugh-skinny

4 years ago

EATING DISORDER BOOKS MASTERLIST

A Dance of Sisters, by Tracey Porter

A Stranger in the Family

A Trick of the Light, by Lois Metzger

After the Strawberry, by Kathryn Pope

Almost Anorexic, by Jennifer J. Thomas

Anorexic Annie, by Sarah Burleton

Beautiful Me, by Natasha Jennings

Being Ana, by Shani Raviv

Between, Jessica Warman

Confessions of a Failed Anorexic

Confessions of a Teenage Ballerina

Diary of An Anorexic Girl, by Morgan Menzie

Diving in Deep, by Nora Ballew

Dying For the Part: A Novel, by Jessica Ehredt

Dying to be Perfect, by Susan Barry

Elena Vanishing, by Elena Dunkle

Eli’s Wings, by Elizabeth Best

Eve’s Apple: A Novel, by Jonathan Rosen

Fasting Girls, by Joan Brumberg

Fat Chance, by Leslea Newman

Feeling for Bones, by Bethany Pierce

Flowers in Bone Cages, by Sophie Glynn

Frio, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Girl in the Mirror (Carrie Years), by Janet Fiorentino

Girl Interrupted, by Susanna Kayson

Girl Over the Edge, by Amy Z Kinzler

Girls Under Pressure, by Jacqueline Wilson

Going Hungry, by 19 various authors giving accounts of their ED

Hollow: An Unpolished Tale, by Jenna Morrow

How To Disappear Completely, by Kelsey Ozgood

Hunger Point, by Jillian Medoff

Hunger, by Jackie Morse Kessler

Hungry for Change, by Amy Lewis

In Her Shadow, by August Mclaughlin

Insatiable: The Compelling Story of Four Teens, Food and Its Power, by Eve Eliot

Kessa, by Steven Levenkron

Kim: Empy Inside, by Beatrice Sparks

Letting Ana Go, by Anonymous

Life-Size, by Jenefer Shute

Losing It, by Jasmin Dalton

Loud in the House of Myself

Massive, by Julia Bell

My Perfect Little Secret, by Rebecca Coppage

My Sister’s Bones, by Cathi Hanauer

Never Enough, by Denise Jaden

One Wish, by Leigh Brescia

Paint Me Beautiful: a Tale of Anorexia, a Love Story, and the Rebirth of Claire Simone (A Duet), by C.M. Stunich

Paperweight, by Meg Haston

Perfect, Ellen Hopkins (one of four main characters is anorexic, but its revolving perspective so ¾ of the book isn’t, just a heads up)

Pretty Bones, by Aya Tsintziras

Purge, by Sarah Darer

Running Lean, by Diana Sharples

Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder that Fed it, by Rachael Rose Steil

Second Start to the Right, by Deborah Hautzig

Size Zero, by Victoire Dauxerre

Skin and Bones, by Sherry Shahan

Skin, by Adrienne Maria Vrettos

Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik

Skinny: A Novel, by Laura Smith

Slim to None, by Jennifer Hendricks

Spoon Fed - A year in the life of a teenage anorexic as seen through her eyes!, by Jake Jacobs

The Best Little Girle in the World, by Steven Levenkron

The Disappearing Girl, by Heather Topham Wood

The Hanged Man, by Francesca Lia Block

The Hunger Scream, by Ivy Ruckman

The Passion of Alice, by Stephanie Grant

The Secret Life of an Anorexic, by Kristen Noel

The Stone Girl, by Alyssa Sheinmel

The Year We Seized The Day, by Elizabeth Best and Colin Falconer

Thin, by Grace Bowmen

Thin, by Laura Greenfield

Thinspo, by Amy Ellis

Unbearable Lightness, by Portia de Rossi

Wasted, by Marya Hornbacher

Wintergirls, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Zoe Letting Go, by Nora Price

Feel free to add more~ ❤️❤️

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

me: gets slightly angery because of someone

my mind: well guess what?? i’m gonna starve myself now and it’s ur fault >:)

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thinspø mia ED ana Eating disorder

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

i wanna just starve myself to death but i’m not skinny enough to die yet.

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ugh-skinny

4 years ago

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

I’m so ready to lose all my extra fat so I can start gaining even more muscle. The only thing standing in my way of being as perfect as I want to be is myself.

I can do this!

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

drop the eat less subliminal link?👁👄👁?

bet,, these two work the best and have good music

https://youtu.be/7GhTnmUBnZU

https://youtu.be/XVwQqVHRJG4

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ugh-skinny

5 years ago

My boyfriend is going to take me to his place for the rest of the month so I can't fast for an extended period of time so I'm going to attempt the Fix it Fast diet. I always wondered if it actually works and now I'm going to find out. If I eat more than intend I'll have to exercise it off or the day is a fail.

Idk my CW but I'll keep you updated ❤ wish me luck✨ Feel free to send meanspo and sweetspo cause I'll probably need it

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