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“Even when I was making things that made me happy, I was susceptible to other people’s energy who were unhappy for me.So I was just like, ‘Uh, okay, yeah… you’re right, man.’ I go back and listen to Hotel Diablo and I’m like, ‘Fuck you, I had it right the whole fuckin’ time.’ It coincides perfectly with Tickets To My Downfall because it starts out purely a rap project, and then divulges into the deepest parts of my mind, soul, my past, revealing things that I’m like, ‘I’m probably this way because of this.’ And then it does this beautiful transition into the last song being I Think I’m OKAY, which is a pop-punk song. The deepest, most honest parts of your thoughts is Hotel Diablo, and it ends by being like, ‘You know what? I think I’m okay. I’m okay with all of this – and now I’m going to make the project that’s for myself and others who accept that they’re just different.’ And, I mean, dude: I’m just grateful to be alive. I was probably supposed to be dead a long time ago, so I’m just stoked to be alive at this point.”
— Machine Gun Kelly for Kerrang! Magazine
Relatable™
‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾ 500 FOLLOWERS SPECIAL ☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙
Word was an extravagant thing. It was a symbol of communication, a piece of linguistic form with various element. Used to express bazillion of human emotion such as; joy, agony, discomfort, rage, and love.
In here, I am going to show you a various range of words that I found fascinating. Either it could bring you joy, or maybe sorrow. I hope you will enjoy this little journey of words with me.
MASTERLIST
─────────ೋღ Eccedentiast ღೋ─────────
(n.) someone who fakes a smile, when all they want to do is cry, disappear or die
─────────ೋღ Saudade ღೋ─────────
(n.) a nostalgic longing to be near again to someone or something that is distant, or that has been loved and then lost; “the love that remains”
─────────ೋღ Ilunga ღೋ─────────
(n.) a person who will forgive anything the first time, tolerate in the second time, but never at the third time
─────────ೋღ Elegiac ღೋ─────────
(adj.) expressing sadness, especially because someone has died or because something no longer exist
─────────ೋღ Anagapesis ღೋ─────────
(n.) no longer feeling any affection for someone you once loved
─────────ೋღ Querencia ღೋ─────────
(n.) a place from which one’s strength is drawn, where one feels at home; the place where you are most authentic self
─────────ೋღ Epiphany — Part 2 ღೋ─────────
(n.) a moment when you suddenly feel that you understand, or suddenly become conscious of something that is very important to you
─────────ೋღ Balter ღೋ─────────
(v.) to dance artlessly, without particular graze or skill but usually with enjoyment
─────────ೋღ Caim ღೋ─────────
(n.) an invisible circle of protection, drawn around the body with a hand, that reminds you that you are safe and loved, even in the darkest time
─────────ೋღ Agape ღೋ─────────
(n.) the highest form of love. Selfless, sacrificial, and unconditional love; persist no matter the circumstances. Always giving and devotes total commitment to seek the highest and the best.
Main Character
Tendou Satori x F!Reader
Sometimes we may feel like we didn’t belong anywhere. But someday, there will be someone who would show you the right place.
It was cold today, the early spring always made you crave for some extra warm. And for the past few months, you were grateful to have him here by your side. He may be lean and not really muscular, but the fact that he’s taller than you, feels like he engulfed you every time he became the big spoon.
“You sure Ushi didn’t mind us cuddling here again?” The two of you were longing for each other’s warmth since the break after the school year began, “He once caught us making out and trust me, I could never forget the look that he gave to us.”
You chuckled when you remember that particular time. Teenagers being teenagers, making out in a place that everyone could come in any time. And for the two of you, it was none other than the blunt ace, Ushijima Wakatoshi.
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Gentle Affection
Adult!Sugawara Koushi x F!Reader
His delicate side will always be on his nature, and you are so smitten by it.
You sighed for the hundred times today. Looking at the broken microwave, hoping that maybe it will work this time. Your boyfriend was out with his high school friends to watch a volleyball match between MSBY Black Jackals and Schweiden Adlers.
Remembering it, you never thought that someone as gentle as Sugawara Koushi used to play as a setter. But that one time you grabbed his hand on yours, the calloused hand makes you understood all of his hard work.
The first time you met the light grey-haired man was around a year ago. Your sister asked you to accompany her son to the school trip as you were done with college. You almost curse your life at that time. After all, you are really not that great when it comes to children. Your nephew is probably the only exception by the time.
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ushijima: [carries all the groceries on both arms]
tendou: [reaches out to help]
ushijima: [switches all the groceries to one arm to hold tendou’s hand]
tendou: that’s not what i- okay
on the down low — s. tendou
NSFW warning below the cut
content: nsfw/smut, fem!reader, friends with benefits, clothed sex, morning sex, don’t get caught word count: 1813
you share a dirty little secret with your host family’s son
─── ･ ｡ﾟ✹ ✧ °⋅ ───
At this rate, you were going to be late for school. Wouldn’t that look great; the one foreign exchange student in your homeroom stumbling into class long after the bell, out of breath with her hair mussed up and skirt wrinkled. You could only pray that no one on the school board would choose to call up your host family and tell them that not only was the exchange student they were housing tardy this morning, but their son was as well.
You couldn’t exactly blame Tendou for initiating this at such an unusual time. He saw an opportunity, and he pounced on it, simple as that. With his mother out of town and his father already gone for an early morning business meeting, you honestly weren’t even surprised that he spent the morning spouting off flirtatious comments; only that it led to this.
“You’re not gonna have time for breakfast,” you panted down at him.
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boyfriend!haikyuu boys + "send nudes" text
pairings: tendō x reader, suga x reader, kageyama x reader, daichi x reader, kenma x reader
warning: suggestive?
satori tendō
kōshi sugawara
tobio kageyama
daichi sawamura
kenma kozume
(╥﹏╥)
running out of ideas, really. also i am currently watching banana fish, i already finished the half of it and i already cried like a baby👁️💧👄💧👁️
Childhood Sweethearts
Tendou x fem!Reader | Ushijima x fem!Reader
[ Headcanons ]
Request: Can I request being childhood sweet heart with Tendou and Ushijima — anonymous
a/n: this request gave me diabetes jskdhfskdf i love it so much i hope you’ll like this one as well! SEND ME REQS AND FEEDBACK!! :DDD
❀ look at him jUST LOOK AT HIM PLEASE
❀ HOW COULD ANYONE NOT LOVE THIS SWEET SWEET BABY
❀ he’s so precious pls take my heart, take my kidneys it’s all yours ;(
❀ of all the kids in your class, you’re the only one who didn’t shun him
“i really like your hair, satori-kun! such a pretty color!!”
“…”
“they look so soft too!!”
“…”
❀ it took a while for tendou to accept that you sincerely wanted to be friends with him and since then you two were inseparable
❀ lots and lots of affection and praises for tendou!!
❀ it’s what he deserves!!! 😤 😤
❀ you would snap back at bullies while holding his hand
“you’re just mad because satori-kun blocks all of your spikes!”
“he’s waaaaay better than any of you”
“i bet you can’t even reach the top of his head, short-stacks!!”
❀ he would always glow with pride when you boast everything about him that you thought were cool
❀ afternoon naps at his house where you two would just build pillow forts and cuddle
❀ loves squishing your cheeks and giving you headpats
❀ probably married each other as kids 945 times
❀ when you both reached high school and went to shiratorizawa, his teammates would often be shocked at the both of you openly showing affection like it’s nothing
❀ esp when you would kiss his cheeks before practice >:3c
“uhh tendou-san what was that?”
“a good luck kiss. why do you ask?” >:3
❀ ahahaha congrats tendou, you’ve officially shattered all the juniors’ hopes and dreams of getting together with their precious Y/N senpai
❀ for optimum experience pls peep my being childhood friends with ushi hcs haha :’D
❀ since you grew up with each other, it was only natural for the both of you to be at each other’s beck and call
❀ ushi needs someone to toss for him? bet
❀ you need someone to come with you during errands? he’s there
❀ ushijima’s also very nonchalant to giving and receiving affection
❀ and this carried on until you two reached high school :D
“toshi kiss!”
he would kiss you on the forehead without hesitation
“toshi hold!”
he would grab your hand in a heartbeat
❀ vbc members would always be so perplexed and often question you what you did to their captain
❀ one time you brought yours and toshi’s dog with you during a weekend practice
❀ they were already done when you peeped through the gym doors, your puppy who’s already grown more than half your size barely containing it’s excitement
❀ when you both see ushijima, you and the dog would tackle him
“Y/N-san is that your dog? so cute!”
“it’s our dog” ushi would reply
“w h a t”
.
.
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“YOU TWO HAVE A DOG TOGETHER?”
bonus:
“what do you mean you two sleep together?????” the whole shiratorizawa team hollered, once again pestering ushijima about his relationship with you.
“she would lay her head on my chest and throw her leg over my waist.”
“and???”
“we would sleep”
SKJFSKJDFS
Hi hi! Can I get a tendou, oikawa, kageyama and atsumu after a fight where they make up? Fluffy ending please! ❤️
I BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE- TURN IT UP
Aftermath of a Fight w/ Their S/O- (Tendou, Oikawa, Kageyama, Atsumu)
Warning(s): slight angst in some of these, implied nsfw (by Atsumu ofc lmfao), but no direct nsfw themes
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Tendou
“...sunshine, open the door.”
“Don’t sunshine me.”
The snap of your voice had the redhead flinching, fist that had been risen to softly knock on the wooden door sinking along with the weight in his chest. Tendou taps his forehead against the door, hearing your soft whimpers on the other side.
“Y/N, please-” He starts, wincing when the door is suddenly flung open, red eyes widening when you bump your shoulder with his in passing. Desperately, he reaches his hand out abruptly to snatch your wrist before you can stomp irritably to the front door.
“Satori let go.” Heat brimmed your eyes as you refused to meet Tendou’s pleading ones,
“Hell no. You’re going right back into that bedroom, tuck yourself into the sheets, and let me make you as many mugs of tea as you want.”
His attempted joke had cracks in his voice, and you find yourself wavering before finally meeting his eyes, lip quivering. You wanted this to be over, and the way Tendou’s lips had stretched into a strained smile in a sad attempt to not let you see how much he really just needed you made you begin to raise the white flag.
“I don’t want tea.” You mumble finally, Tendou’s head lifting all of a sudden as his eyes brighten. A yelp tumbles from your lips as Tendou’s long arms wrap around your waist, lifting you off the ground as he hugged you tightly to his chest, burying his face into the crook of your neck with his slender fingers entangled in your hair.
“I’m sorry for snappin’ at you, sunshine.”
“All this because I knocked over your manga shelf?” A choked laugh escapes your lips as Tendou pulls back, mock-offense in his eyes while keeping both hands on the sides of your face.
“They were alphabatized!”
“Whatever.” You sniff, tears now dry on your cheeks as your thumbs wipe at the corner of Tendou’s eyes, looking up at him doe-eyed.
“...Can we get into bed together?”
Tendou’s grin was wide as he lifted your hand to his lips, scarlet eyes filled with now feigned sadness as he kisses your knuckle.
“But then who would bring us tea?”
“I don’t want tea, Satori!”
Oikawa
“They don’t mean anything to me, Y/N.”
“Hm? I didn’t say anything.” You bite back, jerking away from Oikawa’s motions to help you drape your jacket off your body as you do it yourself. The brunette sighs, slipping his frames off his face to wipe at them with the end of his shirt, not looking up.
“You don’t have to. I know when you get like this, and you didn’t have to make a scene.”
“A scene?!” You blink in disbelief as Oikawa puts his frames back on, shaking his head slightly as if getting annoyed all over again.
“What do you want me to do? Physically push them away?”
“How about, I have a girlfriend so hands off?”
“I guess there just isn’t any winning with you, is there, Y/N?”
You chuckle humorlessly, turning on your heel to face him head-on with a lump in your throat. “Well then why keep up the flirting act right in front of me? Unless it’s not an act, then-”
“How could you even say that?”
Oikawa’s breath caught in his throat, watching your eyes well up with unshed tears of insecurity as you huff, throwing your jacket on the couch while turning around.
“Because maybe they’ll be good enough for me to lose you.” Your voice came out in a whisper, but they didn’t fall on deaf ears as the tears now streamed freely down your cheeks. Gently, Oikawa’s arms pull you into his embrace as chocolate-orbs now riddled with guilt peer down at you, not flinching when you push lightly on his chest.
His hold on you tightens, mumbling into your hair.
“They’re not you, princess.”
Oikawa couldn’t help smile slightly at the way you relaxed at the nickname, seeing he was no longer calling you by your given one, as he placed a gentle kiss atop your head, not minding the dampness on his shoulder.
“No one’s like you, so don’t think for a goddamn minute that there’s someone better, because I can guarantee you-”
You whimper a little when he lifts you by the chin, kissing one of your teary eyes now rid of any anger as his own stare sweetly at you through black frames.
“There isn’t.”
Kageyama
“Um, is it “National Ignore Your Significant Other Day” or are you pissed at me about something?”
“Hm. Funny joke for someone who pretends like it’s that holiday every single day.”
You don’t miss a beat, not looking up from the manga you were reading as you lay on your back upon your bed. Kageyama huffs at the fact that you don’t even spare him a glance before he takes a cautious seat on the edge of your bed.
“What are you talking about?” Kageyama just wanted cuddles. After a grueling practice yesterday and not seeing you wait up for him today, all he wanted was to fall asleep next to you.
“Nothing.” You say easily, and Kageyama frowns when he sees the slight tremble in your hold as you flip through the pages. Your eyes stay on the inked paper as Kageyama concentrates really hard, slipping off his jacket before blue-eyed widen in realization as he stops taking his jacket off mid-way.
“Shit....shit wait, yesterday wasn’t our ten months, was it?”
“And they say romance is dead.” You quip, letting the manga fall to your side as your eyes lock onto your ceiling with a heat threatening to spill over. “It’s not like you stood me up or anything, so don’t worry.”
“Oh, well that’s good-”
“Tobio, baby that was sarcasm.” You can’t help the venemous edge to your voice before you huff, Kageyama blinking in bewilderment as you turn on your side, facing away from him. You bite the inside of your cheek.
“I-I’m sorry...Y/N, I really forgot-”
“Because it wasn’t important to you, right?” You laugh a little, no humor behind the sound as you trace patterns onto your bedsheets. “Not as important as volleyball?”
“Don’t say that.” His words were harder now, and you gasp a little when Kageyama sits you up, forcing you to face him while glaring slightly at you, a blush on his cheeks.
“You...I thought today was the date. That’s why I stayed extra hours yesterday...so I can give all of today to you, and I fucked up, but...”
Kageyama clicks his tongue, shuffling around in his jacket pocket before emerging with a chain, a single charm holding two letters on it- kt.
“I’m sorry I’m a dumbass sometimes. Just...can I put this on you? And then can we just sleep and then wake up so we can go to some ridulous fancy-ass dinner?”
The moisture in your eyes was no longer of sadness as you lurched forward, kissing him sweetly on the lips as Kageyama sighs in relief at your touch, pressing the small of your back against him to close the distance even further-
it was all he had wanted, after all.
Atsumu
“You’re not mad at me right now, sweetheart.”
“Oh, I’m not? Thank you for the sudden revelation!” You gasp in shock, Atsumu hot on your heels as you furiously walked down the halls of one of the Black Jackals tournaments.
“Okay, you might be a little mad-”
“I’m pissed, Atsumu! That was your image, and people already think I’m messing it up-” You spin on your heel, sighing when Atsumu has to physically stop himself from crashing into you. He visibly wilts, and you swear you can see puppy dog ears atop his head as his shoulders sink.
“What happened to Tsum Tsum?”
“That’s all you heard?!”
“Why would I give a fuck about what the people think?” Atsumu blinks innocently. “All I care about is you...is that so wrong?”
You bite your lip, knowing he was being cute on purpose before rolling your eyes, trying not to give in.
“You don’t threaten the people in the audience, Atsumu!”
“Uh, yes I do if they’re eyein up my girl, sweetheart.” Atsumu’s brow raises as if he can’t believe this is even a discussion. “That ass is mine.”
“Atsumu!” You scold, cheeks flooding with heat as the passerbys look at the two of you strangely, prompting Atsumu to huff while crossing his arms.
“Don’t call me that!”
You groan, knowing there was no winning with your man-child of a boyfriend before Atsumu’s lips begin to lift, knowing he had successfully dispelled of your annoyance.
“Just...you make me so tired, you know that?”
“Aw, darlin’“ You can’t help the smile on your lips when he kisses your forehead sweetly, trailing down to your nose while hitting you with that shit-eating smirk.
“It’s what I do best.”
“Is everything about the bedroom with you?”
“Well, it is when you’re standing here in front of me looking like you want me to-”
“Public, Tsum Tsum! We’re in public.”
“Didn’t care then, don’t care now. Lighten up, sweetheart.”
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*Kiss Me Sweetly
Tendou x f!reader
Angst with a happy ending, excessive fluff, friends to lovers, smut, dry humping
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Can i have cute hcs for Daichi, Asahi, Bokuto, Ushijima & Tendou on how they would react if their short fem!s/o wore their volleyball jerseys ?
YES, omg, I love this concept. This is, like, embarrassingly late because I’ve had the request for a while, but it’s here! (these ended up as a gender neutral reader)
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DAICHI
You go down to say hi to him before the match, and he has to do a double take because it doesn’t register at first when he looks at you, but the second time he looks his eyebrows just kind of shoot up his forehead
“Is this okay?” You’re tugging on the hem of the jersey kind of self-consciously because this wasn’t even your idea, it was your friends’
“Y-yeah, of course!” Ever heard Daichi stutter before? Now you have
“I’d better go sit down-” Before you can turn away he grabs your hand and gives you a (relatively quick) kiss in front of the whole team - something he rarely does. Now you’re both smiling like crazy.
As you walk away Suga punches him on the arm and asks him what he’s grinning about (even though he DARN WELL KNOWS) and Daichi can’t even give him a full glare
He definitely glances your way more than normal when he’s playing, and after the match is over it doesn’t matter how sweaty he is, be prepared for a big, huge hug
ASAHI
You may think you’ve seen every shade of red on him, but when he saw you in his jersey his face invented a brand new one just for this particular moment
“Y/N! Are you sure?” He’s kind of glancing around and half standing in front of you like he doesn’t want anyone else to see, but he keeps stealing glances
“Don’t you want me to wear it?” You’re suddenly kind of wondering if this is a mistake. “What? No! I mean yes! If you want to-” You laugh softly because you’re starting to realize what this is all about
“Of course I do,” You have to speak up a little over Noya and Tanaka’s hooting and hollering, “I’m proud to wear this! You’re my ace!” You’re beaming up at him and he doesn’t know if his heart will hold out much longer
He shakes his head. “You’re incredible,” he murmurs, and you tug him down so that you can press a kiss to his lips. “So are you. I know you’re gonna kill it out there”
(He does)
BOKUTO
You are making Akaashi’s job very easy - from the moment he catches sight of you in his jersey, Bokuto feels absolutely INVINCIBLE, he can’t help but run to meet you once he catches sight of you, he lifts you off your feet and twirls you around
“Look, Y/N is wearing my jersey!!” He says it to anyone that will listen, showing you off the whole time until the match is about to start and he needs to get on the court, and you need to get to your seat
“I’ll be cheering for you!” The moment you say that, you can see him standing just a little taller, and he can’t resist pressing a few kisses to your face until you know you have to pry yourself away
He is c o n s t a n t l y glancing over at you, and every time he makes a spike, he looks your way with this huge grin on his face
The moment you meet him afterwards (they won by quite a lot), he’s telling you how amazing you are, how he thinks you’re his good luck charm, and that you should probably wear his jersey to every match
USHIJIMA
To the untrained eye, it doesn’t seem like he has much of a reaction, but when he sees you and realizes what you’re wearing, his heart legitimately skips a beat
“Is this mine?” It’s a stupid question with an obvious answer, but he asks it anyway as he tugs at the bottom hem - mans is TALL so it’s especially huge on you & he thinks it’s the cutest thing
When you nod with a shy little smile he can’t help but reach out and ruffle your hair a little bit, “It looks good on you”
His heart is going doki doki
The team pretty much instantly notices the fact that he keeps sending these short, quick glances your way and keep ribbing him about it, but all he’ll do is shake his head with this little tiny smile
He realizes that he lowkey really enjoys the fact that you’re wearing it, because then even when you’re sitting in the stands everyone knows you’re his
TENDOU
I feel like out of all of them, he’s the one that tossed out the idea of you wearing his jersey as a joke one day, and then you show up at one of his matches and you’re ACTUALLY WEARING IT
He’s acting so smug about it - “You see that SemiSemi? Y/N is wearing my jersey. Oho Goshiki, maybe one day you’ll find someone to wear your jersey”
So he’s acting all nonchalant about it but when he holds your shoulders and says, “You’re wearing it!” His voice cracks a little because the fact that you’re here and you care about him THIS MUCH - it does something to him
“You’re so cute” - he has to press kisses all over your face, to the rest of the team’s complete disgust
When you’re hanging out with them after the match he’s a little extra snuggly, with his arm around your waist or shoulders at all times, he keeps stealing these little glances at you
Get ready because now he’s expecting you to wear it to pretty much every match
okay i haven’t talked about the color spread and i just need to so
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okay first, bokuto & iwa, wow. goshiki is starstruck and tsukki is regretting his life decisions we love that
THEN oikawa and akaashi having an intellectual conversation, and semi looking fine as always
whatever the fuck is going on here. shirabu and kunimi are the same spirit. kita and ushijima are being good captains pretending like they have no idea what’s happening
i call this stonermemesquad.png no one is surprised they get along tbh that’s the lunch table i’m sitting at idk about you. that’s at least four of my favs
johzenji are the refs. who let this happen
just qtees bein qtees
blocker envy ™
kenma!! receiving!!!
libero support squad akagi ilysm
fukurodani managers bein babes
and finally the coaches
tag your lunch table
I bet you didn’t know you needed Tendou crouching at the rookie camp?
now you have it.
tendō satori icons
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i cannot live with you nor without you.
“I’m going to have him make masks for all of us today. We’re going to become ghouls.”
I just can’t fucking stop imagining Illumi in dating situations where his face is just fucking blank and soulless the whole goddamn time. Zoo Illumi : <0> <0> \ _
Movies Illumi : <0> <0> \ _ Beach Illumi: <0> <0> \ _ Cocktail Party Illumi: <0> <0> \ _
42 for Illumi 💕
Prompt: “It’s okay to break.” - “I’m not going to break.”
Kintsugi: The Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with lacquer dusted or mixed with powdered gold or similar material, highlighting the cracks instead of disguising them
The bowl is beautiful, there was no denying it. After months of waiting, the finished product fits perfectly in your palms, slivers of gold coating the rim and cracked edges of the fine china glimmering brightly under the dim light of your bedroom, starkly contrasting the porcelain white hue and ornate floral designs. Its’s perfect, so perfect that you can almost forgive yourself for breaking it in the first place. You smile, pressing your lips against it, the coolness spreading across your skin.
It almost makes you wonder if you should show this to your…. “Husband” …..
Smile faltering, you pull the bowl away from your face, and stare at the clock ticking ominously above it. You haven’t seen him in a couple weeks, and none of the butlers would even deign you the slightest answer whenever you pepper them with questions. It’s probable they know as little as you do, however unlikely that situation is.
But you know your place. For all the glamourous marble columns and comforts of plush furniture surrounding you, the fact is that the whole setup was nothing more than an elaborate cage, set to separate you from the outside world and chain you down to whatever your owner desired.
You squash the feeling of resentment piling deep in your throat, unconsciously grasping your hand to prevent it from shaking so hard. There is no use in being angry, no point in submerging yourself in that all-consuming feeling of rage that never surmounted to anything more than additional hurt.
The heavy wooden doors to your room open with a loud swing. The lack of tell-tale padding sounds gives way that this could be none other than Illumi. It shuts with a simple click, and nothing happens.
You stop and turn, wondering why he was just standing there, and nearly drop the bowl. Illumi stands at the door, hollow, unmoving, dark substances pouring from the crevices on his face. It’s blood, you realize with a shock. It dribbles down his face sluggishly, pouring out from the angular cuts that cover his face, haphazardly made and extremely painful to look at. But the dark abyss that are his eyes scare you the most. It’s different. Even more so than usual. It’s strange how emptiness is felt, how everything sucked out of the room until you’re left with nothing but beating hearts and sweaty palms. He stays where he is, your breath catches in your throat, and the familiar creeps of fear and dread crawl over your skin, clambering all over your neck and oozing into your brain, you wonder if you’ll survive the night.
“What happened?” You ask before you can stop yourself.
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i’m gonna , in my non professional opinion, go over 5 of the most “annoying” or worst yanderes to have based off my main fandoms rn. in no particular order
Overhaul: (My Hero Academia):
Kai is one of the most unique yanderes, solely based on the fact that he’s obsessed with health and values cleanliness. He wouldn’t accept anything less than what he expects from you, and it can be very irritating at times since Kai doesn’t believe in compromising his ideals.
Forces his lifestyle onto you, not caring in the slightest what your feelings on the matter are. He wants you to eat healthy, get enough sleep, take nasty tasting vitamins, get very regular checkups, and is just an overall pest about it. He can control his emotions around you but there’s a sense of irritation when you put up a fight on any of these fronts.
Kai is also thorough in everything he does, you’re no exception. There’s basically no chance that you ever get to escape or bend the rules. He’ll find out and deal with it accordingly, but the opportunity will never present itself to do these things most of the time.
Illumi (Hunter x Hunter):
Illumi is a nightmare as a yandere. It’s a whole package as well, since his awful family comes with the Illumi yandere package™. Illumi would not ever amuse any of your thoughts and opinions on things, or if he did, it would only be so he could sate your feelings. It’s condescending and annoying, even if he doesn’t mean it that way.
He thinks there’s not a single thing wrong with what he’s doing, there’s no moral awareness whatsoever to be had here. He doesn’t really help you adjust to your drastically new life as well, as he doesn’t think it should be a problem for you. Illumi will be a great husband after all, and you’ll never want for anything! Right?
There isn’t anything that you can keep to yourself. He’s instructed butlers to befriend you, so anytime you confide in him he knows. It puts you on edge as you realize his statement of having eyes on you at all times is truthful.
Izaya Orihara (Durarara):
He messes with you a lot, and is sadistic in general. Not physically, but just wanting to challenge different beliefs you have and seeing what happens. Being around Izaya too long can be dizzying. He’ll go from cooing and calling you precious to asking if you’re any different from the people you hate.
So annoying and he doesn’t care. He shows up at your school, bringing you a lunch as if it’s a casual thing to do. Will show up at your job and introduce himself as your boyfriend to your coworkers and boss. He’ll even run into you when you’re out with friends, and hang out with you as if he was invited in the first place.
Has a lot of issues with loneliness, which leads him to being clingy. He doesn’t care for other people interacting with you. If he hasn’t already kidnapped you/threatened you into compliance yet, he gets rid of any nuisances that hang out around you too often. It stirs up an ugly feeling in his gut that he has a distaste for.
Bucciarati (Jojo Part 5):
Bucciarati is a difficult yandere for a different reason than most of the others. He’s so attentive to your needs and cares for you deeply, and you know that he does. So that’s why it hurts even more when he denies you your freedom under the pretense of your well being.
He’ll hear you out, patiently waiting as you sob your heart out; begging for him to let you go. Bucciarati will even hold you as you do so, comforting you quietly as you cry into his chest. The comfort that he provides feels so genius, that even though he’s the reason you’re upset, you can’t help but accept his warmth in the moment. He’ll be reasonable and say he understands how difficult it must be for you, and you think you might be going somewhere.
But then he’ll put his foot down, saying that this truly is for your well being. He’ll talk about how much he loves you, how you mean the absolute world to him. How he couldn’t stand the thought of something happening to you, his beloved. All you can do is repeat the cycle.
Kishibe Rohan (Jojo Part 4):
Due to his stand, you have no choice but to be with him. Because of Rohan’s pride, he wouldn’t want to restrict you too heavily with Heaven’s Door at first. He would want you to return his feelings naturally, but would begin with restrictions on you not being able to talk to people he dislikes.
But if you began to drift away from him, he’d begrudgingly use Heaven’s Door to make you fall in love with him. It would be Black Mirror esque, as you loathe him in your mind but every word you speak says differently. Rohan would cruelly tease you about it, wondering where the sudden change of heart came from.
There’s no escaping this yandere. The restrictions would be impossible to break, but he might lessen them up if you promise to be good; he doesn’t want you to be a robot after all. Don’t betray this trust if you ever get it though or you’ll have to follow Heaven’s Door for the rest of your life.
Hiyaaa!!! Can you do a Illumi imagine in which he opens up to reader for the first of how he is always lonely and reader comforts him by telling him that they will never leave him as they love him?!
Hiiiii!!! OOO so this was a really interesting request to me because at first I was like “hmm idk if Illumi would” bUT the more I thought about it and the more I analyzed his character, I think I figured out how he would. Like he wouldn’t do it in the same way Killua would, so I really had to get into his mind for this. Haha anyways sorry for the ramble, I hope you enjoy and I hope you enjoy this!! Some vulnerable Illumi for the soul<3
Illumi had never questioned his place in this world, nor his place within the family. He was the eldest Zoldyck. He was had a role in the family. He was an assassin. He had no need for friends. He lived in a completely different world. He had no time for human feelings such as loneliness and longing. He was born to kill, born to serve his family.
This is how the Illumi Zoldyck held his outlook on life. He was built to serve his family. Oh and they loved him anyways, right? Of course they did! If they didn’t love him, why would they always be sending him off to work? Why would he be the one to clean up any messes from the others if he wasn’t loved? Love to a human was deep, love to an assassin was recognition and skill. His parents loved him, that’s why he kept working. Killua loved him, that’s why Killua was able to harness all his talent and be the heir to the family business.
At least that’s how Illumi saw the world, until his whole world came crashing down. He was walking about the Zoldyck Mansion, as he does on a regular day, and stopped outside the room where his parents were screaming.
“THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!” Kikyo screamed, a muffled sob could be heard as her voice broke. “If it wasn’t for you, Killua would be home now. He would be here, where he belongs and carrying on the business. It’s your fault he’s running around freely!”
“He will be back,” Silva responded, unfazed by the woman’s outbreak. “This is my son we are talking about. You and I know very well he’s not like the others. He is a success.”
“And what if he never comes back?” she rebutted, not showing signs of calming down. “What are we supposed to do? Give the business to Illumi? Our first attempt and failure! The family is better off dead than in the hands of him!”
“Will you stop it already!” Silva raised his voice. “You know I’m no idiot, I would never hand off the business to Illumi. You and I both know he is just a pawn, one we made to be thrown away. He serves us nothing like Killua will. We will get Killua back.”
While Illumi listened in with what appeared to be an emotionless expression, his heart began to shatter has realization set in. He was unloved? He was unwanted? He would be casted aside? He would serve no purpose? He had no purpose? This world has no space for him?
He rushed away from the scene, his thoughts racing as he tried to deny it all. It couldn’t be real, right? He was an assassin. He had no reason to long for love, for accept. Then why was he now falling apart?
Now he found himself at your doorstep, breathing heavily as he repeatedly knocked on the door till you answered.
“Illumi!” you answered surprised. “What are you doing here? I thought yo-”
“Do I have purpose?” Illumi asked, cutting you off.
“Well yeah of course,” you answered confused at his sudden outburst. “Why are you asking?”
“I don’t know who I am anymore,” his usual emotionless face became consumed with pain. He looked as if his whole body was about to break, like a fragile piece of glass. One more hit, and he would be shattered. You quickly pulled him inside and onto the couch, asking him gently what was going on. You let him know you were safe, that he could come to you. He had never opened up to anyone like this before, so at first was nervous. However, you were so gentle to him and so welcoming, he found himself able to tell you it all. He told you how lonely he was growing up, the abuse he faced, the lack of love and appreciation from his parents, how Killua left him, the conversation he just heard, and how he is only now realizing how empty he is. He had finally opened his heart up to not just you, but to himself.
“Illumi,” you hugged him tightly. “I had no idea you were carrying all that. I mean I knew you had a rough upbringing, but I never knew how hard. I’m sorry you have been through all this. I promise, you are enough. You have me and all my love. I love you more than anything Illumi. You’re not alone anymore. I’m here for you, always.”
For what felt like the first time, Illumi allowed himself to be consumed by your love as he melted in your touch, leaning on you. You two had been together for a few months now, but for the first time Illumi’s eyes and heart were opened. He realized he had been chasing after this type of real, pure love his entire love. He was human. He was lonely, and now he is loved. The gates to his heart were open. He was experiencing real love for once, and he loved it.
Illumi will forbid their meeting. I mean his s/o and hisoka 😂 that clown will use them as a weak point somehow or a way to "dare" to threaten illumi as he did with killua in Aluka's arc 🤣. If you dont mind I encourage you to write what you think about their meeting but I wont push it as a request.
Right. This is. Ah. Silly maybe? Honeymoon with Illumi… imagine
Sometimes, when reminded of how much of a primadonna your newly minted husband could be, it was hard to believe he was also a seasoned assassin and murderer.
Apparently, Illumi was too good for fried foods. You didn’t doubt when you brought doughnuts back he’d steal one, he was just bitter that you insisted on what you wanted rather than letting him have his way. It was his own fault for assuming you’d be fine with spending your honeymoon eating the terrible things he liked.
You’d rather go out alone, anyway. Illumi had a way of drawing attention, and that was the last thing you wanted while looking like, well, like a woman after the first night of being married.
It was a weekday, meaning that the mid-morning crowd wasn’t too overwhelming as you walked down the sidewalk. The area, much like the hotel itself, was classy, but not flashy or especially exciting. A destination honeymoon had never been of interest to you, not when jobs took you all over the world. No, all you’d wanted was to be alone with Illumi, just for a little while.
The unfortunate life of an assassin was spending most of your time away and apart from those you cared about. That thought made you sigh and hurry faster, not wanting to be gone for too long.
The bakery’s sign, an overhanging board with fancy script and a picture of doughnut, was within sight when you felt it. Or, more accurately, them.
It was somebody with distinctly powerful Aura, one that held the type of dangerous intent generally boasted only by killers.
It made you tense up, but you did your best to relax, to keep moving with your head down. Even though there wasn’t a huge crowd, you were good enough at blending in to know that as long as you didn’t behave suspiciously, it would be fine. As badly as you wanted doughnuts, you turned around and began heading back to the hotel. To Illumi.
Until you were stopped.
First thought? ‘Why is that man dressed like a circus performer at ten in the morning in a place like this?’ Second thought? ‘Fuck.’
The not-so-mysterious Nen user was leaning against the wall, leg bent and braced as if displaying the high heels he was wearing. He was waving with an oddly coquettish gesture that in no way matched the slimy smile on his painted face. That wasn’t even to mention his odd attire or his vividly magenta hair. While you’d never met the man, of course you knew who it was.
Hisoka Morow was pretty recognizable, although descriptions in no way compared to the reality.
“Why are you here?” you asked, eyes already narrowed in suspicion.
“I take it Illumi has mentioned me? I hope he hasn’t said anything too slanderous, I’d hate for you to have the wrong impression,” Hisoka kicked off from the wall to approach you, his heels clicking on the sidewalk.
He was drawing all sorts of nervous side glances from the people on the street, you felt your skin prickle from the eyes. With a frustrated huff, you crossed your arms. This was the last thing you wanted.
“Why are you here, Hisoka?” you asked, voice hardened. He looked pleased by your dismissive behavior, an unnerving expression. As much as you despised the thought for its weakness, you wished Illumi would have come with you, after all.
“It seems like you’re in a bad mood. Is Illumi taking care of you properly? Should he and I have the talk?” he asked, his voice dropping suggestively, “He can be so stiff…”
You raised an eyebrow, wondering if you should be surprised, grossed out, or scared.
“Is that a fact?” you asked, keeping your voice cold.
“Mmm,” Hisoka responded, his eyebrows raising to match the deepening of his smile, “Illumi and I made our own vows long before he met you. I know him very well.”
You were glad to be saved from having to respond, not that you’d know how to, by a familiar presense. Hisoka felt him too, freeing you of his gaze.
“Hey,” Illumi didn’t sound even slightly inconvenienced, adding to the scene that was already drawing far too many eyes. As unaffected as he seemed, you didn’t miss the protective stance he took in front of you.
“I was just talking about how hurt I was to hear you got married without inviting me. Isn’t it the custom for the groom’s closest friend to be the best man?” Hisoka asked.
“Yes,” Illumi replied evenly.
Hisoka’s smile flattened.
“Is that all?” there was something hard in Illumi’s tone, frightening. Hisoka heard it too, although it seemed to cheer him up.
“Illumi-”
“If you approach my wife again, I’ll kill you.”
May we have some dead fish eyed zoldyck sauce from you?
Soulmate au: the first words you speak to your soulmate are visible on your arm.
Mindlessly zapping through the television channels, your eyelids fell heavy on your eyes, indicating your exhaustion. Seeing that nothing noteworthy was on, you turned it off. The lack of noise was welcome and excruciating at the same time. On the one hand, you couldn’t stand the artificial sounds coming from the less than optimal sound system anymore, but the relative silence was probably worse.
As now you had to focus purely on the beeping sounds of the machinery next to you.
You leaned back into the bed, looking up at the ceiling for a few moments before looking beside you to find a book. The balloons and get-well cards that used to occupy that space had dwindled, now only containing your own possessions. Opening the book, you started reading.
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litany in which certain things are crossed out by richard siken / dead poets society (1989) / if we were villains by m.l.rio / it: chapter two (2019) / the secret history by donna tartt
Dazai: You call it a near-death experience, I call it a vibe check from god.
Dazai: Good morning, cruel world.
Kunikida: Isn't it 'goodbye'?
Dazai: The world may be cruel but unfortunately, I'm still kicking.