xinvrse
we love the stars we cannot reach
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MCR MENTIONED!??!? wtf do you mean i'm 60
indecision
word count-
a/n- first one i wrote since a looong time ago. not writing to get fame anymore, just writing because 🤷♀️
feedback is always lovely, sorry for the short amount haha, enjoy
in thousands of timelines, in million of universes, Yn was not supposed to be in the same one as Yunjin.
however, in even more unfortunate way, Yn was here, laying in her arms.
often a room filled with music and laughter, yunjin’s room now only remained in silence. the faint echo of the thunderstorm outside occasionally struck the quiet of the room, but the two were devoid of anything else.
yunjins arms wrapped around yn from behind her, the two rested on the bed in a cozy manner. yunjin, the one usually talking like there was no time left for the two of them, was unusually quiet. as if she was listening to the faint after-hum the lightning outside created, and the tapping of the droplets rain made on the roof of yunjin’s family apartment.
Opening her mouth slightly to speak, yn’s eyes met yunjin’s in a hesitant manner. almost instinctively, yunjin’s loosely wrapped arms tightened slightly, and she cocked her head, waiting for the words to come. those eyes, rounded by the god of whatever beauty is, looking at her like she was their world. yn’s eyes trailed over the girls ginger hair, considering her question. she doubted disrupting the quiet that both basked in, a stillness often disrupted by yunjins chaotic family, but the looming fear arose past any doubt.
“I…” She trailed off, her hand reaching up slowly to push yunjin’s glasses upwards slightly. she watched as yunjin’s nose scrunched as she did that, as they always did. the unuse of her glasses due to yunjins obsession with colored contacts, which she claims “work better than glasses ever will”, causes any action with her glasses for her eyes to crinkle, for yn’s heart to burst, for everything yn ever wanted to appear right in front of her in the form of huh jennifer.
just as she was about to reach out, her fingers a soft light haloing them, to leave a touch on her beautiful girls face, another frightening pain went through her, and she hesitated.
yunjin was going to leave to korea, and leave yn here.
“I shouldn’t be here, should I?”
the silence was more deafening than ever. it was never yunjins fault to want to leave the small new york town they grew up in. a neighborhood was never enough for the fame that yn knew was destined for her jen. but, nonetheless, the rising anxiousness of a world where yn would never wake up to yunjins perfume and touch, watching her rub the sleep from her eyes, and pepper kisses on yunjins cute chubby face until she giggled- seeing the crinkly smile she loves so much only on screen in the form of le serrafim-
her breath hitched as shes grounded to the decision she must make, to leave the girl she loves so much so that yunjin can have what she deserves- she shakes slightly as she watches yunjins rigid posture, her eyes still and emptied of emotions- god, what if she already lost her-
“who cares where you should be?” she murmured. there was a look on yunjins face, her eyes looking at yn with a pleading manner, almost as if she knew that yn wasnt only talking about the classes she was missing.
yunjin brough her own hands up, taking a gentle grasp on the fingers yn just raised, pulling them down to her. just as yn opened her mouth to argue, her brows furrowing in a defensive manner, her eyes dropped to the pout on yunjins lips, the curdling in her stomach only adding to the fear of upsetting the girl she loves.
oh god.
as yn looked back up to yunjins puppy eyes, her chest tightening with so much want for something she can’t have, the circles yunjin traces on her palms grounds her once again. the nails yunjin is so obsessed with manicuring weekly, lightly brushing across yn’s hands in a continuous manner, unconsious yet so real. everything about yunjin was that way.
“you’re here, with me right now.” yunjin’s eye crinkling smile peeks through her serious expression, her fingers interlacing with yn’s in a casual manner. her eyes still trained on yn, her loose way of showing yn that she could handle whatever the world threw at them, the simple acts she did, all packed with so. much.
the ways she always knew how yn liked her food, slightly warm with an egg on top (always), how she never judged yn for her anxiousness, her fears, the way she always held dear to whatever yn would do.
it was so easy for yunjin to love.
yns eyes began to glisten with the tears she pushed back, and she bit her bottom lip to stop whatever was going to happen next. the love in yunjins eyes, the clawing in her chest that tells her to stop, the conflict yunjin caused simply by existing.
she knew they would never last, that one day she would look up at the big screen in the new york she’s stuck in, and see her lovely yunjin dressed in expensive clothing and perfume masking the sweet, town-ridden, clingy, cheap perfume, and unbearably soft jen she loves so much.
but, with a single whisper, with the slight pout yunjin carried, with the doe-eyes yn fell so damn hard for, her decision was made.
“stay.”
“you’ll be the death of me someday, jen.”
mandy, i love u
indecision
word count-
a/n- first one i wrote since a looong time ago. not writing to get fame anymore, just writing because 🤷♀️
feedback is always lovely, sorry for the short amount haha, enjoy
in thousands of timelines, in million of universes, Yn was not supposed to be in the same one as Yunjin.
however, in even more unfortunate way, Yn was here, laying in her arms.
often a room filled with music and laughter, yunjin’s room now only remained in silence. the faint echo of the thunderstorm outside occasionally struck the quiet of the room, but the two were devoid of anything else.
yunjins arms wrapped around yn from behind her, the two rested on the bed in a cozy manner. yunjin, the one usually talking like there was no time left for the two of them, was unusually quiet. as if she was listening to the faint after-hum the lightning outside created, and the tapping of the droplets rain made on the roof of yunjin’s family apartment.
Opening her mouth slightly to speak, yn’s eyes met yunjin’s in a hesitant manner. almost instinctively, yunjin’s loosely wrapped arms tightened slightly, and she cocked her head, waiting for the words to come. those eyes, rounded by the god of whatever beauty is, looking at her like she was their world. yn’s eyes trailed over the girls ginger hair, considering her question. she doubted disrupting the quiet that both basked in, a stillness often disrupted by yunjins chaotic family, but the looming fear arose past any doubt.
“I…” She trailed off, her hand reaching up slowly to push yunjin’s glasses upwards slightly. she watched as yunjin’s nose scrunched as she did that, as they always did. the unuse of her glasses due to yunjins obsession with colored contacts, which she claims “work better than glasses ever will”, causes any action with her glasses for her eyes to crinkle, for yn’s heart to burst, for everything yn ever wanted to appear right in front of her in the form of huh jennifer.
just as she was about to reach out, her fingers a soft light haloing them, to leave a touch on her beautiful girls face, another frightening pain went through her, and she hesitated.
yunjin was going to leave to korea, and leave yn here.
“I shouldn’t be here, should I?”
the silence was more deafening than ever. it was never yunjins fault to want to leave the small new york town they grew up in. a neighborhood was never enough for the fame that yn knew was destined for her jen. but, nonetheless, the rising anxiousness of a world where yn would never wake up to yunjins perfume and touch, watching her rub the sleep from her eyes, and pepper kisses on yunjins cute chubby face until she giggled- seeing the crinkly smile she loves so much only on screen in the form of le serrafim-
her breath hitched as shes grounded to the decision she must make, to leave the girl she loves so much so that yunjin can have what she deserves- she shakes slightly as she watches yunjins rigid posture, her eyes still and emptied of emotions- god, what if she already lost her-
“who cares where you should be?” she murmured. there was a look on yunjins face, her eyes looking at yn with a pleading manner, almost as if she knew that yn wasnt only talking about the classes she was missing.
yunjin brough her own hands up, taking a gentle grasp on the fingers yn just raised, pulling them down to her. just as yn opened her mouth to argue, her brows furrowing in a defensive manner, her eyes dropped to the pout on yunjins lips, the curdling in her stomach only adding to the fear of upsetting the girl she loves.
oh god.
as yn looked back up to yunjins puppy eyes, her chest tightening with so much want for something she can’t have, the circles yunjin traces on her palms grounds her once again. the nails yunjin is so obsessed with manicuring weekly, lightly brushing across yn’s hands in a continuous manner, unconsious yet so real. everything about yunjin was that way.
“you’re here, with me right now.” yunjin’s eye crinkling smile peeks through her serious expression, her fingers interlacing with yn’s in a casual manner. her eyes still trained on yn, her loose way of showing yn that she could handle whatever the world threw at them, the simple acts she did, all packed with so. much.
the ways she always knew how yn liked her food, slightly warm with an egg on top (always), how she never judged yn for her anxiousness, her fears, the way she always held dear to whatever yn would do.
it was so easy for yunjin to love.
yns eyes began to glisten with the tears she pushed back, and she bit her bottom lip to stop whatever was going to happen next. the love in yunjins eyes, the clawing in her chest that tells her to stop, the conflict yunjin caused simply by existing.
she knew they would never last, that one day she would look up at the big screen in the new york she’s stuck in, and see her lovely yunjin dressed in expensive clothing and perfume masking the sweet, town-ridden, clingy, cheap perfume, and unbearably soft jen she loves so much.
but, with a single whisper, with the slight pout yunjin carried, with the doe-eyes yn fell so damn hard for, her decision was made.
“stay.”
“you’ll be the death of me someday, jen.”
she likes a boy
pairing: f!reader x kim yooyeon
genre: angst.
warning: none
I stood in the corner of the gym, my heart aching at the sight in front of me. The girl i loved was laughing, her smile so bright and warm, and her eyes sparkling like stars in the night sky as he wrapped his arm around her waist. They looked good together—his hand rubbing her side comfortingly, her laughter mixed with his. Every look, every touch between them made me feel like I was being torn apart from the inside.
I clenched my jaw, my nails digging into my palms as my hands trembled. I had memorized every little detail in her smile, the sound of laughter was music to my ears, and the way her eyes lit up when she was happy made me happy with her. But now, her laughter, her smiles, and her happy expressions weren’t for me. Now, they’re all for him.
I hate it. I hate the way she looks at him so happy, how she goes to him for comfort, how she looks at him like he’s the only person in her world.
I hate how much it hurts to see her with him.
I want to look away from them, to escape the horrible ache in my chest at the sight, but I can’t. I yearned for her like a star falling from gravity’s embrace.
And then, they walked away, his arm now on her shoulder and hers on his waist. I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I was holding. A dull ache settled in my chest, my love for her buried deep inside where no one could see.
I know that some loves aren’t meant to be. Some loves are to be carried in silence, in the darkest parts of the shadows, where no one can see the ache in my chest that will soon break.
— ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ MAMMA MIA ⋆౨ৎ˚ .ᐟ SOPHIA LAFORTEZA
❝𝐌𝐀𝐌𝐌𝐀 𝐌𝐈𝐀, 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐈 𝐆𝐎 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍
𝐌𝐘, 𝐌𝐘, 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐈 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐈𝐒𝐓 𝐘𝐎𝐔?❞
there’s always been one rule in the group: don’t bring up y/n. no one really knows why, but it’s clear sophia would rather leave her ex-best friend in the past. once inseparable, their friendship dissolved after a summer camp that no one talks about, and y/n vanished, moving god-knows-where without so much as a goodbye. some say it was a fight. others say it was something more. only sophia knows the truth—or maybe not even she does. now, as the third year at dream academy begins, sophia is blindsided by y/n's unexpected return. gone is the familiar, easygoing childhood bestfriend she remembers. in her place is someone sharper, colder, and—unfortunately for sophia—hotter than ever. (who gave her the permission to look so fine?)
tags .ᐟ smau, crack, fluff, awkward idiots, grumpy x sunshine (or at least my attempt to), childhood bestfriends to lovers, theatre children, coarse language, suggestive themes, nonceleb! au, university au!, sexual jokes, kys nd die jokes, mentions of substances, my writing
featuring .ᐟ katseye, p1harmony, ive, le sserafim and etc
pairing .ᐟ sophia laforteza x female reader
status .ᐟ ongoing
notes .ᐟ this smau was made for fun and entertainment. it is not an actual portrayal of the people mentioned in this smau, nor are the photos used to portray y/n. ignore timestamps. dream academy is a performing arts university. divider cred: @/adornedwithlight. TAGLIST CLOSED.
❝𝐌𝐀𝐌𝐌𝐀 𝐌𝐈𝐀, 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐓 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍?
𝐌𝐘, 𝐌𝐘, 𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐈’𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔?❞
PROFILES
rock, paper, 👩❤️💋👩 (and keeho) — mommy day care
01. oomfchella @ school
02. dire omen
03. livin la vida loca
04. tying the noose as we speak
05. lore
06. just like old times
07. extracurricular
08. for evermore
09. best friend of the year
10. casting
11. square up
12. a b c d e f g
13. love finds a way
14. petty
15. nonchalant mfs
16. getting somewhere
more in progress!
™ CINNAMANZ 2025
i can't be your love
pairing: zhou xinyu x f!reader
genre: short angst
warnings: none
“do you love her?”
nien crossed her arms over her chest while waiting for xinyu’s response.
xinyu opened her mouth to speak, but nothing came out. she just looked up at her best friend with teary eyes and nodded.
nien sighed and wrapped her arms around xinyu, pulling the latter's head to her chest.
“xinyu…”
xinyu sobbed into nien’s shoulder, her hands balling the latter’s jacket into her fists.
“i love her so much.”
nien held xinyu tightly, letting the girl's tears stain her jacket. “i know, i know.” she whispered in her ear, gently running her fingers through her charcoal locks.
xinyu kept crying and it seemed like she wasn’t going to stop any time soon.
unbeknownst to xinyu, y/n was standing right outside the door, unintentionally listening to nien comfort xinyu by whispering sweet nothings into her ear.
y/n didn’t realize that tears had begun to fall down her cheeks until the lump in her throat had started to become unbearable. she let out a shaky breath and began to walk away quietly, the tears furiously streaming down her face.
she quietly mumbled, “i love you, too…”
she let out a shaky breath and began to walk away quietly, tears furiously streaming down her face.
maybe in another life, y/n wouldn’t be so afraid and let herself be in a relationship one last time.
