I Met My Younger Self For A Coffee Today.

I never spend money on stuff I actually want but blow it all on snacks. Maybe if I stopped I'd be happier because I actually have stuff I want and so much less fat too

Lol I may be back? Idk. 4 months tho! That's crazy. I'm not sure yet. But it's so weird being back! Missed yall😔 miss my old account where I had thousands of moots 💔 anyways hey! Idk what tags yall use anymore so I'm just using the ones recommended to me

The whole reason I wanted to recover in the first place was for my grades so I don't think I'll do too low a deficit (800-900cals a day) and because I was scared because my mom caught me lying about lunch at school so I was convinced she was stalking me oops

May be back. Idk yet.

I missed the edblr so much I'm glad i relapsed

I swear if I’m not at my ugw by new year

I won't make the same mistakes as last time. I'll be more discreet. I'll tell no one. I won't even mention w8 (except rn because you cant tell I've relapsed yet and our scale is broken so I'm trying to get my mom to buy a new one cuz I'm 'curious' how well my recovery going). I'm logging Absolutely everything. Every bite. If I don't finish something I'm still logging it as if I did. I'll only eat in front of people to avoid suspicion. I. Will. Not. Fail.

I don't even have a best friend. My friends are barely even friends I'm just there. 4na's the only girl in my life😔

Me when I get a job🤗🤗

Me when the job gives me free dinners....

My mum asked me today if my clothes were fitting looser??? I said why and she says I look like I've lost w8! I don't have a scale so idk what I weigh lol but omg!!!

Relapsing with a broken scale is my worst nightmare💔 I DONT KNOW WHAT I WEIGH ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY

Unfortunately I'm too heavy footed to pace my room for hours without my parents finding out