Ordered A Mini Stepper...its Obviously Not Gonna Be As Good As If I Were To Get A Walking Pad But I'm

I don't even have a best friend. My friends are barely even friends I'm just there. 4na's the only girl in my life😔

I can’t live like this anymore.

I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.

I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.

Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.

I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.

Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?

I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.

And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?

I don't want my friends and family to know I've relapsed so im trying to eat normal foods sometimes but only eat a little bit and I don't know it a wrap or small baguette is lower cal😭 they're both so high but I need help!!

Gonna cry I can’t believe i got banned😭

Forever mourning the LIFE app💔💔 best fasting app out there😔😔

i lost almost all my teenage years to being f4t n ugly i cant lose another year

I might start buying acv gummies again but I need to hide it better this time because last time my parents went through my room and found all the empty bottles and went mental at me

Chat I've lost interest in all my hobbies again does this mean its working?????

Update I ended up just going on my mini stepper for like 3 hours straight lol

Weekend plans!

Over the weekend I have tons of stuff to do, I need to lose w8 obv, but I also need to study for school because my chemistry teacher should have retired ages ago so I gotta teach myself. I also wanna platinum trophy a game, so I have a plan.

It's the last two trophies left and it's playing on the hardest difficulty so I'm gonna die a lot

My April fools joke to myself was saying I'd start this month well. 1k cals today and 500 of them was a chocolate bar😭