Wish Bmi Was The Only Number I Cared About But Unfortunately I Care About My Grades Too And Always Gain

Me when I may finally get a job #unemployed and it's at a CHINESE FOOD PLACE😔 I love Chinese food💔

Got t'd, trying to find my moots!

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Binged the last 2 days. Might just kms

Since I've been abandoned by my friends I'm gonna spend so much of my summer in the gym

Unfortunately I'm too heavy footed to pace my room for hours without my parents finding out

GUYS HELP I WOKE UP YESTERDAY AND MY CLOTHES WERE TIGHTER AND I SWEAR MY THIGHS GOT BIGGER AND I DONT HAVE A SCALE BUT IM FREAKINH OUT! Is it possible this is because my periods due soon!??!? I lost my period immediately last year so this is completely new to me

I can’t live like this anymore.

I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.

I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.

Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.

I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.

Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?

I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.

And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?

My mum asked me today if my clothes were fitting looser??? I said why and she says I look like I've lost w8! I don't have a scale so idk what I weigh lol but omg!!!

Couldn’t be me haha...