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✶⋆𝕀𝕟𝕥𝕣𝕠𝕕𝕦𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 ℙ𝕠𝕤𝕥⋆✶

𝙷𝚒, 𝙸'𝚖 𝙴𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚢 𝙱𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚕, 𝚊.𝚔.𝚊. 𝚂𝚑𝚞𝚞𝚔𝚘

𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚘𝚗 𝚃𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚛 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚒𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚍𝚞𝚌𝚎 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏, 𝚜𝚘 𝚗𝚘𝚠'𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎

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𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝙸 𝚍𝚘 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐: 𝙸'𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚠𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜, 𝚙𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚌𝚛𝚊𝚏𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚖𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜, 𝚋𝚘𝚝𝚑 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚕𝚍; 𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚊 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚋𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜, 𝚖𝚊𝚢𝚋𝚎 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚜

𝙻𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜: 𝙴𝚗𝚐𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑, 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑, 𝚊 𝚋𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝙹𝚊𝚙𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚖𝚜: 𝙷𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚒𝚊, 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚗 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚎, 𝚅𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚘𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚕, 𝚂𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚊𝚕 𝙴𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝙻𝚊𝚒𝚗, 𝙷𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚔𝚒 𝚗𝚘 𝙺𝚞𝚗𝚒, 𝙽𝚎𝚘𝚗 𝙶𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚜 𝙴𝚟𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚘𝚗, 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎: 𝟷𝟿𝟿𝟿, 𝙱𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚘𝚞 𝚂𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝙳𝚘𝚐𝚜, 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚘𝚕𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕 𝚄𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚊, 𝚂𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚕 (𝚍𝚘𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚑𝚠𝚊 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚖?), 𝙳𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊𝚗𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚙𝚊, (𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚜)

𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌: 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝙴𝚃𝚄, 𝚆𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚆𝚘𝚘𝚍, 𝙰𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚗 𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚎, 𝙼𝚢𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚝𝚣, 𝙷𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚒𝚍, 𝚅𝚘𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚒𝚍, 𝚄𝚝𝚊𝚞, 𝙲𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛 𝙽𝚘𝚒𝚛, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔𝚜: 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚄𝚗𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝙻𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝙱𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝙰𝚕𝚕 𝚃𝚘𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙲𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚕, 𝙶𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝙿𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚎, 𝙲𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚗 𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚜, 𝚆𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚎𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝, 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙶𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝙰𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚙𝚜: 𝙼𝚒𝚣𝚒𝚂𝚞𝚊, 𝙰𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚄𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚊, 𝙿𝚛𝚞𝚜𝙿𝚘𝚕

𝙵𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜: 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙿𝚘𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍, 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙷𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚊𝚛𝚢, 𝚊𝚙𝚑 𝙲𝚣𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚊, 𝚊𝚕𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚂𝚞𝚊, 𝚛𝚐𝚞 𝙰𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚢, 𝚋𝚜𝚍 𝙵𝚢𝚘𝚍𝚘𝚛 (𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎, 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚢 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚋𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚗), 𝚑𝚗𝚔 𝚈𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚍

𝙾𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚌𝚒𝚊𝚕𝚜: 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚃𝚞𝚋𝚎

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𝙰𝚗𝚢𝚠𝚊𝚢, 𝙸 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚋𝚎 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚗𝚘𝚠!

Tiny Ranpo demands sweets and snacks

(Also ayy I learned how to make signature stamp so now it's fancy >:])

Refrence/original idea taken from Pinterest v

Last week was kinda intense for me but I finally finished the wip!!!

So enjoy Tiny-gawa

Also been experimenting with some brushes and how I shade

Me without you

Colored mechanical pencil is fun as hell

A wip doodle (≧∇≦)/

Working through art block-

And Lucy phase is still going strong

So ta-da magical girl Lucy!

Forgive me for the half-descent insults but I think this happened more than once

Like they’ve accidentally wore the same blouse or lipstick or even the same headband once TT

Live Laugh Love Lucy- ૧(ꂹີωꂹີૂ)

Spring has no mercy on me and my pollen allergies ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶

so here's a fem Dazai doodle as a goddess of spring

Father and son

Ahhh I love them so much!! I'm so happy Untold origins got a manga adaptation

ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)♡

Me awaiting the next BSD chapter like :

Shoujo Dazai (∂ω∂)

Happy (early) Valentine's Day everyone!!!

Fem soukoku my beloved (≧∇≦)/

Silly fellas being silly _(:3 」∠)_

I really like how this came out ٩( ᐛ )و

I'm thinking of posting more of traditional art

A little Albatross doddle in celebration of Stormbringer manga ^^

Art for @de4cades! (idk if you're still doing the art trade even if not this was fun to draw (≧▽≦))

(aaaaa first time drawing Elise (>﹏<))

But yeah here's Elise in the outfit she has in "Portrait Studio" Mayoi card :3

v bonus!!!!

Pov : you disrespected her dog or smth :P

(kinda proud of this one ngl)

ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

It is with great pleasure that I reveal to all of you…

:+: Crochet Akutagawa :+:

After a full day of crocheting (which is waaay less time then I expected) I have completed my own version of a crochet Akutagawa.

I made him from cotton, which is my usual yarn medium. I used a basic doll base and tweaked it to my preference, then made him his frilled undershirt, coat and cravat.

I must say, the hair was the hardest part of this project and I’m still not completely happy with the outcome. By the way, there’s no wire at all! He doesn’t free stand, unfortunately, but I love how the ties of his coat stick up! (And ofc I crocheted a little Rashomon as well.)

:+: Request a character :+:

Hello everyone! I am doing a Request a Character thing to give myself a bit of a challenge. My ask box is always open to requests, but I wanted to invite anyone who sees this to feel free to request a specific character from any of the following fandoms I’m in.

-Bungo Stray Dogs

-Hetalia

-Fullmetal Alchemist

-Zelda

-Studio Ghibli

:+: Request guidelines :+:

-Absolutely no nsfw asks.

-I do NOT draw ships. (Not even zelink!!)

-Depending on how many asks I receive, I may not get to yours in a very timely manner. I haven’t forgotten you! If your ask is a bit much for me, I will straight up tell you so you aren’t wondering wether I got it or not. (I am still very limited in what I can do, so please keep that in mind.)

Thank you!

pov: ur an Atsushi kinnie in a trio with an Akutagawa and Dazai kinnie, and you have to watch the exact same situation between BSD Akutagawa and Dazai play out irl

#why do akutagawa kinnies seek the love and approval of the dazai in their life so much </3

Atsushi Kinnie Callout - From an Atsushi Kinnie (Part 1)

I'm gonna be brutally honest here and projecting a lot so be warned fellow kinnies

1. You were taught that the worth of your life is determined by how much you help or benefit others

An important figure in your life (the orphanage “headmaster”) taught you that people who don’t help others with their existence do not deserve to live, and it would be better if they were dead.

The irony is, you only extend this belief to yourself, because you recognize that in extending it to others, you would be believing some other people do not deserve to live. And you recognize how cruel, terrible and wrong that is. Yet, you cannot see how cruel and terrible it is to yourself.

2. You have a huge savior complex

Since you believe the value of your life comes from how much you benefit others, you try to help people as much as you can. To others, it seems like you are a kind and selfless person, but deep down, you have two things motivating you:

• the suffocating fear of being unworthy of living if you aren't of any use to people around you

• the rush of "selfish” joy you feel when you have a great impact on someone, when you are the most important person to someone and are irreplaceable to them. Because these make you feel useful and worthy of living.

Because of these, you have the tendency to form codependent relationships, with you as the "giver". It ensures that someone always needs you, so you are always worthy of living. You may even become slightly manipulative, befriending and trying to become close to those who seem more in need of help, more isolated, more lonely.

Because they're more likely to need you, as desperately as you need to be needed.

3. You believe your kindness is fake, and that you are actually a selfish and terrible person

Because you help people out of the selfish motivation to make yourself feel better, so that you feel like you deserve to live more, you feel endlessly guilty. Because.. an actually kind person would help others, for others to be happy, not for themselves, right?

Additionally, since the belief that helping others gives you the permission to live was taught to you, you feel your kindness was a taught behavior as well. You feel that at your core, you are a selfish person who was just taught not to be, and that makes all the selfless actions you’ve done worthless. Maybe you approach caring for others in a calculating way: memorize their interests, check up on them, listen to them; these will make people happy.

4. Guilt is your primary emotion

Guilt for your existence, for your mistakes, for failing to help people, is the biggest driver of your emotions. Guilt controls your life, and it is an exhausting emotion to live with.

5. You care more about what’s inside than outside

You’re not concerned about other people or your appearances, reputations or social status, because how people treat others around them and their hearts is much more important to you.

6. You are stuck in the past

The belief that chains you to the cycle of guilt is one in your past. The headmaster in your life is gone now, but the flashbacks and words remain. Why is that? Is it because you became so used to them, that they kept you safe? They were all you ever knew, the only way you knew how to navigate the world. With no other guide, you are terrified of letting go of this belief, which defines your existence.

Maybe you are terrified, if you let go of this belief, you will become a terrible and selfish person. Or maybe you are scared of becoming better, because it would feel like your past never happened.

Okay thanks for reading! Will post part 2 when this gets 20+ notes :D

Atsushi Analysis - why I kin Atsushi Nakajima (and maybe why you kin him too)

From the moment I started watching Bungo Stray Dogs, I felt a huge connection to and related a lot to Atsushi, and it’s the reason he is still one of my favorite characters to this day. But reading other people’s analysis of Atsushi, though they are wonderful, I didn’t feel like they quite captured how I connected to him. So I am posting this in the hope someone will feel similarly to me and be able to relate! :D

starting with episode 1, the first scene that struck me was Atsushi’s flashbacks:

I did not grow up in an orphanage, and my past is nowhere near as terrible as Atsushi’s, but a parental figure (the ‘headmaster’ in my life) had spoken to me like this in the past, and their words continued to haunt me almost everyday, or when something triggered them. What shook me was that Atsushi’s flashbacks were almost identical to the words that would attack me often in my head.

“You’re useless.”

“Worthless.”

“Stupid.”

“You should just die.” “It would be better if you were dead.” (If you relate to this, I’m sending you the biggest virtual hug <3 no one deserves to think these thoughts, and they are so wrong.)

2. The way Atsushi hugged his legs when he was upset was exactly how I sat when I was upset.

3. The test to join the Armed Detective Agency

To save everyone from the bomb, Atsushi covered it with his own body, thinking it would kill him but protect everyone else.

At the time I watched BSD for the first time, I genuinely believed my life was worth less than others’. Therefore, as a logical choice, I would have done exactly the same thing as Atsushi. If my life was worth less than others’, then I was the logical sacrifice.

4. The worth of Atsushi’s Life

in the episode when Atsushi fights Kyouka, we find out the belief that the headmaster instilled in Atsushi: that Inconveniencing/not benefitting others means he doesn’t deserve to live, while saving (or helping) others means he deserves to live.

Simply put, Atsushi believes the worth of his life comes from how much he helps and benefits others.

and that is exactly the same belief my parental figure taught me.

By trying to save/help others, Atsushi seeks the permission to live, to exist. Maybe, if he helps just one more person, if he has a big enough impact on someone, then he’ll finally be free of the guilt he feels for existing. But it is a never ending cycle, because there’s no finish line for his race. How many people, exactly, does he have to “save” for him to be worthy of existing? He lives in never ending guilt, never ending fear, that the amount he has helped is not enough for him to live. The truth is, the number of people he saves will never be enough until he confronts his twisted belief.

5. Atsushi vs Akutagawa

this is the moment Atsushi confronts the belief he was taught that how much he helps others determines his right to live. He realizes through the injustice of Kyouka’s situation that others don’t get to decide if someone is worthy of living. Because everyone is worthy of life, including Kyouka, and so including Atsushi as well.

And watching this, I realized it with him. The ‘headmaster’ in my life didn’t get to decide how much I deserved to live. No one did. Everyone has the same right to live.

so if you related to this post, you deserve to live too. Not because you help others, because your life is valuable and precious, without you doing anything at all. <3

have a photo of my Atsushi plushie cuz I love him sm <3 thanks for reading!

BSD SPOILERS POSSIBLE BSD SPOILERS IM SORRY I DON’T KNOW HOW TO ADD CONTENT LITTLE WARNINGS FOR SPOILERS

what if because of Fyodors (possible or confirmed unsure) religious past and present, he thinks Atsushi isnt “man” enough due to his reaction to his offer to join the DOA, he see’s him more a “boy” and less than a “man” because he’s more emotional.

What if the orphanage told Atsushi that and that’s why he’s so insecure and why thinks he’s so weak, i believe there are SOME implications that the orphanage could’ve possibly been religious, and with how he was treated its possible they could’ve told him stuff like how he’s “not ready to be a man yet” because he’d was just a more emotional kid

okay thats it!! i’lll go back to drawing, #1 atsushi fan is leaving now

more old art actually uh idk i promise i’ll draw new stuff soon this is just old art

never in my life I was so disgusted... I saw blood, I saw naked women, I saw a lot of things.

This scrawl (which is not a real photo) is making me want to see my best friend again Even more up there....

short bitch why...

BOO (Dazai jump scare)

*slaps him*

who's your type?

Well

Angry bitches

orange hair

blue eyes

stupid.

Obviously, Ed Sheeran!

Of course

i look homo in those clothes