Maladaptive - Blog Posts

I wanna give up daydreaming so bad. I’ve been doing it for 6 years now and I feel like I’ve missed out on so many things. I would lie and say I felt sick when my parents and siblings wanted to go out and do things just so I could be left by myself so I could pace around my room without being interrupted. When all my friend where having sleepovers I would decline the offers because I wanted to be by myself so I could daydream without the fear of them judging me. I use to throw a tantrum whenever my headphones broke and I could not get new ones right away. I would skip out on band practice just so I could get a few more hour in. I’ve caused myself so much stress because I would rather daydream than do my homework/study. I just graduated high school and I almost missed my graduation because I wanted to stay home and daydream. I use to think it was no big deal that it wasn’t interfering with my life that I was not missing out on anything, but now looking back I realize that I’ve missed out on so many things. I loved that I had the ability to go and pretend to be someone who was popular, confident, selfless...everything that I wanted to be. Even when everyone else my age had stop having imaginary friends. I mean I can’t describe the feeling of daydreaming. I love doing it so much but when I stop at the end of the day and I realized all of the stuff I could have done if I was had not spent all day running around my room (I have to paint my floor every other month because I’ve walked so much the paint has came off). I feel like a complete idiot for wasting my day like that. I am starting college next spring and I’m planning to intern for NASA next summer so I need to stop thinking about my imaginary world and who I am there and focus more on me in this one. But everytime I try to stop i can’t because it’s just to hard. The longest I’ve went without daydreaming was a week and that was because I was stuck in a hotel room with my siblings, but even than I would daydream when I was in the shower, in bed, or the car. I just want to try and stop for good or at least where it stops interfering with my social life.

You guys know maladaptive daydreaming? Well I heard of it from like an article and I looked it up on tumblr, and it turns out a lot if people do it.

Sometimes it just feels so alienating to be so invested with these fantasy worlds that you make in your mind and I'm glad I'm not alone in this.😂

In my own experience I usually start daydreaming on long car rides while listening to music. Or if I really like a t.v show or book and like the way things work or like characters dynamics, I'll implement stories into the world and kinda add myself in.

For example I really enjoyed Soul Eater during my anime phase, and to this day I somtimes start to daydream about it. Although there's this weird side effect about it, where if the thing I'm daydreaming about doesn't have much a story to it anymore because it's over and there's not much more to daydream about I kinda start to lose interest. My posts usually don't get more than like one note, or any at that, but if someone actually reads this for some godforsaken reason. You're not alone in this, and I'd really be interested to hear what you have to say.