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I'm the Artist, she's my Muse.
I'm the Devil, she's my Salvation.
I'm the Monster, she's my Humanity.
I'm the Wolf, She's my Moon.
Monster: I have honor
Artist: I have bravery
Seb: I have heart
Wolf: But all I have ... is Rage
Maybe it's festering. Maybe it's mending. Maybe it's Maybelline.
why does it burn
Relatable post that I dont want to relate to.
me giving affection: oh man i really hope im not like overstepping my boundaries here. what if i make them uncomfortable? do they feel obligated to say thank you? am i going too far and scaring them? what if i’m annoying?
me receiving affection: AAAAAAAAA!!!!! AAAAAAA!A!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAA
And so I will stay.
sometimes I wonder how we all survive and then I look at my best friends and I go “oh, I survive because I don’t want to leave you yet” and it makes sense. life is so hard a lot of the time, but I want one more bowl of pasta with you.
She isn't On tumbler
i wanna date someone and live with them in a shitty apartment but be happy about it because we are happy together and we can decorate it with stupid dorky posters of shit we like and figurines and art and we can cook weird recipes we found on the internet and eat them and watch cartoons even if the food is gross because we made it and we’re perfect
I'll be the hot glue villain. I am immune no one else is muahhahqhah
When I was young
Alone in my time of need
An angel came to me
He offered to be my shield
If I could show him selfless beauty
So I became an artist
When I got a bit older
In my time of need
I called for the Monster
He offered to keep me sane
if I could help those in need
as an exchange
So I became a listener
When I was at my breaking point
The devil spoke to me
He offered me his silver tongue
In exchange of letting him feel loved
So I became a refuge for all
Then I met you
And i saw tears in your eyes
Came a voice
A feeling blooming
I couldn't deny
If you are to be the moon in the sky
I'd be the darkness by your side
Always in sight but never in reach
So I became a beast
A wolf longing for you for all time
The other three turned to you too
As the world lost meaning
And now you are gone
And we hate everything
It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
Happy birthday to us I would like the opportunity to warn everyone. I am getting worse.
Introducing
Der Monster, The one who helps, the narcissist.
Seb, The silver tongued devil, the bard.
Arty, the Wordserker, the friendly neighborhood nice guy.
Wolf, we don't talk about this.
I am not afraid of death, nor am I afraid of an unlived life.
But I am afraid of growing old, without you by my side.
I never try to leave because I worry that if I try to leave, you won't even try to stop me.
I am the disease that inflicts this world.
She is the one that keeps me at bay.
If she is taken from this world.
The world will die a slow agonizing death.
I am here and I am not going anywhere
In life, and in death,
In this life, and the next,
I will stay by your side,
Till the end.
I have heard that self love is survival. But for me it's my love for you that keeps me going.
Even as my hate for the world and self pushes me to end it all.
I wonder what it will take for you to love me back.
What it would take you to choose me.
But at the end of the day, This isn't something that is in my hand.
Is it love that you are only one I have ever longed for?
Is it love that you are the core of all my happy memories?
If yes,
Then whatever you do,
Whether you choose me or not,
I only ask that you let me love you
Wholeheartedly.
How do you tell someone that the reason
you are happy is because they texted.
It's so embarrassing how even small words from you make me happy.
I feel so helpless.
I'll drink to that. (drinks water)
I'm going to bed.
I don't want to be awake anymore.
I rather NOT think of her and miss her.
So bed it is.
You ask me If I'm okay
The answer is always no,
So long as you are away.
I second this. I see no point in staying where I am not needed. If it's always me running after you. It feels like I want you while you simply tolerate me out of politeness.
I cannot be the only one to initiate everything in my relationships anymore I’m going to go insane I need to be needed
I understand this and I understand why people would subscribe to this school of thought but I don't agree.
This, feels disingenuous. Like something we know we should do but we can't because it feels like a lie. Maybe it's just me and I need to grow up. But progress in my life doesn't really mean that I am letting go. They are Always will be my priority.
If I miss someone I will go. I have no honor in face of them. No shame. And it's true that it's important to create value through absence. But I can't create my absence because at the end of the day just want them to be happy and I can't stay away. So no hope either.
Me: Doc, I miss her too much. Not sure what to do.
Doc (also Me): Murther when feeling sappy / shy. Destiel when feeling numb / sad. Hannigram when feeling helpless / hopeless.
My longing for you makes all my close
friends angry. I don't blame em.
If only I could sleep forever. 🙃
I write for you because I can't kiss you. So I hope my words would.
I wish I could let you go. I say as I get
comfy in bed, hoping to dream of you again.
It's not like I love you. I just keep fantasizing
but our futurr life together these past weeks.
Thank God I dreamt of her again.
Ima use em
some SLA characters as onion headlines in no particular order
Kaladin:
Lunamor:
Raboniel:
Teft:
Dalinar:
The Lopen:
Shallan:
Adolin:
Ehlokar:
Jasnah:
Teravangian:
Sadeas:
Moash:
When I prayed I didn't think God would listen. Now she is taken from My dreams. Damn. Where do I call to rectify this?
I dream of you every night.
Every morning I lose you.
Everyday I pray to God—Either stop her from invading my dreams or don't wake me up.