Me Getting Ready For Idsb At The Amas:

Drop everything now meeeet me in the pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk take away the pain, cause I seeeeee sparks fly whenever yooooooouuuuuuhuuuuu smile

Today's show, a whole mood

Wish I was there

Me, when @taylorswift did the highlight: Olivia and Meredith are true moods. That's tea

True reaction:

OMG SHE GIVE THESE LADIES WHAT THEY DESERVE *CRYING ON THE STAIRCASE*.

Okay I think we should stop this now 😂

#justvoted @taylorswift

It's amazing, that she does it, because it's so important TO VOTE! WE HAVE A CHOICE! We live in a democracy! We can decide about who should reign our country.

For example: England Brexit, the young people didn't vote, because they didn't take it honest. As well as Germany, Bavaria just one week ago, many parties that were once "big" lost so much percent, and "extreme" parties got more.

I had this topic, and wrote a class test about it in politics and it's more important than it ever was, to vote! You should definitely take it seriously.

We have the power!

Go vote!

Every little suffrage counts!

Thank you so much for this @taylorswift @taylornation.

Thank you so much for raising your voice!

Don't blame me for loving red ♡

So idsb gives me heart attacks, I can't anymore and @taylorswift is going to perform it live on the AMAs, I'm dying

Forever and always xxx

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SO

She raised her voice after YEARS of speculation, hate etc. and I love her for that! She's amazing. People who always hated her for that. And honestly there were many, I don't know how many videos I've seen, where she was criticized for not raising her voice, for not having a political opinion.

But she finally did it and earns all my respect for it. And in such a time @taylorswift did the right thing!

This made me delicate 😂

Prayers out for your Dad!

It's sad that things like this are still so critical to handle.

@taylorswift

Please send any good thoughts/vibes/prayers to my dad who had a sudden and critical heart attack ❤

This past week has been an absolute nightmare. My dad had cold and flu like symptoms early in the week, we didn’t think much of it, but took him to the doctor. They initially thought it was pneumonia and suggested to take him to the ER at our local hospital in Buffalo, NY.

Once at the hospital, he got an EKG and it was determined he had a heart attack. They took him in to help him and do further examination and his heart stopped where they had to bring him back. He came back, but his heart rate was bouncing around at different rates, called afib. He was put on an Impella machine to help pump blood to his heart and help his natural heart rest. He also had a breathing tube put in because his lungs have a lot of fluid in them. He was then stable for a bit of time, until they did a scan on his heart and found he had a blood clot inside of his heart.

Since he has the blood clot in his heart, they are worried it might get dislodged and the travel route would go straight to his brain to cause a stroke or brain damage. They were nervous that his brain function would be damaged from the heart attack due to losing oxygen to his brain. Luckily, his brain function is still there, since he follows basic commands from the nurse, such as wiggling his toes, gripping his hands, ect. Now that the blood clot is in his heart, they needed to take the Impella pump out of his heart, which was essentially saving his life…and insert an ECMO device in its place. The ECMO helps pump his heart and also helps with his lungs. It oxygenates his blood for him since his own body can’t. This could be a major risk and cause problems to his system, but it had to be done in order to avoid the blood clot from moving.

The doctors in Buffalo successfully inserted the ECMO and he was stabilized. However, this machine is like a life support to keep him going. It is unknown how much he could actually handle on his own to work his body. During the ECMO surgery, he did have to be shocked to start his heart 3 times. But, this did bring him back and got his heart out of afib and his heart rate was steady.

Due to all of the medicines he is on for sedation, pain, blood thinners to avoid clots, insulin for his diabetes, blood pressure and more…they caused some damage to his liver and kidneys. They told us that he may need dialysis to assist in flushing out the fluids in his body since he can’t on his own. But would monitor it.

Since the hospital in Buffalo only has so much equipment and knowledge of my dad’s critical condition, they suggested us to move to another hospital that is about 2 hours from where I live. They have more advanced care in terms of cardiovascular treatments. So, of course we agreed to that. Anything to help him out. So, the team came to get him from Rochester, NY. The transition was smooth and went well. They kept him stable.

We travelled to Rochester to be with him, of course, and things have been stable for the beginning of being here. He was taken off his blood pressure medication since he was staying stable on his own. His hear rate has been stable, oxygen levels have been good, blood sugar levels also good. They still said he had fluid in his lungs and body which they need to get rid of. But were monitoring his situation more.

He is currently hooked up to a continuous dialysis machine, which is of a less shock to his system than the typical dialysis most people get. This type sort of imitates what his kidneys would do and helps flush the fluids out at a gradual pace. He needs to get the fluid out of his lungs in order for them to take steps to take the breathing tube out, to see if he can breath on his own.

Since the ECMO machine has quite large tubes, the site of insertion needs to be closely watched in case of any bleeding. And especially since he is on blood thinners, he is likely to bleed a lot more and the bleeding is harder to stop since it won’t coagulate as fast as normal blood would. Last night, his ECMO site started to bleed a bit, but they are trying to keep in under control. He also has bleeding on his neck from the dialysis port. Due to the blood loss, he now has to get a blood transfusion. Right now, they said it is a small amount, but it could possibly be more. Sometimes this may cause other complications as well.

I have stayed overnight in a hospital waiting room for multiple nights with my mom while we were in Buffalo. I drove us to Rochester in order to follow my dad and keep up with all that is going on. We are now staying right in the area to be close since we live 2 hours away normally. We are around quite a bit and we do talk to him, even though he can’t talk with us. I tell him I’m here for him and I’m always going to be. I tell him how much I love him and how everyone is sending their love for him too. It’s been such a struggle to try and be and strong as I can through this absolutely scary time. I want to be strong for him. I want to be strong for my mom. I’m trying to make sure we take care of ourselves too in this time of crisis. It’s just so much all at once.

If anyone could send their good thoughts and vibes his way, I would appreciate it so much. If you are one to pray, all prayers would be appreciated as well. He is in a very, very critical state currently and things are still unknown of what could happen. He needs all the support he can get.

I want to say that all the care that he has recieved from starting in Buffalo and transferring to Rochester has been absolutely amazing. All the people who are working to heal my dad have been nothing but excellent. We couldn’t be more thankful for everything they have and are doing to help him.

All we can do now is wait. Time is what’s needed to heal. Even very very small improvements are ones we can be happy about since that would mean he is going forward and not back. Staying positive is what we have to do. We are staying strong as we possibly can. We love him so much. He is my buddy and I’m so close to him. We do a lot together. Let’s hope we can continue to have more fun memories and get him healthy again. I absolutely am scared. But, I can only hope for the best and be here for him and my family.

Thank you to anyone who has been sending their well wishes and positive comments. It means so much to me and my family. ❤

12 years of @taylorswift she even shared her lipstick colour with us :0