I Keep Forgetting I'm A Full-time Student. I Need To Be Studying, Not Lazing Around! Time To Get My Life

First day in a life between lives

I’m in a really great mood today! I left my house- it felt really weird to be leaving while not completely integrated into either my old or new personality yet. Going out with friends, it felt similar to how I used to feel being dragged out, but more enjoyable- and somehow, brighter?

Not much cleaning has been done today, but I’ve still got ten days to get my new life together! I should probably get some more cleaning done before I go to bed, so that’s what I’m off to do once I’m done writing this post.

One more thing I’ve done that I’m really proud of- I’ve shown my blog to one of my closest friends!! It feels so good to have told someone else about my new life/personality, and I hope that having someone know about it will keep me on track and accomplishing my dreams!! Oh hello avocado friend :))))))

I’ll post again tomorrow, or maybe sometime tonight before I sleep. For now though, I’m leaving today feeling so accomplished! 

<3 Caramel

Lazy

Ahhhhh

Spring break has really made me lazy. I thought I had the capability to laze around day after day if undisturbed, but it seems I do end up getting restless from time to time. Can't believe I'm even allowed to lie in my bed for eleven more days. Hopefully, I'll take this time to clean up, draw, and study instead.

Overall, it's nice to see myself actually want to do something instead of feeling content doing nothing at all. Glad I'm not completely devoid of energy- can't wait to see what the break brings!

Nvm it didn't fit in the car so it's coming next week TT

I'm really done with my broken bed though so I'm thinking of just moving it out and getting the little mattress/futon

Results?!

Starting to see some changes in daily life once I decided to finally crack down and improve whatever feckless dance around life I was trying to do.

Finally getting a new bed for the first time in my life, I'm giddy with excitement since I no longer have to have a broken, splintering woodframe that catches on my hair and makes me want to cut it off. Big win!!

Time to happy clean I guess, today is good :)

<3 Caramel

I picked up a green tea from the convenience store today.

Honest, I didn't even need it— I could just as easily have boiled water and made the tea myself, but at that time, I'd been out for so long that it felt pointless to return home with nothing.

Ha... It feels a little pathetic, but at least I'll wake up tomorrow a little less exhausted.

Froggy pot

I’m really behind. I’m very much in deep water. I’ve got a bio exam in May, a 120-hour school project is going to finish at the end of the term, I’ve got a ton of French work to do- I’m in a froggy pot, and the water’s already well past boiling.

Not now, not now- I knew this past break has been a little extra good to me. What do I do now? What’s going to happen? At least I still have time to get myself in order. I need to prioritize, but so much of what I need to do needs strict focus and a ton of time. What do I even do? I don’t know what else I’m missing. What else has gone forgotten? Why do I always drop the ball at the end? Why do I always give up?

Will I have to put my new life aside to sink back into this? What do I do? Oh god, oh lord. I’m really scared. But I do have time. I have more time than I did in the past when procrastinating. I’ve got a little bit of a grip on this, I think.

Delicious snack restock of my bag. I know it's for pins, but I don't have enough, so it's a snack window now ╮⁠(⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠╭

A sharp turn

HOLY MOLY I’VE JUST HAD A GORGEOUS IDEA. In my brain it’s so likely to work I think it really will. I need a rational mind to bounce my ideas off of because this is a ltitle too happy for my tastes and I’m feeling manic?? Or maybe this is just regular excitement and I’m not used to it.

My dad is not being my rational mind he is fanning the flames and thinks it may be possible as well is he delusional too or could this actually work

"Wait, wait, so you're telling me..." *Joe leans into the mic* "that magical girls are real?"

"Well, Joe, I was using a metaphor, like, emphasizing the difference between the online and real-world selves, but honestly, from the happiness brought from logging in and posting, magical girls may as well be real—"

*puts his hands up in surprise* "Oh my god. So they are real. I thought it was all just some anime nonsense. Jamie, Google this right now. Google magical girl sightings nearby. Maybe we can get an interview. And you were saying earlier, some of these girls explode?"

"That's where the whole subculture comes from, Joe. Like a landmine, if you get too close to one, they'll explode, but that's more of an emotional—"

"CHRIST. Is that even legal? How can they DO that? I want to know, like, the science behind it." *leans in closer* "Do you know what makes the explosions? Jamie, google some explosion gifs right now. Yeah, pull that up. I wonder how strong those are. Like, something like that could probably kill a silverback gorilla."

the cure to all sadness is indulging is nostalgic content nobody can prove me otherwise