When You Left Me.. You Replaced Me In An Instant Like I Was A No One.

4:44pm 7/18/24..

Sunday Oct 11, 2020

Today I’m feeling let down and upset. I’m usually a person who suffers in silence. I don’t honestly trust anyone to talk to. Because every time I try to do the right thing and speak what’s on my mind in return I get judgment. Or no one understands. People tell me to always make sure to talk to someone when I’m feeling let down. But how can I? When in the end I just get disappointed by the responses I receive. Let down. Dear God help me! .-.

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February 8, 2021

~Loneliness~

Last night had to of been another horrifying thing I went through and experience. Dealing with someone who has deep dark depression and energy is draining. It can effect you. It hurt my spirit to have gone through someone who were using inhuman activity and words towards me. What have I done? I’ve done nothing but to try to be an example of a better person and someone who is healing. My spiritual warfare I’ve been dealing with has not been easy. It’s been to break me down. Only thing I’m still standing is because of God. As much as I want to surrender. At the same time I can’t. I know things in life won’t get easier. But it’s never right to put the blame on others. Own up to your own mistakes and lessons and learn from them. She never wanted to. But uses me as a punching bag to put anger on me. As if I don’t feel alone in this world. I am lonely. I’ve been feeling like this for years. But I know spiritually I’m not alone because I have Jesus by my side. But oh my how my physical self feels like it’s just shattered in pieces. Toxic people who have no hope or faith will be the ones to way you down. But why is it a parent of mine. So many skeletons in my closet I’ve been hiding for years and why add more on to them? I don’t have any friends. No one. It’s just me. I just want to be with the Lord. I can’t handle the emptiness that’s in my chest. Save me! I say to God. Why am I always alone. Then a voice in my head tells me. “You’re not alone I’ve always been with you by side.” Just notice me.

+Alone+

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I hate temptation. Battling with temptation. As the days go by I pray for strength that God can give me, teach me, heal me, and show me the way. Because Jesus is the truth and the way. The light. The almighty.

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