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Me this morning 😂🙌🏼🙏🏼. Went through a spiritual attack last night in my sleep. Immediately woke up and said a prayer and pulled out my Bible😌
February 8, 2021
~Loneliness~
Last night had to of been another horrifying thing I went through and experience. Dealing with someone who has deep dark depression and energy is draining. It can effect you. It hurt my spirit to have gone through someone who were using inhuman activity and words towards me. What have I done? I’ve done nothing but to try to be an example of a better person and someone who is healing. My spiritual warfare I’ve been dealing with has not been easy. It’s been to break me down. Only thing I’m still standing is because of God. As much as I want to surrender. At the same time I can’t. I know things in life won’t get easier. But it’s never right to put the blame on others. Own up to your own mistakes and lessons and learn from them. She never wanted to. But uses me as a punching bag to put anger on me. As if I don’t feel alone in this world. I am lonely. I’ve been feeling like this for years. But I know spiritually I’m not alone because I have Jesus by my side. But oh my how my physical self feels like it’s just shattered in pieces. Toxic people who have no hope or faith will be the ones to way you down. But why is it a parent of mine. So many skeletons in my closet I’ve been hiding for years and why add more on to them? I don’t have any friends. No one. It’s just me. I just want to be with the Lord. I can’t handle the emptiness that’s in my chest. Save me! I say to God. Why am I always alone. Then a voice in my head tells me. “You’re not alone I’ve always been with you by side.” Just notice me.
😂 it’s true and I just will always wonder why people Hesitate to come and talk to me. 
I hate temptation. Battling with temptation. As the days go by I pray for strength that God can give me, teach me, heal me, and show me the way. Because Jesus is the truth and the way. The light. The almighty.
Simply why I don’t speak on a person too soon, because I know in the end their colors will truly show.
My mom makes me feel like I’m a disgrace to this world. Like I can’t do nothing to better myself in this life. I’m trying my best. I keep getting pushed back. Her filthy words are bringing me down. I don’t even feel alive anymore. Just dead.
Over the mountains, And over the waves, Over the fountains, And under the graves; Over the floods that are deepest, Which do Neptune obey; Over the rocks that are steepest, Love will find out the way.
(Thomas Percy)
10/17/20
~A call to God~
Today was the day where my strength was tested. It took a lot of faith to face with the obstacle that had came my way. Faith had me recognize that this time I needed  to put a lot of trust in God. To know that there is a kind of loving power out there that is stronger then the evil. Oh how the wicked on this planet tries to normalize itself. Lurk around the corners of the outside world. But there is protection out there. Somewhere you can call out on. Something that can be right by your side, and that’s the power of God. At this point in life. I just put all my faith and trust in the lord, because in the end.. he’s the only one you can ever trust in this lifetime and the next.
If you are to find someone else, you must find someone who cherishes you inside and out. Absolutely unconditionally. Completely and without a doubt. You must find someone who loves you not only on the outside, but from your very core. Not only for the shape or your body or the touch of your skin, but for the magnificent beauty that exists within you. You deserve to be treasured, for there is far more to you than what lies on the surface. -na
Sh2-101, The Tulip Nebula
Sunday Oct 11, 2020
Today I’m feeling let down and upset. I’m usually a person who suffers in silence. I don’t honestly trust anyone to talk to. Because every time I try to do the right thing and speak what’s on my mind in return I get judgment. Or no one understands. People tell me to always make sure to talk to someone when I’m feeling let down. But how can I? When in the end I just get disappointed by the responses I receive. Let down. Dear God help me! .-.
