Finally Looked Into What Radqueers Are Because I've Been Seeing The Term Everywhere And By Gods I Need

can’t stop thinking about minecraft

I fucking despise when things fake being higher quality than they are. I don't mean like slapping a slightly misspelled brand name onto an identical non-designer product for purely aesthetic reasons I mean like rivets or thread that are actually glued down rather than punched or stitched. Fake pockets on jeans that are actually just an extra seam. Heavy looking chain that's plastic or very soft flimsy metal rather than anything sturdy. I bought boots which looked like they had a stitched sole 8 months ago and lo and behold the glue holding the sole on is revealing itself by falling apart. You PUT a STITCH IN THERE. YOU HAD THE NEEDLE AND THREAD. AND YOU DIDNT ACTUALLY STITCH DOWN THE FUCKING SOLES. Oh it makes me so mad. Cheap cunts taking the aesthetics of durability or practicality while handing you a product that won't last you the year

Silly guy

Here’s to hoping that every single person with schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder or DID or NPD or any other ridiculously demonized mental illnesses has a wonderful day

Its entirely okay to be happy with being a system and we will never understand why that's so controversial

Why would we hate eachother when we know each of us is the reason we're still alive? We saved eachother! Ofcourse we're going to be pretty proud of that!

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YEAHHH SYSTEMPILLED ORIGINMAXXER FLAG LET'S GOOOOO

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I did it two months ago, but I was afraid to show it

Random thought I've been having since yesterday-- it's wild how much people say "but" when they really mean "and." Like, they know two things are not mutually exclusive, but they use "but" anyway. In a lot of cases I think both work and it's vibe based, so it's usually in emotionally charged or positive conversations that I really notice. "And" feels a lot more open and welcoming, but it still feels wrong even when neither phrase at all contradicts the other.

On the struggles of being a system...

I saw a post which talked about how seeing other systems be happy and stuff felt like a mockery to them, or saying that being a system isn't inherently a bad thing is a mockery. I have some particular feelings about this. I don't like it.

Having a disorder is debilitating, there's a lot of struggle. Some days it's easier and I enjoy talking with my alters and sharing experiences with other systems, other times the repressed emotions and urges suddenly coming to attack me... Not remembering why things feel so wrong or some days I feel more me than before, or don't even feel like the concept of me is real.

Yet, it's not something I hate. Even if i were a singlet, I think I'd still struggle one way or another, it's inevitable in this world we live in. Not being a system wouldn't automatically fix all my problems. I think I'd have different problems that are just as much of a hassle as being a system.

Sure, it would be nice to not struggle with the trauma that caused this. It would be nice to simply not have wounds that are festering but are hidden, and you aren't ready to fix them.

But others enjoying the other stuff that came with the trauma being a mockery? Making the most of what they have, being a mockery? You're simply projecting your insecurities onto those who seem to be in a "better state" than you. It is not a bad thing for people to happy despite it all. They are not mocking you or anyone for that matter.

Or even someone experiencing something you have but without the struggles that come along with it... It isn't a mockery. I'd like to say it demonstrates that it isn't inherently suffering.

Please don't say that the joy of others are mockeries of your pain. I think it hurts everyone, including you.