I Have Been Getting Far Too Complacent

How do you expect me to be nice when I feel like dying

hopefully things will go well and today will be my last day alive 🤞

every time i decide a day will be my last day it always goes really shittily and i end up being discovered and talked out of it like bro i just wanna die 😭

Inside you there are two wolves…

i bleed quite prettily

god will punish me for my sins

did anyone else want to be hurt as a kid???

like grievously injured so that ppl would care for you and think about you and wonder if ur doing okay

"If your friends jumped off of a bridge, would you?"

Depends on the friends, but yes, I would.

i hate that i cant fucking enjoy anything because its either im worried its NOT something i actually like and that i basically copied it% mimiced someone else or that its too generalized of a thing to like or i dont do it good enough so i should shoot muself or overd0se right now because im bad at it

heres an example

i like music. i like vocaloid alot and kikuos music

problem. i cant tell if its me that i like anymore or i copied it cuz half of my fucking interests and personality or all of it is fake. secondly its too genetalizrf and everyone i know likes it meaning im normal and not good enough and should kill myself now. thirdly i literally dont know the lyrics are meaning therefore im a faker and should kll myself now.

hypersexual culture is thinking something is wrong with you for years until finding out the term hypersexual

(I still think smths wrong with me but at least there's a term and community who understand now :])

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