“Way To High, I'm Way Too Drunk

I swear so much has happened these last 3 days that nothing feels real, and it's not even bad stuff, just very eventful days and it's leaving me very floaty and confused

it feels like I haven't stopped to take a break or take in anything fully

I'm about to lock myself in the bathroom and cut. I'm talking with Z about A. we're trying to fucking find him. he's been on Spotify in the past week and Pinterest like a month ago.

is he ignoring us? but why? and for 3 months? did we do anything? if something is or was wrong, why couldn't he have just, I don't know, said something?! even if it's vague or blunt, anything would be better than this.

being online but not responding to anyone

cutting myself back up sounds absolutely great right now

can I really call this crying? when all that happens is my eyes well up with water and only one or two tears fall and they don't even make it far before it stops.

i can't get you to understand a single bit. so why bother trying, why dont I just leave again, and not temporarily this time.

talking to/spamming my bf and he mentioned when we meet irl one day and that made me just shdhelwkvso

i don't know how he puts up with me but I love him, I hope we can really see each other one day. please be soon. i mean, im getting a job when I graduate, so maybe it's really possible..

i love my boyfriend but I can't stand the thought of being perceived or seen currently. I deleted the photos I sent him last night this morning cause I couldn't stand it.

I try to listen to his favorite artist (citizen soldier) and I jus can't. i just can't. i can't listen to music like that without getting pissed off, cringing, or like I'm gonna throw up. i love my bf but I hate that artist.

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