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I yelled at my dad today. I didn't mean to, it's just... those stupid cameras appeared again today and they won't go away and it's freaking me out. so, I yelled for him and he asked me what was wrong.

I told him that there were cameras in all of the corners of my room, because there was! and he looked around and he looked back at me all confused. he said that there weren't any cameras, so I told him again that there were cameras in my room. and he didn't believe me!

he said that I should calm down and take another look around the room, just to make sure what I'm seeing is really there. and I did and those cameras were still there, so I reiterated it to him. and he said rather firmly that there weren't any cameras in my room and that I must be seeing things.

I got so mad at him for saying that that I snapped at him and I yelled at him. I'm pretty sure I was just yelling that there were in fact cameras in my room and I was scared because someone was watching me, but I don't fully remember it. all I remember is that after I was done yelling, he hugged me. which is weird because he's not really a hugger.

he said something about how everything around me was real and that I was safe and I kinda just hugged him back and zoned out. after he left, I double checked all the corners of the room. I thought that maybe he was right and I was just seeing things.

the fucking cameras were still there, pointed directly at me.

watching me.

Bizly PC are either emo losers or wet pathetic losers

Slimesicle PC are either himbos, twinks or creatures but they will all somehow have religious trauma

Condi PC are either really cool woman or man having like the worst 72 hours of his life

Grizzly PC conventionally attractive magic people or fursonas

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Since YouTube is fucking stupid, please enjoy this video for my D&D campaign (aka the one I'm running, the first session will be uploaded eventually)

Enjoy :D

GOD, I love being up at 12:30 in the morning and writing (roleplaying) THE most gut-wrenching, heart-aching angst known to man with my OCs /gen

It's for my DSMP AU, but still!

TW/CW: Themes of abuse/manipulation

Character A was told that love = getting hurt by someone when they were younger. Character B confesses to them, Character A has a panic attack and leaves without an explanation. Character B talks about it to Character C and tells Character C that he's been avoiding Character A for a week to not make them uncomfortable, so Character C offers to go with him to talk to Character A.

She gets Character A to meet up with her and she tells them that a friend wants to talk to them. Character B appears and he apologizes for making Character A upset, stating that he will accept a rejection if Character A doesn't feel the same way about him. Character A then apologizes and explains why they freaked out because they were told that if someone loved them, they would get hurt. They ran away because they didn't want to get hurt again.

MMMMM, THE ANGST IS SO GOOD!!! (I'm normal about traumatizing my characters, I swear). Also yes, I colour-coded it so you'd understand who is who lol. No, I will not be telling you who is who, you have to figure that out yourself in the future :D.

Nevermind, we had a storm in our area that caused a power outage, so the Ren Faire was closed. BUT, I STILL GOT A CROWN, SO I'M HAPPY!! We stopped by the mall to cure our lack of Ren Faire and it was so much fun :3

We're gonna try and go in October, so I'll still get to go to the Ren Faire!

Going to the Ren Faire this weekend, hopefully, I'll get some cool stuff for my A!Aimsey cosplay (specifically a crown and a sword).

If not, I will be sad /hj

:3

~ 💜🖤

(P.S. If you wanna see my A!Aimsey cosplay, I post my cosplays on TikTok, which is linked in my linktree. I also cosplay OCs and Squiggles and all of my cosplays are closet cosplays, so they're not very good, but I still have fun with it)

So, my older brother is spending his spring break at home with me and my family, which means he's staying in my room with me because we always grew up sharing a room. Now, I've gotten used to the bedroom just being mine because he has an apartment, which means he lives there until the lease ends.

So, since he is visiting, I get SO scared that I'm being too loud at night because I'm so used to it just being me. Like, even before I was careful because my parents' room is literally a wall away from mine and I don't want my dad to wake up grumpy and start yelling at me, but it's SO MUCH WORSE because he's literally in the same room as me!

I have a bunk bed and he's LITERALLY RIGHT BELOW ME WHILE I'M WATCHING STUPID VIDEOS WAITING TO BE TIRED!! And even then, I have to quietly bring my computer down from my bed (the top bunk) so I can play music while I sleep and and every time I make a noise that feels just the tiniest bit too loud, I freak the fuck out-

I'm not mad that my brother is visiting, I love seeing him, I'm just so scared I'll wake him up and he'll yell at me for being too loud TwT

who the hell was going to tell me genloss was selling a physical CD AND WHY DID I HAVE TO FIND OUT ITS 40 DOLLARS AUGHHH

The war in Gaza has affected us greatly.

We had to leave our homes due to the destruction and move to Egypt. 🏠➡️🇪🇬

Life here is not easy and expensive, and there are financial challenges such as university and school fees. 💼💸

My goal now is to raise £8500

I have less than £500 left to achieve this goal. 🎯

Reaching this amount will help ease some of the burdens on my family.

Even the smallest donation can make a big difference. 🌟

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End of the Hall // Generation Loss: The Social Experiments.

Analysis of Octavia's Confrontation at Stolas in Season 2 Episode 12: Sinsmas From Someone Who Also Struggles With Depression (Spoilers for Helluva Boss under the cut)

I've been thinking about Helluva Boss's season 2 finale, Sinsmas episode, specifically the scene where Octavia is confronting Stolas and I wanted to give my 2 cents about that scene as someone who also takes medication for depression and has been doing so for a few years ago (featuring some info I remember from Intro to Psych).

Via stated that she was confused about why Stolas needed to have anti-depressants (or happy pills or whatever it's called in the Hellaverse), believing that she was doing something wrong and that's why he was taking them. Now, depression is when your brain struggles to make happy chemicals, specifically serotonin, so people who are diagnosed with depression are often given prescribed medication aka anti-depressants.

You can see on the label of the pill bottles that Via finds in that episode that it's prescribed to Stolas, so it's likely he was diagnosed with depression and he takes anti-depressants to help his brain produce serotonin. And obviously, after Mastermind, he missed several days of dosages, which explains his mental breakdown later in Sinsmas. As someone who has accidentally missed a few days' worth of dosages, mental breakdowns are likely going to happen more frequently because your brain lacks serotonin.

Via being confused about Stolas needing anti-depressants is understandable, especially since he probably wasn't sure how to explain his depression to his 17-year-old daughter, which is partially the reason Via's confronting him because he wasn't being upfront about his mental health. But the hiding of his depression could be because he didn't feel safe enough to talk about it, especially because of Stella. Another reason could be that he didn't want to stress Via out with that information. After all, she would probably try harder to be a better daughter, even though it's not her fault. She's young, she's bound to think that kind of stuff when it comes to one of her parents' mental health.

Now, this isn't a hate post for the episode, I really enjoyed that episode and I'm hyped for Season 3. Like I said, this is just me giving my 2 cents about that scene as someone who is also medicated for depression. I love Stolas and Octavia so much and I can see where both sides are coming from in the confrontation. Both have flawed logistics for doing the things they're doing, which is natural in an argument. So yeah!

Lemme know if you guys have any other thoughts on that scene and if I should talk about anything else related to Helluva Boss as someone who struggles with mental health issues. And don't worry, I am doing fine mentally, so don't ask me how I'm doing, please. Thank you for reading my analysis, which I wrote at 2:30 in the morning lmao. Alright, good night.