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i don't "date" and i don't "chill" and i don't "hang out." i make pacts. i swear oaths. i forge unbreakable bonds. this makes me a cool breezy person to take on road trips et cetera

Gustav Klimt study with Gwenllian because I luuuuv her

Adam Parrish canonically gets dry and cracked skin on his hands, probably enough for it to bleed. He would have heard a hundred times about how it looks like he's been in a fight, a joke that never gets funnier every time he hears it. Adam "Do you think it makes me look tougher?" Parrish. Adam, who goes to punch the wall and just presses his hand against it. Who is terrified of becoming his father.

And, despite all that, still has cracked and bleeding knuckles, without needing to hit a thing. As though, no matter how hard he tried to avoid it, the capacity to hurt was written into his skin- inherited.

was thinking about the dreaming tree in trb that shows you your worst nightmares and. ronan doesn’t go in—later revealed that this is because he not only knows what it does but also what he’ll see—but his worst nightmare is bringing back wasps. killing gansey. blue sees herself dangerously close to kissing gansey, fulfilling her curse, also killing gansey. richard “he imagined [finding glendower] might feel a lot like dying” gansey sees himself finding glendower. but adam. we’re never expressly told what he sees, only that gansey’s dead and it’s his fault and ronan hates him for it and he hates himself for it too. the difference is subtle but important. the others see the action. adam sees the end result. the others are afraid of killing gansey. adam is too, but that’s not his worst fear. adam’s worst fear is becoming like his father

are you free tonight

i woul do anything to be free

curator!declan art thief!jordan au where declan procures pieces for private collections which are always promptly stolen (by the girls)

sometimes i’m normal but then sometimes i think about the endless religious symbolism and parallels in the raven cycle and i want to chew on glass. like something something cabeswater and eden. adam’s name, his being made ‘from dust’, his pursuit of knowledge beyond the circumstances of his birth. ronan being referred to as ‘the snake’: the one who always tempts adam into recklessness. ronan and declan and cain and abel (i wash my hands of him) (i am not my brother’s keeper). gansey’s resurrection, his third birth. ‘important things come in threes?’ ‘or sevens’. ronan and joseph kavinsky and joseph the prophet with their strange dreams that overlap into the real world. dreaming as a form of blasphemous creation. the three fox way women and the holy trinity. aurora lynch and the virgin mary and matthew lynch and the infant jesus - immaculate conception, pure souls without sin. absent yet overly mythologized fathers. i am going to throw up

when you cycled by, here began all my dreams

I think if we ever got bi declan real it would have been done in like a one paragraph anecdote in his internal monologue about the most boring gay experience in the world and never brought up again. like at some point he would've been like 'once declan had slept with a senator's son, a man with the false american charm and loud presence of one used to getting what they wanted, for the political advantage. he had left promptly the next morning as if merely returning from a meeting, and had spent almost a whole hour staring at guido reni's st sebastian which he had stolen from the dulwich gallery without anyone noticing. the twisting, erotic form of the man seemed untouchably alien to anything declan could reach. what declan had felt the night before was merely a polite transaction - nothing like the passion this saint achieved just by dying' and it would leave us still kinda uncertain as whether or not that means he's actually into men or not