Hedonisticbambi - Fan Of The Moon

what if god said yes

what if you got quiet. what if you got so quiet and you curled up in a little ball in your bed with a stuffed animal or a blanket or a pillow and you said, “god, can we talk?” and because god is you and you are god you didn’t have to wait and you didn’t have to go anywhere at all and—“yes,” god said. and you said, “god, i want an apartment with floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the city.” “god, i want the boy with the kind eyes and tattoo-covered arms and exquisite taste in music.” “god, i want to feel alive again.” “god, i want to travel first-class to switzerland.” “god, i want a hound dog named finn.” and god said, “yes.” and you said, “but how can you make this happen?” and god said, “i can make anything happen.” and you said, “quickly?” and god said, “i love you. why would i not make this rapid?” and you said, “i can trust you?” and god said, “like your life depends on it.” and you said, “my life does depend on it.” and god said, “i know. i’ve got it now. you’re safe. let me take care of it.” and you hugged god. and god hugged you. and you hugged yourself. and you drifted off to sleep saying, “i have it. i’m safe. i have it. i’m safe. i have it. i’m—” and you woke in the morning and the world was new. because you knew it was done. because god said yes. and god never goes back on a yes unless you tell god “no.” and any time throughout the day you thought, “is anything happening?” god said, “it’s all happening.” and you said, “but i can’t see a thing.” and god said, “i am your eyes.” and you said, “but i don’t have to do anything?” and god said, “you did the only thing needed.” and you said, “but what about my thoughts and my state and acting as if?” and god said, “i love you.” and you knew what that meant. so instead of worrying or wondering or obsessing another second, you went to the bakery and bought a slice of chocolate cake and drove home and sat on your back deck and ate and ate and watched the sunset and celebrated.

pls describe ur bf😭i am such a bookworm and also want him to be exactly like all my book bfs

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okay okay LISTENNN, this man was made up 😭 he has the same first, last and NICKNAME of my favorite book bf. he doesn’t need to know this but maybe i’ll gift him an annotated version of the book and be like “oh my god what a coincadink… 😦😮🫣🤪” our subconscious really has our back with the perfect details ????

he’s 6’3, his build is chefs kiss. he’s really sweet, confident, overprotective, cocky ew jk in a good way yk i’m gonna stop now, he wasn’t looking for anyone/interested in a relationship because of his past and he recently just moved to the state from his home country a few months ago but he approached me first. HE WAS IN A SUIT. A SUIT…… i’m gonna faint. i looked really good that day too so that day was beyond perfect. he ofc, has his own group of friends that are protective yet goofy mfs. they’re all different which makes it fun to see them interact and banter like little kids lol. he’s really romantic too. i’ve never been in a relationship before so he took it really slow and easy, making sure i felt comfortable bc i may or may not have said “i hate men 👹👹” infront of him on the day we met. BUT TO BE FAIR I WAS HAVING A CONVO WITH MY FRIEND LMAOO

he’s really understanding, we’re two different people but we have troubled pasts that makes us connect. when i’m with him, i feel safe and seen. no one has ever had my back my whole life like he does. because of our different interests, my favorite thing about us is that we enthusiastically talk about it with each other and teach each other different things all the time. i swear, it will never get old. he’s a business man so he automatically has that dominate/upper hand aura to him.

o and he has an audi.

I. LOVE. AUDIS.

being a lover girl around men who only want me for sex is like being a lamb surrounded by wolves and im being eaten alive again and again and again because i think they're different and they're not

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~become ‘that girl’ at school~

schoolwork:

study hard

take cute notes

get good grades

stay out of drama

be respectful and kind to everyone

work hard and stay motivated

appearance:

keep a neat appearance

put effort into your outfits

have healthy hair

make sure your nails are always manicured

try a teeth-whitening toothpaste (highly recommend!)

find a signature scent to keep in your bag

simple makeup also works- just curl your lashes and wear mascara

overall:

have a good school/life balance

try new things

stay positive

be yourself!

devon aoki as suki in 2 fast 2 furious (2003) 💞✨

UMMMM did i just catch you making decisions based on a MAN?? i better not have. stand up girl, thats not it.