Latest Posts by itsdark-walkaway - Page 3
just think about how grateful your future self will be if you keep going. how glad you will be for having worked so hard. it will all be worth it.
Falling in the mystery of universe is a good way to escape YOU!
How you doing!
Hope texting you isn’t embarrassing to you?
Hey , I really appreciate that you texted me.
how are you doing?
i m good
After every fight,
I fell deeper
And loved you little more .
Why?
“You’ll meet a hundred different people who will describe you in a hundred different ways, don’t dwell too much on the kind of impression you make. Remember, there are a thousand paintings of the sun, but only one that rises and sets each day.”
— Ekta Somera
“ⓘ I fucking hate it when you’re in such a fantastically giddy mood and then you see one simple little thing that makes you think, “oh” and then you just get this empty feeling in your chest and you get nauseous and the world just crumbles and you want to just lay under a blanket and close your eyes and fall asleep and never wake up.”
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A Letter to: Him
Dear You,
I hope things are
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Like when you said you were happiest in my arms,
And it didn't hurt when you
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So hard in love for someone you didn't want.
Because let's face the
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You wanted to have utter control over someone,
But I wanted to keep my
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I didn't ask you to love me, I didn't want to stay in one place.
You acted like I was the one that hurt
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But you don't seem to remember all that I gave up:
The things I would have traded for a
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Of rest that you wouldn't allow me.
Never knew falling in love will be all about tears falling down every night.
Everyday but more tonight!
Why after happy morning,
there are sad nights?
So good 🥺
I woke up at 3am ,
it was a really sad dream,
Filled with death and dispair.
Fell asleep again,
To dream a sadder one.
And the rhythm played,
Until it was time to rise from bed with the rhyme of morning alarm.
But my mind and body were unenthusiastic to conquer the world.
And I realised the reason for sadness which linger
Upon me all day.
Talking to someone is always a therapy.
I hurt so much
Just don't hurt yourself. You are precious.
🌻 // 👻: @wizdomly
What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.
You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself
but you killed everyone else around you too.
So , you get up early with the hope that it will be a good day.
All cheered up , ready to conquer it.
But....
It turns out to be same day you have everyday.
The days are kept getting worse and it's harder to keep that smile and vigor on for everyone.
I can't give up too soon.
Eventually everything gets fine whether you survive or not.
Pass the happy! 🧡 When you get this, reply with 5 things that make you happy and send this to the last 10 people in your notifications! <3!
*Ice creams ❤️😋
* message that the class is cancelled.😌
* a good road trip to 🏔️
* peace and smile on everyone's face😊
* A messages from friends😎
I don't know if it's an ending or beginning
I just know it will harder from now on.
Because I cried while you were confessing, it was a relief mixed with fear and uncertainty.
You can't be mine , you can be mine sounds so beautiful but at the same time so dreadful to feel.
Hate u forever ❤️
It's tough when you reach out to everybody for help and not a single soul cares to be there for you.
Some people just look for a reason to leave..
When I hear the voice of echoing rain drops embracing my ear, it reminds me of something I would never let go.
Something so precious to be lost in the world full of usless , wanted , materialistic world.
It is the thing which connects one to oneself and to others.
Like the wedding photograph of the couple , hanging behind the bed post or in living area , or hidden in the album , like the lost piece but never with the faded charm.
It is a bucket full of memories that everyone wish to cherish whole life and taking to the grave or making it memorable for souls who ever touched them.
I hurt them more than they love me.
*STAIN*
It was dried with fire of sun
But still shinned bright on the white
Small enough to ignore
But red enough to resist
He marked her with evilness in all eyes.
She was cursed,
Left alone to fight with thousand knives betraying inside her ,
While her flower bloomed too bright to hide.
Alone , afraid she was.
All those eyes ,black, brown, green , blue made her stranger in yesterday's loving world.
After so long, the world was static .
From centuries past still we are in the depth of darkness.
Thoughtful and deep
And then dieing because of her mistakes.
Can't be more true
