Hello. Again.

hello. again.

it's currently 9:29pm. not very bad. here I am sitting on my bathroom floor. I'm constantly asking my friends if they can come to my house on thurday to study.... maybe because I don't know how to study... and I am feeling kinda selfish for that... I'll be fine.

my parents say I take too long in the bathroom. they are completely right, but I have the attention span of my 2 year old cousin. maybe he has a better one idk.

have you ever tough if you could just kill yourself and if you could turn a ghost you would watch your family and friends reaction? it's funny that I think that since a young age. it's also funny how I don't tell this to people.

maybe I should go to a therapist because I just want a diagnosis for something. I know I have something.

my life is stressful. is it weird that sometimes I cry myself to sleep? is it weird that I cry at the smallest thing alone but when I'm with people I feel the need to stay cold?

I want to take naps in the afternoon. I never did that and I'm scared to start doing that because my parents might freak out because it's not usual of me. and I don't want to explain it.

looking at the paragraphs I notice that I'm constantly changing subject... it's normal right?

and to think I'm only 13... I'll be fine, probably

thanks for reading (ik no one read this)