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actually i wasn't sure what he meant by /southern/ pansy specifically. he's an angel wouldt he have said northern pansy?

HA, that would have been a good twist actually, but it’s specifically an English expression, southern pansy meaning “posh English homosexual” because the English southern accent is stereotyped as being the posh accent, which Aziraphale definitely talks that way.

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Tuesday, September 3 2024- 00:40

started adding the date because I like reading old entries and it's confusing because I don't know when they're from

anyway

school starts in 10 days. I don't wish that, obviously. I don't like school anymore. to be fair, I never did. I like learning but the learning method of school is just too overwhelming, too generic.

I received my school schedule and it's shit. also, a new student is joining my class which is the worst because he already failed the grade so he's repeating it. yay, more stupid people.

I promised myself that I would ace this school year. every time I start thinking about that more I wonder if I'm lying to myself. I can't possibly go through this school year with no problem.

I already know who's gonna sit next to me on classes. it's alphabetical order so I'm always going to seat next to that one girl who's not seated to her best friend because of me. and I'm always in the middle. she's annoying. I could say that I pretty much like when the teachers change our seats.

I've got too much on my mind that I'd like to write. on this moment I'd like to write about me thinking that I have adhd, my friends, my possible crush on a girl that I barely met but I know lots of things about because of my mother, the fact that I over share too much... etc... glad I listed it

but I still want to talk about school. last school year I kinda learned how to study and honestly, it's very chaotic. I stay hours studying for a test because I get focused on that. it needs to be a quiet place at the right temperature, no food or I'll get distracted, my headphones with brian eno's music and taking notes on a random notebook. that's the only way it works. my mother always says that for me to keep my studying balanced I should do it everyday. and I agree but how can I if I can't focus? it's too much distractions around me. too much freedom.

yes. that's the word. freedom. I got my phone next to me so I get distracted with it but if I don't have my phone I can't possibly listen to music because I don't know how to make the damn cassette work. and then I can always go downstairs and just watch tv because the door is unlocked and no one could make me focus. it's too much freedom. I have the freedom to let myself walk around the house doing anything but study. I have the freedom of going to my phone and just stay with that.

then I got the pressure. from my classmates, I mean. and from my family but I'll talk about that in a few moments. imagine this: the teacher is handing the tests and I get a grade lower than 90, my usual. once, I got a 71, my lowest grade if I recall it correctly. I started crying. for a lot of my classmates, a 71 on physics&chemistry is a miracle, the best thing ever. not for me. so I started crying as I already said and pretty much everyone was judging me, except, ofc, my half a dozen of real friends. "If I was her I would be happy"; " what is she even crying about, that's a great grade for me". exactly. for them. I gotta admit..my grades fell a little that time. but they got better. then we have my parents. when I told them about the grade they didn't get mad. my mother laughed. she said "you'll have to deal with that. next time study more. I told you already. study everyday". my parents always say "you got us used to these high grades. it's really a disappointment to know that your grades are getting lower". I get so frustrated with those words...

I was going to write something more about this but I forgot... oh well...

if you read until the end thank you very much for listening to my thoughts.

stay tuned

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I had a pen and a dream

so I tried to draw alastor from the pilot

(please ignore the part where I messed up)

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save me stupid fucking magician movie….. stupid magician movie save me…… magician movie………

100 proofs that Sheldon Lee Cooper loves Amy Farrah Fowler.

He said it. And Sheldon Cooper does not lie.

From the very beginning, he felt something deeper than just friendship for Amy.

From the beginning, he wanted to procreate with her.

He went with Amy when she had to make a quick stop for feminine hygiene supplies.

He communicates with her on a daily basis.

The first time he lost her, he bought 25 cats in order to fill the void.

After their first argument, he accepted to take 65% of the fault.

He was jealous when Amy felt aroused by Zack.

The first time she held his hand, he let her do it despite hating physical contact.

Same when she first kissed him. He found this kiss, “fascinating”.

He danced with her.

The night she kissed him when she was drunk, he stayed with her until she passed out on her bathroom floor.

He folded a towel and put it under her head as a pillow that night too.

When Amy went to a wedding with Leonard, he judo-chopped him and proclaimed : “She is not for you” twice.

He knew he wanted to be with her before she even became his girlfriend.

He is worried when he fails to contact her through the various means of technological communication.

When she was sad about the girls going dress shopping without her, he agreed to cuddle to make her feel better.

As soon as he felt that he was going to lose her in “The flaming Spittoon Acquisition”, he caught her back and asked her to be his girlfriend.

He could not stand to lose her and see her with another guy. He still can.

He has a relationship agreement with her.

He always goes to the zoo with her.

He bought her a tiara. A tiara !

He once spent his vacation working with Amy at her laboratory.

He has “girlfriend-boyfriend sing-a-long night” with her.

When he left his place in the middle of the night playing bongos, her apartment was his first choice destination.

He agreed to sleep on her couch that night. (the guy who once kicked Penny out of her own bed because he did not want to sleep on a couch)

He let Penny cut his hair only with the persuasion of Amy.

He trusts Amy.

He plays doctor (Star Trek style) with her.

He surprised himself having feelings and thinking about her at inappropriate times.

He reached her hand for comfort when they watched Howard’s rocket launch into space.

He agrees to held her hand when they’re at the movies.

Couple costumes !

He defended her honor when she got into an argument with Wheaton.

He thinks she’s part saint and part squirrel.

Despite being germaphobe, he takes care of her when she is sick.

He applies vaporub on her chest.

He sings “Soft kitty” to her.

He cares about her well-being.

With time Sheldon gets more and more comfortable when it comes to touching Amy.

He liked it when she held him when he was upset because of Kripke’s work.

He has not ruled coitus with Amy.

Amy is his emergency point of contact at Caltech.

He considers their relationship to be a serious one.

He considers intimacy.

He takes her opinion into account.

He agreed to experience a form of virtual intimacy with her when they played D&D.

It seems like he doesn’t mind when she is in his bedroom.

Once, while they were eavesdropping, her head is touching Sheldon’s shoulder. He did not push her away.

He shares his favorite movies with her.

He has a baby called “Fun with flags” with her.

He watches French movies with her.

He loves her for who she is, quirks and all.

Once, he could not sleep because they had an argument.

He actually does not mind having her around at work.

He apologizes to her when he does something wrong.

He looks at her in a very special way. Same when he smiles at her.

He thinks she is great.

He thinks she is brilliant.

He thinks she is a wonderful girlfriend.

And a wonderful neuroscientist.

She is one of his screen savers.

When he was in Texas for his nephew’s birth, he missed her and wished she was there with him.

He kisses her.

He always puts his arms around her when they kiss.

She is the only person he has initiated a kiss with.

He once let her rest her head on his shoulder in the middle of a shop.

Once, he woke up hungover and his first thought was : “Where is Amy ?”

When he came back after his trip around the country, he was afraid that she might think less of him.

He does not want to disappoint her.

He cares about her opinion.

Sheldon will take suggestions and criticism from Amy and will apologize to her.

He brags about his relationship with Amy because he thinks it’s the best one.

He’s proud to be with her.

She is his only exception.

He thinks she is pretty.

So much so that it gave him a panic attack once.

He celebrates christmas. Just for her.

He hates Santa Claus and yet, he took a picture with him. For Amy.

He treasures her.

He thinks her and him are smarter than anyone else.

He looks at her eyes when she watches old French movies.

He knows her very well.

He enjoys how harp music causes her fingers to dance as if she’s playing along.

He got jealous when she helped Kripke with his work.

Amy is the only one he does not act condescending to.

He regularly break his rigid rules for her.

He wanted to buy a pet for him and her.

He wants to live on Mars with her.

He loves the idea of having kids with her on Mars.

Once, on a date night Sheldon was having such a good time that he wanted Amy to extend the parameters of date night.

He had a sleepover in a fort with her.

He makes out with her.

He has an engagement ring.

He wants to marry her.

He wants to spend the rest of his life with her.

He wants to start a family with her.

He wants to live with her.

Losing her is driving him crazy.

He loves her. Period.

For you. For all of us.