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me because i said i was over him but now im annotating a book specifically so i can lend it to him

you know those deeply disturbing short stories you read in English when youre like 9-13 with really questionable plot lines that stick in your mind forever

I wish people would understand that not everything is for everyone to get. you will be left out of some conversations, a lot of art will not apply to you, you will not like things that people you like enjoy, and just because you cannot add to the topic of discussion or relate does not mean that it is not valued or worthwhile. the internet has coddled people to such a concerning extent that everyone feels like they need to vocally disagree with something just because they don’t get it. Knowing something, and genuinely getting it are not the same. NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOUUUUU

DONT use glasses, youll become dependent on them to see!!!! #WARONDRUGS #OVERPRESCRIPTION #CORRECTIVELENSADDICTION

yeah this is pretty much the conclusion you come to if you get into any type of activisim ever

Notes game because I need it

5 - I properly tidy my room and light some incense ✅

10 - I go out on a walk for 20 mins ✅

15 - I plan something with a friend ✅

20 - I submit my poetry to a creative writing competition ✅

25 - I finish my plan for a long marauders fic ✅

30 - I cut down my screen time by 30 mins each day ☑️ (trying 😭)

35 - I ask my parents to change my name on the school register ✅

40 - I work out for an extra hour each week

45 - I ask my parents for a binder for my birthday

50 - I call a hotline next time I feel like hurting myself

The Forest

This time of year, my room smells of the forest

The basil and mint that grows there

Crammed into the bark of the trees 

Further down there's dirt and other things.

The purple plants that the bees love

Whenever I slept I smelt the forest 

Even when I hardly slept 

Or maybe thats what sleep smells like

Basil and mint.

Maybe, too that's what it looks like -- 

Serene like the closely packed trees

Webbed with sweet smelling flowers 

Glittering with morning dew

It was nice, to go down there, 

Waiting for the sun to set

Cast its pale glow before bathing us 

In shining darkness

As we looked up

Our eyes went as far as they could 

Then the rest we imagined 

If we missed a day, there was always the next

And if we missed a year it didn't matter,

The forest stayed firmly put 

Waiting 

The basil and mint grew and died and grew again

The sun kept setting 

The bees kept coming back 

The purple plants kept flowering 

The street lamp flicks off at dawn

Turns on, that's twilight.

No one looks up.

Pushing ahead.

The smell of the past is everywhere

Basil and mint lingers on clothes

The smell of too long waiting 

Between them, the trees and the sky

Filled the view, but still, we imagined.

Whatever was left was ours for a while

But soon the moon will send the seas 

And where we live will flood

Coiling around the forest floor

Paying the sky the compliment of reflection 

I went back but didn't stay

Everything I remembered was gone

Dissapeared

Into a place that doesn't exist

The one we dreamed about 

Beyond the forest. 

I had to see if the sun still shone 

Rose tinted hues

If the leaves still glistened 

With the mirage of dew

The forest is achingly terrible

After years of waiting

It tells the truth

Green in spring

And white in winter.

Things I wish robots could do for me:

Order at restaurants

Clean toilets

Turn off the lights while I’m in bed

Make sure my blankets never fall off the bed

Make me toast

Things I don’t want robots to do:

Think for me

Replace human thought and logic

I always carry a bit of paracord with me and i can tie loads of different knots with is including but not limited too square knots, square lashings, granny knot, reef knot, bowline and Zeppelin knot

No pressure tags: @w1nterb3rrry @woods3115

And anyone else who wants to join

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

I think we have known each other a few lifetimes

You have to notice the good things. You must. Or you will be consumed by the bad things.

Everything sucks and I am not okay.

Okay then. Try these things. (mainly for neurodivergent people but really its for anyone who has a problem but Doesn't Know What)

SHORT TERM- i feel bad right now and need immediate relief

Get off your phone. Seriously

Drink a glass of water

Eat something with protein

Shower if you haven't already

Brush your teeth

Tidy your space a bit

Open a window and stretch your legs or go outside on a walk if you can

Say something nice to someone

Put on some music. Something relatively happy

Hug a living being (pet, sibling, parent, etc)

Change clothes or feel a nice texture or listen to some 8D music. Sometimes its a sensory thing

Get something small done. Reply to an email or something

Do something creative. Draw, write, sing, whatever

Learn some cool new information

Talk to someone. Phone a friend, talk to your parents, text someone, etc

Read a damn book (fanfic counts)

Sleep, or if you can't manage that, try to relax or meditate for 5 or 10 mins

If you have over excerted yourself physically mentally or emotionally, gove yourself a break.

LONG TERM - ive been feeling bad for a while and want to get a bit better overall

Try to talk to someone about life generally. You might just figure it out

Stop making suicide jokes. Yes, that includes ironically saying "i want to die" at any minor inconvenience. for me, this was changing it to "im going to commit a war crime" or "I'm going to buy a completely unnecessary amount of clothes". Be ridiculous with it. Keep the comedic value.

Stop being self depricating. Failed a maths test? "oh im just really bad at maths" turns to "my maths skills are unmatched. im a genius" it can be sarcastic. then youll get used to complimenting yourself and will do it unironically out of habit

Change something. For me this was cutting my hair. i felt out of control. i cut my hair because i couldn't do anything else. this could be joining a club, buying new clothes, dying your hair, choosing a new perfume or deodorant. Anything that makes you feel in control

I might add more to the long term list in the future but this is it for now. You will get better, the silly little guy on the internet believes in you <3

spider-punk speaks for my blog

i think credit goes to @moonsparklestuff

Forgive yourself and start again. Forgive yourself for what you did, but more importantly for what you didn't do. Wishing and wishing you could change the past won't impact the future. Forgive, you see. Forgive.

the picture of dory in grey or whatever idk

The picture of dorian gray is so good, i can read it over and over again and it never gets old!

*shaking six year old me by the shoulders* YOU WERE RIGHT! YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT SHARING IS CARING AND FAIRNESS AND TREATING OTHERS HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED AND BEING NICE TO PEOPLE AND LETTING THE LITTLE THINGS GO AND ASSUMING EVERYONE IS GOOD. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS WERE WRONG. IM SORRY THEY TOOK THAT AWAY FROM YOU. KEEP BELIEVING IN SANTA AND THE FAIRIES IN THE TREE IN THE GARDEN. IM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. NOTHING IS EVER "JUST THE WAY IT IS". YOU ARE PRESENT IN THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

Hey, you. There's something bothering you, isn't there? You're scrolling endlessly just to feel something. I know the feeling. But just think. Does what you're worried about really matter? Chances are it doesn't. The outcome of this won't change anything, and even if it will, I'm sure you'll get used to it pretty easily. But think, just for a second. In a week, it will barely bother you anymore. In a month you'll forget about it. Six months you'll be totally unaffected by it. Even if it seems like the end of the world we will find a way. Life still goes on. Life waits for no one. There are some things that will never change. The school bell will still ring on time. Your parents will still fight. The sun will still rise. And one day, you'll be totally fine.

I promise.

"Am i worthy of this thing?" "Do i deserve it?"

So irrelevant.

Do you want it?

I got most of my rights from trans women of colour throwing bricks at cops and you're expecting me not to follow in their footsteps?

I hear all this about ICE and trumps plans for immigrants (i live in the UK) and i have one question.

Who are the immigrants on stolen land?

Aut viam inveniam aut faciam

I will either find a way, or I will make one

Life may have exhausted me, but I haven't exhausted life yet.

i think haters of the secret history just dont understand the point of the novel. its supposed to make you hate the characters. its about the dangers of living for the aesthetic. you dont like how charles' character progressed? Yeah neither did i that was the point. its such a cleverly written novel and theyre such deep characters. take charles again for example. in the beginning his drinking problem wasn't even a problem, it was just a silly quirk of his personality and something that made him the way he was but slowly it became a huge problem, sending him to jail and then to hospital and causing camilla to get unto a lot of trouble with henry and damaging his relationships with francis and Richard, and ultimately causing Henry's suicide. its about having awareness of the concequences of our actions. while it would have been nice for the fully good characters to have killed the inherently bad character of bunny and gotten away with it aided by a clever plan then lived happily ever after that would have destroyed the point of the book. it reflected reality and i think that was one of the beautiful things about the text along with the way it was written (donna tartts prose is unmatched. fight me.) . also the way the characterswere from a moral standpoint changed drastically too. the pov of richard made us agree with the rest of them thanks to the manipulation tactics from henry and while he is the most unreliable of narrators this adds to the effect of the novel.

anyway my opinions on this are VERY strong and i could go on for hours

Maybe in another universe where i didn't grow up angry and you didn't grow up sad

As a fic writer, i need every reader to know that:

I don’t care if your comment is coherent. I know what you mean and i love you

I don’t care if you ramble. I read every word and i love you

I don’t care if you leave a comment on a fic from four years ago or leave comments/kudos on like ten of my fics in one go. This isn’t IG, pls stalk my AO3. I love you

I don’t care if you mention the same thing in your comment that four other people have already mentioned. It’s actually really useful to know what resonated with people and I love everyone who takes the time to tell me they liked a particular turn of phrase

I don’t mind if your comment is super long or just a couple of sentences, i love them all

I love you

Everything sucks and I am not okay.

Okay then. Try these things. (mainly for neurodivergent people but really its for anyone who has a problem but Doesn't Know What)

SHORT TERM- i feel bad right now and need immediate relief

Get off your phone. Seriously

Drink a glass of water

Eat something with protein

Shower if you haven't already

Brush your teeth

Tidy your space a bit

Open a window and stretch your legs or go outside on a walk if you can

Say something nice to someone

Put on some music. Something relatively happy

Hug a living being (pet, sibling, parent, etc)

Change clothes or feel a nice texture or listen to some 8D music. Sometimes its a sensory thing

Get something small done. Reply to an email or something

Do something creative. Draw, write, sing, whatever

Learn some cool new information

Talk to someone. Phone a friend, talk to your parents, text someone, etc

Read a damn book (fanfic counts)

Sleep, or if you can't manage that, try to relax or meditate for 5 or 10 mins

If you have over excerted yourself physically mentally or emotionally, gove yourself a break.

LONG TERM - ive been feeling bad for a while and want to get a bit better overall

Try to talk to someone about life generally. You might just figure it out

Stop making suicide jokes. Yes, that includes ironically saying "i want to die" at any minor inconvenience. for me, this was changing it to "im going to commit a war crime" or "I'm going to buy a completely unnecessary amount of clothes". Be ridiculous with it. Keep the comedic value.

Stop being self depricating. Failed a maths test? "oh im just really bad at maths" turns to "my maths skills are unmatched. im a genius" it can be sarcastic. then youll get used to complimenting yourself and will do it unironically out of habit

Change something. For me this was cutting my hair. i felt out of control. i cut my hair because i couldn't do anything else. this could be joining a club, buying new clothes, dying your hair, choosing a new perfume or deodorant. Anything that makes you feel in control

I might add more to the long term list in the future but this is it for now. You will get better, the silly little guy on the internet believes in you <3

"wyd"

( I am sitting on the broken swing set in the garden. around the corner is the tree we would climb before we knew that those were the days we would miss. i can see the neighbours greenhouse with tomato vines creeping up the walls and it feels like they are smothering me. I cant breathe. These walls convulse with memories and tears and days lost to the test of time. Everything floods back. The smaller feet are still imprinted over the grass. I begin to picture the softness of your voice and the darkness of her eyes, your hair spilling over your shoulders and you back like a pot of ink knocked over. You are here with such achingly perfect and terrible clarity that i feel as if i am choking on my own heartbeat, rising up in my throat and blurring my vision.)

"not much bro wbu"

favorite number?

42, obviously (this is a reference if you get this youre a nerd)