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that bad sensory moment when you’re trying to do something that requires a lot of focus and the people around you are talking loudly and you’re just sitting there like $&@&&@@^%#%^%***++*%%#%^*+%%%

I’ve already seen some things on this, but what would have happened it Nickolas had been brainwashed and just. Froze. In front of Nathanial. Like what would have happened? (Also let’s completely ignore the fact that they said they needed EVERYONE but decided not to at least check on Nickolas, I mean I kind of understand but they didn’t even mention him.) Would Number Two finally be allowed to beat up Curtain?(kind of joking. Kind of.) Would Curtain figure out how to save them? If not him then who? Don’t get me wrong, Nickolas faking being still in the fake happiness state and using to his advantage was amazing ( and yes it was slightly cruel but than you think about what Curtain did and feel zero remorse.) but it would have been interesting to see the alternative. (That or I just have the need to traumatize all my favorite characters.) WE COULD HAVE GOTTEN MORE BACKGROUND ON THE TWINS😭😭😭😭😭😭 still, I like what they did.(that could have made Curtain’s redemption arc less ‘rushed’ because he could have saved Constance and Nickolas by figuring it out.)

I’ve seen some posts talking about how Vox will most likely try to humiliate Alastor using his fight with Adam, but I haven’t really seen any of what his reaction would be. Would it be another “Radio Killed the Video Star” fight (if you can really call it that) or would Alastor say something himself on the radio? Ignore it completely and act like nothing happened? I mean, if Vox really does try and use material from the fight then Alastor can just use the facts that, 1. He’s still alive and Adam’s not, 2. It was his minion that killed Adam, and 3. The Vees were the ones all talk about fighting the angels in the first place and weren’t even there to actually fight them. (Are overlords allowed to talk about what happens in meetings to the general public? Or is it just frowned upon?) I’m also curious to Vox’s approach with it. Would he go along with “Alastor the Altruist” and try to annoy him that way, or would he get too excited and blow it up?

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Roses are red, that much is true, but violets are purple, not fucking blue.

I don't think some of you should be coming down on Aziraphale so hard for his decision and I'm going to point out something not enough people take into consideration.

Just think of the circumstances he was in. He got offered a deal that could fix pretty much every single problem they have and that could consequently make both him and Crowley incredibly happy.

At least that's how he sees it. It all comes crashing down once he realises that that's not what Crowley wants. That it's not that easy for them to have that perfect life. Having that opportunity and then it being ripped right out of his hands. Just look at how giddy he was when he was telling Crowley, after which he straight up went into denial and refusing to listen to what Crowley has to say, because this. would. have. solved. everything.

But... it's not what Crowley wants. And it's not as if he can make him go with him to Heaven (thank god) because he's not that kind of person. He's not possessive or controlling. And more than anything he loves Crowley and up until that moment he had the perfect means to make him happy. And now it's gone.

So not only does he have this earth shattering realisation about Crowley and what he wants he also now has to deal with what he himself wants. Now if anyone knows how it feels to be in such a stressful and agonising dilemma over something, you will probably feel and emphasise with Aziraphale pretty hard in this scene. Because this is where old coping mechanisms start to hit. This is where he falls back on something reliable, something he can trust will make the right decision, and that is his old belief that Heaven is to be obeyed and that it can do no wrong, that is still so ingrained in his instincts and decision making. This is where his trauma comes into play.

And he fights it.

How fucking strong do you have to be to be able to fight your own gut feeling, that has been trained and created for millions of years. He actively tries to tell the Metatron "no" multiple times, shame that the Metatron is a master manipulator and doesn't let him the opportunity, but he still does it nonetheless.

(This is the part I wanted to point out) This boy had to make a life changing decision that would determine how he would spend the rest of eternity itself. And he didn't even have 10 minutes to make it.

He had only minutes to make this decision. Imagine the sheer soul-shattering heart-rending turmoil that has been going on inside him. The sheer panic and dread he was probably feeling.

And despite what millenia of training and what his thoughts and logic were telling him, he still followed his heart, he still chose Crowley... until the Metatron sensed exactly that and told him about the Second Coming.

Well, now that made things much simpler. His happiness or the universe. And he sacrificed himself. Again...

And to top it all off, he had to fucking smile. He has just lost everything he loves, earth, the bookshop, crepes... and Crowley. No. No, it's more than that. After Crowley's confession he realised he lost everything he never even had. Utterly and completely alone. And he cannot dare shed a tear. How. Fucking. Strong. Do you have to be to be able to do that.

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I think it’s the fact that Aziraphale doesn’t actually want Crowley to change, not really, that kills me. He wants to protect him, make it easier for them to be together. He doesn’t want to be separated from him any more than Crowley wants to be. He still wants to be good and he thinks that in taking Crowley with him to Heaven they can still have the same relationship as they do on Earth. Aziraphale doesn’t understand, not like Crowley does. Crowley has been at the mercy of both Heaven and Hell, quite literally punished by both. Aziraphale went to Hell to save Crowley and witnessed the blunt cruelty of Hell. Aziraphale still believes Heaven to be pure because Heaven covers its corruption with ‘good’ intentions. Crowley knows better.