Omglaraaa - Lara

Ideas for a character that used to be in a gang? What sort of problems might he have now (he's already a kleptomaniac)?

Hi! Here’s a bit of a mix of ideas and problems:

● Old gang is trying to get him back● On parole/ watched by the police ● Criminal record makes getting a job harder ● Feels like he needs a group of friends or a family (as one appeal of gangs is the loyalty) ● Hard to not resort to violence during a disareement ● Lacks a home or money since he was dependent on the gang ● Afraid of walking into gang territory and getting caught back up in the mess● Has to constantly check his morals to make sure he doesn’t slip into crime again ● Almost too nice because he’s trying to make up for his past ● Old rival gangs mess with him/ hurt him● Lost in terms of his goal for life● Struggles to reconcile with family ● Unsure of how to act around old gang members ● Snitched on his old gang and has to watch his back now● Can’t decide what to do with his illegal prosessions or money ● Protesters harass him becuase he was involved in a shooting a long time ago that involved a stray bullet and unintended victim ● Drug addict/ alcoholic/ smoker ● Feels overwhelmingly guilty about people he’s killed, hurt, or helped to kill (visits the graves) ● Tries to cover up gang tattoo

The Kiss of Death (El petó de la mort), Poblenou Cemetery in Barcelona.

Me trying to get through 2020

I was thinking about how you’re always the first to say I love you; We were laying there on the couch, in a dark room illuminated by the light of the movie screen. I looked up at you. I could see the reflection of the movie in your eyes, the tension in your square jaw, and all the little creases in your curled up, crooked smile. You didn’t notice that I was watching you, but that’s okay. You didn’t have to. Every little thing that you did so effortlessly, I fell in love with over and over again. You turned to me and I hugged you closer, tugging on your shirt as I allowed your arm to rest around me. Before you could say anything, I leaned in to kiss you, but stopped myself just an inch before your face. You flash me that smile, oh so innocent, so sincere. I whisper your name, and find that those are the only words I know how to form. The following silence whispers the words I’ve been trying to say. You reply softly, “I love you too”, and I’ve never kissed someone so passionately as I had in that exact moment.

“i love you” pt.2 // 3.22.17 (via overdosedemotions)

- out of my notebook

the 'your day at a glance' notification is the only thing i look forward to everyday

I thought you were a good person but you messed up and you used me and you still don’t remember when my birthday is and you never even knew my middle name. And you tricked me into thinking you wanted the same things as me and you acted like you cared about what I was doing on the weekends and how my sister’s classes were but I don’t think you really cared about anything at all. And there’s a lot I should have said to you but the only thing I want you to know now is that none of that was okay but I am.

(via i-wrotethisforme)

I love you.
It’s the most honest thing I could say to you, yet it still feels like a lie. You see, I don’t just love you, I crave your touch. I seek your advice and wish for your laugh. I would go blind just to be your muse, and I would lose my mind if it meant I could watch you become the person you aspire to be. I love you, it’s true, but I believe it goes beyond that, beyond anything words could ever describe.

I love you (via beautifulessencewildmind)