Reasons I Shouldnt Let Myself Cum:

Pathetic fuck toy is edging awake. Naked in bed. Vibe on clit. Drippy cunt. Pathetic fuck toy hasn’t cum for 546 days

Pretty sure i accidentally conditioned myself to get horny as soon as i go to type in my password for this forsaken app lmao

finnnally gettinn to tha part of edging where keeping being ambiently turned on is more desirable than cumming

I don’t even wanna be fucked I just want to be your party accessory?? Like bring me to your friends house dressed like a slut on a collar and leash. Keep me cuddled up at your feet in front of you while you talk about important things and I play with my pink DS (I used to play Pokémon and Nintendogs on mine as a little girl and I bought a new one a couple years ago that makes me regress like crazy). Occasionally pet me with your foot, or tug on my leash so I sit up on my knees so you can kiss me, stoke my face, stick a couple fingers in my mouth and tell me I’m being a good girl. Your friends can touch me if they want, in the same way they ask to pet cute dogs. I’m just an animal, and you know who should touch me better than I do anyway.

Making her piss herself then bullying her for being so pathetic and pissing herself >>>

It truly is a win for everyone. Rejoice and live your best life.

I do find like mindless, sexiness in cleaning that I never truly had before. I used to hate it. Now I enjoy it. I used to balk at traditional housewife things. Now I love them. I never liked pink or flowers or being girly. Now I do!

It's quite fun to see and feel these sorts of changes bc really they're just helping me be better... and not only do I get really aroused, the house gets clean too!

"Sadists know that they enjoy hurting people. For most, it takes time to come to terms with that. And even when you’ve accepted your desire to inflict pain, building trust with a new person is always hard. To show the person you care about that you love their agony… It takes time. No one in kink exercises more self-restraint than the sadist."

The Slow Unfurling of Sadism

I don’t consider myself a masochist, but pain is an important part of my submission. Sometimes that feels weird to say—that I like pain and need pain, but I’m not a masochist. For me, the difference is that pain is an expression of my submission, not an end in itself. I enjoy the opportunity to give myself to my Dominant in ways that are hard for me. I enjoy knowing that I am a girl who doesn’t get choices, even if my Dominant chooses for me to suffer. And I need these “proof of ownership” moments, even when I don’t always enjoy them. 

But as someone who needs pain, I have dated sadists. Actually, I kind of adore them. Sadists are deeply emotionally aware. When you are a person who feels aroused and emotionally connected through inflicting pain, you learn to read every quiver, every trembling lip, the inflection of every scream. You become hyperfocused on your partner’s emotional and physical state because that’s what feeds you— and because you know what can go wrong.

Sadists know that they enjoy hurting people. For most, it takes time to come to terms with that. And even when you’ve accepted your desire to inflict pain, building trust with a new person is always hard. To show the person you care about that you love their agony… It takes time. No one in kink exercises more self-restraint than the sadist.

So this means people with deep emotional awareness are required to take serious emotional risks with their partners. This leads to an endearing pattern that I call the slow unfurling of sadism (alternate title: How Sadists are Like Shy Baby Groundhogs). Sadists tend to start slower than other D-types. They don’t cause a lot of pain right away. They test something out, then they back off a little. A flicker of pain, then back to soft and sweet. Then they push a little further, and then back off a little. Gradually, they create a safe space for their submissive to suffer—to let pain flow freely. They earn a submissive’s trust by showing they are in control and respect boundaries.

At the same time, they are also creating opportunities for their submissive to earn their trust—trust that they won’t be rejected and trust that what they are doing is consensual. Sadists need reassurance. Did you endure the pain out of submissive obligation, or did you want it? Did it mean something to you? They need to know if you felt a connection through the pain. They need to know if it turned you on. They need to know if you want more. As a submissive, I love these moments. I get to tell my partner that I love the glimmer in their eyes before they hurt me, or that I smile every time I run my fingers over the welts on my ass. I am honest about my limits, but I also show my sadist the joy I feel in serving through pain. 

The most rewarding moment is when a sadist looks deep into your eyes and tells you they want to lick the tears off your face while they make you scream. And then they do it. Because that’s when you know they’ve let you in. They’ve trusted you with a part of themselves that few people get to see, let alone love. That is a beautiful feeling, and well worth the time it takes to get there. 

...can't fault that logic.

Reading your blog has me so horny. I just want to edge and drip while reading your posts and never ever cum

aww 💕 you should know, tho...

it'll make you worse. those kinks you already have? get ready for them to go up to 11. those kinks you don't think you have? get ready to get them.

it'll make you needy. other people's attention will be like a drug. you'll be dying for their approval.

it'll make you dumb. you will have the kind of empty mind a Buddhist initiate dreams of.

you will lose time. one edge turns into ten turns into twenty... hours go by with your hand between your legs and you won't even notice.

most of all... you'll give up. on what, exactly, is impossible to say. maybe you'll give up on ever getting permission. maybe you'll give up your rights to cum whenever you want. or you'll give up on anything ever feeling as good as denial. or you'll give up the idea of being human entirely and become a pet thing mostly made of need. regardless, you will give up. you will give in. in so many ways.

enjoy 💕

Edging is your self hypnosis. It keeps you grounded and level, reminding you what you are.

You can’t get enough of how it feels to tune the world out and rub. That aching feeling, the desperate need for friction, your clit is reacting now as you read this.

Squeezing your thighs any chance you get, mindlessly humping as you sit, desperate for that feeling. Your mind goes beautifully blank, your pussy starts to flood and then you drop…