Yep, I'm The Girl Who St@rves But Still Ends Up Fat Cause I'm A Weak B*tch

Imagine how it would feel seeing someone from school after years and they say you've lost a lot of weight and look good

People- why are you starving??

🙏🏽god forbid a girl save money and food in this economy.

I know that the skinny in me hates my fat decisions.

i hate food. i hate being fat. food is just a temporary pleasure. it’s like being in a toxic relationship. i wish i could be skinny. skinny like the other girls. thighs the same size as their legs. perfect waist. clothes that fit. a world that loves and respects you.

Cravings are your haters praying you get fatter. Probe them wrong!!!

Convincing myself I'm not fasting so I don't binge. I don't feel hungry. Therefore I am not hungry. I won't ruin this.

Also took 2000 steps today

'Why do you always add random numbers in your notes app'

-God forbid a girl has hobbies 😮‍💨

I have fucking obsession about being perfect.

Might see a psychiatrist today. The day someone finally tells me what's wrong with me. I should be happy...a diagnosis is validation that it's not all in my head.

But how can I be perfect if there's something wrong with me): if there's an imperfection. A flawi can't reverse.

Sometimes I imagine myself skinny, like flat stomach, small thighs and legs, small arms, small chest and there's this deep yearning that I feel lol 😭