I Know That The Skinny In Me Hates My Fat Decisions.

🧍🏽‍♀️okay but like do I need a spark when being skinny will have me sparkling?

i might lose my spark but i'm thinner and that's all that matters

Accidentally fasting has to be the best things ever. Like I don't need food. It's obvious I eat because I'm bored not hungry. I need to do better.

Being fat and anorexic is the worst combo to ever exist I swear

Unless you faint or die, keep ⭐️Ving

My dad wanted me aborted. Sometimes I'm sad he failed at that.

I had 2 of these - each is 85 Calories.

170 Cals today in total.

While drinking water most of the day.

Asked my mom to get me a refill on my adhd meds and my appetite suppressants since she was going to the doctor anyway. First box - The lady at the counter apparently said those the acerta also works as an appetite suppressant granted it's for a different use. Second one - And those are my appetite suppressants that I've had,I just wanted a refill so I didn't have to go yk. And my mom's gonna give me laxatives in the morning. I'll take them after my doctor's visit tomorrow.

Eat wise

Drop a size.!

Before you report someone's blog and take away their safe space...

Ed's are the most lonely and isolating illnesses there is. You are accepted only if you're successfully recovering, otherwise you're automatically problematic and promoting. Your body and habits around eating are triggering. You're demonetized for simply having a sickness.

People with ed's will always find their triggers, no matter how hard you try to block, report and all. But the thing is, you have to find these spaces. Closed spaces. If we don't have those, people will take their ed's on TikTok or other platforms where they will eventually pop up to everyone to see. If someone looks for these spaces, they're already sick. No one will GET sick by looking at someone's blogs.

These spaces let's you be honest, vent, have people and friends that all go through same things. You're less lonely. These spaces can be toxic, but when you find the right people it can be uplifting and actually good for your mental health: you're not alone.

These days people are mostly nice and pro recovery. M34nsp0 is something only kids post these days anymore. We connect, we vent, we help each other. Until WE are ready to recover. Forced recovery will never work the same as choosing recovery yourself. Reporting everything makes everything worse: you get isolated again, you're lonely again. Most people who D13 from Ed's d13 from taking their own life... It's the loneliness and depression that takes them eventually.

So if you see someone's Ed page, let them have it. Block it if you find it disturbing, but that can be the only thing keeping them alive atm. Just because YOU feel like it's not good, doesn't give you the right to take that safe space, friends and support from them.

If you need to find it, the sickness is already there. We will take these things to another platforms if these ones gets taken away. And then they will pop up to everyone.

So, our businesses are here, yours is there. The problem comes when you're also there, in our businesses. Protect your peace and block. Thank you.

Dreams are zero calories, go to bed.

Convincing myself I'm not fasting so I don't binge. I don't feel hungry. Therefore I am not hungry. I won't ruin this.

Also took 2000 steps today