she/her 19! 🇱🇧🇵🇸
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pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning
“You deserve better” is an interesting way of saying I’m not worth getting better for
it makes me sick it makes me SICK
im sorry im still here today im sorry i opened my mouth im sorry i woke up im sorry im alive im sorry that i started a conversation and im sorry to bother you even though you replied. im sorry im like this im sorry i talk everyday im sorry i feel tired and im sorry that i feel happy im sorry that i cvt and im sorry that i dont hurt myself enough im sorry for everything ive ever done. im really really sorry
REALLLLL
dude that joke was so funny!!!
i don’t eat anymore because of it.
me when my friends ask what my new year’s resolutions are
- get skinny
- get skinny
- get skinny
- get skinny
- get skinny
I hate eating so much. Every time I eat I swear I can feel the fat on my body growing. Ew ew ew ew ew.
they will never want me as much as i need them
crying over math
i just watched black swan for the first time… descent into madness girl winter let’s go
Not so hot take: Fatspo is so embarrassing. If you genuinely believe calling some stranger fat on the internet will magically make you skinnier.........I don't even know bro. Hopes lost.
it's time :))
(holiday season+cold weather= mental health decline)
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“what happened to your leg?” oh nothing😃
my friend asked me this once and i js stared at her until she changed the topic LMFAOOO umm idk they appeared in my sleep i guess😆
can you tell me you love me very much please
i’m starting to lose weight! i finally feel valid on here! it’s not a lot but i’ve lost 5 lbs in the past month. i only just started restricting and fasting recently so i’m making slow progress, and seeing the weight loss is so motivating
Just caught a glimpse of my arms in the mirror and now my day is ruined🤍
I just wanna be skinnyyyyyyyyy
it was never gonna work out but i experienced all these seemingly profound unreplicable moments that were romantic and moving and made me feel alive and still none of it actually means anything in the long run. but thats okay. sometimes a beautiful moment is just that. a moment. and you have to leave it alone and just be grateful that it happened. woooow
today is my birthday <3 i’m 19!!! 19 on the 19th! yay so super cool!
i wish i could feel emotions the normal amount
i think i’ll daydream about being loved for the rest of my life
It's not 'I sh to punish myself/feel something/release the tension', it's more like: I love sh. I'm obsessed with it. I have to feel pain. I have to change something on my skin. I have to touch the fluids dripping out of it and eat them. I just have to. I have no other choice. I can't stop. I don't know how. No coping mechanism works for me. There's nothing I can do, nor others. I need it.