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study inspo in backyard

José del Cabo, Baja Californa Sur

© solaz resort los cabos

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i am made up of

the galaxies in my hand

and the stars that fell apart

in a desire

to fix someone else's heart.

i am not exactly broken

but what resides in my heart

are the little heartbreaks

that found their escape in metaphors,

they often make the noises

i am tired of hearing

but the world never tried to listen.

each day comes with the new hope

but mine serves as another hammer

to make the cracks in me wider,

yet somehow i manage to hide them

with the little good i receive.

i see all around,

some stranger trips

on the thresholds of the markets

while others on their own decisions,

everyone is carrying

some sort of heaviness

they choose to confine in their bones.

their pain might be bigger or lesser,

but the thing is every pain hurts.

bruises are countable

but the ache isn’t.

every one goes through something or the other,

different storms prevail in different hearts,

yet we assume that the life was biased

to provide just us with the difficulties.

everyone is fighting,

some are healing

while some are still breaking.

but, what matters is

we all are still moving.

— vishakha//@penthethoughts

I can feel infinitely alive curled up on the sofa reading a book. That’s the thing about books.

“I literally cut myself off in the middle of negative thoughts like bitch we don’t have time for this come back.”

— SZA 

@bloglih via Instagram

2023 will be better

Overall

This is the final year of 'prep'. By the end of this year I'll be in a position where I can move how I've always wanted. I'll be ready to live the life of luxury and power I've always wanted. I'm done living in working class survival mode.

Note: Cosmetic upgrades postponed!!!

Base look Makeover

Vitamins

Skincare/Dermatologist approved skincare

New Clothes

Clothes tailored

Financial

Another 5,000$-7,000$ nest egg saved

Save 5,000$ so I can move to Boston for college

Pay off my 2 certifications 3,000$

Get 35 contacts from networking events that I can rely on and that I want to stay in contact with.

Get a job that won't burn me out! Aka a new better job w/better salary. OR get a paid internship. OR work part time for a nice small business.

Start another business!

Hit 200$ a day income

Hit 300$ a day income

Hit 400$ a day income

Hit 500$ a day income

Daily Routine

Workout (no matter what): 18%-20% Body Fat goal

1 gallon water drink

Clean eating + diet breaks

Studying (1hr-2hr) pomodoro style

Vitamins (multivitamins, and collagen powder)

Post 3 videos/pictures to IG, TikTok, or Youtube. (Maybe)

Mental

Find a therapist and Go to therapy

Get my 2 certifications in corporate finance (Harvard goal in 2025)

Read the 100-300 books on my list

Focus on to become intermediate in Violin & Recorder

Focus on to become conversationally fluent in Spanish or Mandarin

Find a new country to live in. (To leave USA in 2026)

Get another (different) certification for my career.

Live my life no matter how much money I don't have.

Fulfill a Teenage Dream

This is a stretch goal, might not happen.

Save 7,000$. And go on a two month long road trip!

Full Reinvention Loading

apply for jobs you’re not qualified for! audit upper-level classes! get drunk with your TAs! see that poster advertising that lecture series? go there take notes and ask questions! thank the presenter for talking about this topic you love! if the class is full before you register, email the professor and ask if they can squeeze you in! RAISE YOUR HAND! tell the disability accomodation office to do their goddamn job! ask for help! file complaints! go to class in your pajamas and destroy the reading! you got this! you KNOW you got this! be arrogant enough to learn EVERYTHING! take your meds! punch a velociraptor in the dick! fear is useless and temporary! glory is forever! shed your skin and erupt angel wings! help out! spread your sun!

i had a really good morning! you deserve a really good morning! kill anyone who says you don’t and build a throne from their bones!