“I don’t want to be happy. I want to have you by my side. To have you by my sadness and my depression. To have you. Your love. Your care. That is much much precious than happiness. I am a nothing and a no one. But I am everything in your hands. So hold me.”
— Mohammed Zarir, from a letter to T.M. (2020)
It is okay to completely change your beliefs, ideas, intentions, boundaries, expectations and desires. You are a dynamic being. You are “supposed” to explore more and change. Change is a core part of your expansion.
“Close some doors. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because they no longer lead somewhere.”
— Paulo Coelho
Relationships are not a game. Quit the “well they didn’t answer my text for two hours yesterday so now I’m gonna wait two hours to answers theirs.” Quit the “I’m not gonna tell them that I’m upset cause if they really care they’ll notice and if they don’t notice they don’t really care.” Quit the “I’m not gonna text first cause it’s their turn.” Quit all of that. If you want to talk to them, talk to them. If you want to see them, ask them if they want to hang out. If you care about them, let them know. If you have something to say, say it. Stop playing all those silly mind games. It’s a waste of everyone’s time.
Based off of this post by @ffspunk
Today's evening sky
#sky #evening #clouds
me, closing document: this is awful and pointless
random commenter on ao3: this made me smile (:
me, opening document: guess i’ll write 50k more
You teach people how to treat you by what you tolerate.
You’re never asking for too much or asking for the wrong thing; you’re just asking the wrong people.
Rejection is redirection. Better things are waiting elsewhere. Trust in synchronicity.
Here and now is worth being alive and enjoying the moment to the fullest. Not someday when you will have X and Y goal accomplished. You are worthy of letting yourself be happy here and now.
The only limitations in your life are those that you impose on yourself - first and foremost, mentally. So release them.
Work on your goals lowkey, and only share the progress with truly dear people to you, that you know can treasure the delicate energy of a blooming goal, with only positive energy.
When you let go of the old, you tell the universe, “I’m ready for the new.”
Amazing things await you, if you allow them into your space. Believe that you deserve better, and you will.
“If you were born into a family that had expectations for you to play a specific role in order for them to affirm you, your work is deconstructing their ideas of who you were supposed to be and demanding respect for who you are. You do not owe your family a character. Have whatever relationship you want with your family, but live free. Express your truest self. Know that you were born to be known by those who have eyes to see you… As. You. Are.”
— Nate Postlethwait
man it's so fucking funny when I actually solve a wordle bc in my brain it makes me feel like this gif