How Are You Feeling? Zachary Asks. “Like I’m Losing My Mind But In A Slow, Achingly Beautiful Sort

02.03.23

So, today, I got done with a lecture that I've been putting off since December. Feel much more productive. I have a long day tomorrow. I have 2 more lectures to go through and a 5 chap test of physics tomorrow.

And then all of a sudden, it feels like January again, and you're all alone in that blanket of yours, dreaming of sunsets, stardust and peace.

02.21.23

So, I found myself a study buddy and we're committing to a weekly schedule, rather than a daily one. It's much better on me mentally to have that. Also, I'm going through a lot right now. Ahh, I need to push through. I need to work hard.

A study buddy is important.

live your life now. don’t save clothes for a time you’re happier in your body, don’t put off adventures because you think your friends would be happier without you there, don’t deprive yourself of good things just because you can’t see the good in yourself

But I didn't even do anything though

And there in the dark, he asks if it was really worth it.

Were the instants of joy worth the stretches of sorrow?

Were the moments of beauty worth the year of pain?

And she turns her head, and looks at him, and says,

'Always'.

-the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab

nothing can ever beat the combo of chai and a good book

The thought was this: that all my life had been murk and depths, but I was not a part of that dark water. I was a creature within it.

- Madeline Miller, Circe

I love the creased spines of paperbacks, and I'm pretty sure the book wears those creases with pride; "I have not just been read, I have been devoured"

"Being forgotten, she thinks, is a bit like going mad. You begin to wonder what is real, if you are real. After all, how can a thing be real if it cannot be remembered?"

- the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab