02.03.23

'I can't. It's too risky,' I tell myself, as I back away from the wings that lay in front of me, the ones that I yearn for, hope for. Live for. Those wings.

'I'm so close,' I argue, 'I've always wanted this.' Those wings.

I can imagine Icarus smiling at the stars burning in my eyes.

'Come,' he would say, 'Fly.'

I smile, closing my eyes, keeping those stars going supernova to myself. And I walk away. Those wings.

'I am no Icarus.'

02.05.23

So, I've been pretty productive today. Did groceries and attended the lectures. Need to do a chap rn. I need to study and do well. I'll study till 9pm and then, sleep. Slept a good 10 hours yesterday. Sleep is the most important thing ever.

🌻 study update 🌻

Pictures from yesterday

🌱okie so today, I felt like shit, I had about one hour of sleep :( however, I didn't listen to that tiredness and did some physics hehe. I'm really proud of myself.

How are you feeling? Zachary asks. “Like I’m losing my mind but in a slow, achingly beautiful sort of way.

- Erin Morgenstern, The Starless Sea

But in a solitary life, there are rare moments when another soul dips near yours, as stars once a year brush the earth. Such a constellation was he to me.

- Madeline Miller, Circe

🌱 dreaming and crafting

To everyone who's going through loss in life, whether it be a person, wealth, your job, your health; it's okay to be vulnerable and to complain 🌻 Just know that this feeling of grief isn't forever and it's all gonna be okay.

I'm proud of you 🌻

I remember you.

- the invisible life of Addie LaRue by V.E Schwab

I get that you might not be able to understand my point of view, but that doesn't mean that you misunderstand when I'm trying to convey. Don't twist my words to form those judgemental opinions of yours.

whatever was left, that was ours for a while.

sunrise - louise glück