ugh
Suddenly feeling kknda spacey and zoned out yippe
„Suicide is selfish“ let me be selfish for once in my life.
Why can I not stop fuxking thinking about it nothing even happened today oh my god what he fuck
How the idea of randomly posting a goodbye message and offing myself starts to feel past 12 pm
being bullied and called ugly your whole life and being the filler friend who never got invited to anything results in becoming attached to any guy who gives you attention.
TW - this is a vent poem that contains allusions to topics such as depression, sh, and passive suicidal ideation. It’s not explicitly about religion but it does use a ‘devil’ as a metaphor.
Be safe <3
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There’s a devil on my shoulder
He’s a nasty little thing,
but his whispers are so sweet
A blade tipped with honey, coaxing him to me
I don't remember when he came
Maybe he rode along on the agony of last November
Or maybe he's always been there
Nestled in the back, hiding away in a cloak of laughter
And each day his questions are more and more tempting
When the cloak is stripped away,
When the light of the day fades
I’m left alone to fight this silver tongued enemy.
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Stay safe out there yall, my DMs are open if anyone needs anything.
Remember, it’s never worth it, no matter how tempting it may seem,
who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am I who the fuck—
"You are so mature for your age." Well, at least one of us had to act mature in this shithole excuse of a family.
I don’t know how we’re letting trump get away with all this shit when I truly believe that if you threw a blanket over his head he would think it was nighttime and go to sleep like a bird