K | she/her | 20s | I'm my own biggest fan | ao3: zirrah | random obsessions: Suzerain | Severance | Fox Mulder | Mass Effect
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if I'm getting off the elevator and the door opens and you're standing RIGHT THERE in the middle of the fucking door 3 mm away from me
assume I will walk into you
gtfo of my way
rip Symon Holl you'd love pivot tables
AND ANOTHER THING
the relationship options in this game are quite literally written word for word like:
1. I love you my beautiful queen you are so right
2. I love you my beautiful queen but politics is complicated
3. I hate you stfu go kys
and r/suzerain will still be like grrahh why she divorce me reee
this is the least complicated part of this game you just have to try your absolute lightest to not be a wife hater it's that simple
imma go touch grass
r/suzerain is doing my fucking head in with the hatred for Monica
they got a well fleshed out character who's supportive and in love with the main character AND has her own interests. her crime is divorcing Anton when you turn into an absolute misogynistic family hating dickhead
like, let's reiterate, she doesn't divorce you out of nowhere, you need to be undermining and belittling her at every step and actively work to the detriment of the causes she cares for. which, by the way, she has every right to care for because she's the actual First Lady and that's not just a title!
to be clear, I did multiple runs of Sordland where my only antifamily decisions were 1) sacrifice family time for work in the prologue 2) not sign the WLA (for budget reasons, not ideology reasons) and she does not divorce me because outside of that, you get a ton of opportunities to be not-a-dick. even with the Benfi speech, you can double cross her to get Gloria's votes and then still resolve it diplomatically to have Monica and Cuntan Curtain Curtan Leste happy
again, this is a game where diplomacy is key, you're telling me you can be diplomatic with traitors, murderers, dictators and evil monarchs but not with your own wife?
god forbid a woman chooses the wellbeing of herself and the family in a game where you can literally dissolve people in acid and cause a nuclear war
I hate it here
oh my god I have so many thoughts on changing your last name after marriage
my husband and I had a thousand discussions about it and ended up deciding to hyphenate our names. no, not just me. he was Mr X, I was Ms Y - now he's Mr X-Y and I'm Mrs X-Y
the rationale behind that was that if marriage is a creation of new family from two existing ones, then both families should be reflected in the surname. I said that if he's not changing his surname, I will stay with mine as well. he actively chose changing his surname
we also discussed not changing our names and having potential kids named X-Y but that felt weird.
I said I don't want to change my name to his because my name is a part of my life and person. zero objections
our surnames are in different languages so it's very clear which surname came from him and which from me
and oh my god. the number of people who will disregard his new surname and call him Mr X is astounding. even when he corrects them and says his name is X-Y, they just say "yeah, sure". some will even double down on calling him X. he said it's a great test for meeting new people. some men treat his decision to change his name like an open warfare on their masculinity.
meanwhile, guess how many people referred to me by my previous name? that's right, 0, everyone respects the husband's added name.
we had people react to our names enthusiastically, like at a bank - these were all women.
there is no point to this story, just that society's views on names and marriages are weird
it's crazy how many super duper patriarchal things get retroactively justified in the name of being about love. yeah I'm sure women taking their husbands surname has always 100% been about recovering from trauma and distancing yourself from abusive family or whatever and has absolutely nothing at all to do with women being seen as property. great work here everyone, marriage as a concept has been redeemed through the power of pop psychology
Oh ok so it turns out ive been borrowing grief from the future ! it turns out ive been preparing to lose the things i love rather than basking in the light of them while they last. Maybe i should nt do that
communist Chris Martin was not on my bingo
I'll be the first to admit my OC is who I aspire to be lmao can't a girl dream
me: hmm, why did I make this OC in the first place? OC: well-- me: *senses a sudden creeping horror* WAIT DON'T ANSWER THAT
i love elections
lady on the electoral commission said she loved my surname
vibes are high
iced coffee time
eurovision turns me into a conspiracy theorist because I fully believe this shit was rigged to give Israel a win
yo we didn't want points from Israel tho... not claiming that one
not now baby Poland is being robbed
i'm glad the ancient tradition of hating eurovision juries is still followed
wtf you dumbasses
having grown up money is so great because when your bestie has a car crash, you can just buy her a Sephora gift card. it's ok queen your vibes are safe with me
something about waking up to a comment on your fic
like, while I was sleeping, someone was reading stuff I wrote
I don't know, I just have a very soft heart
love is everywhere for those with eyes to see
tagged by @vice-president-galade and @wokeupandchoseviolence - thank you! โค๏ธ
last song: Blue Hotel by Chris Isaak (gym playlist, nothing like deadlifting to moody 80s)
last film: Conclave (yesterday!)
last book: Tell Me An Ending by Jo Harkin - for my book club, picked after finishing Severance S2 with the girls
last tv show: for myself - Forever on Netflix (needed something chill), with people - Severance (obsessed)
sweet/savory/spicy: I have an insane sweet tooth, I could live on pastries only
relationship status: ๐๐ married ๐๐
last thing i googled: "pov you are water" for a dumb cat meme hehe
looking forward to: tonight! cinema (The Surfer, Nick Cage supremacy) and taco bowls for dinner + eurovision
current obsession: my OC who I keep inventing head canons for lol
Tagging! @poetikat @chavatangakwunua @act-iv
I appreciate eurovision because it's the only time of year when it's appropriate to discuss "serving cunt" on a work call
my rating:
1. Malta
2. Australia
3. UK
4. Luxembourg
5. Ireland
goodnight
Eurovision semifinals liveblogging
Australia - appropriately insane, approved
Montenegro - very artsy which is not what I expect from a Eurovision song
Ireland - praise Laika, approved
Latvia - I see the vision but not the eurovision
Armenia - I feel like I'm watching an Imagine Dragons video (derogatory)
Czechia - ๐คจ displeased
Luxembourg - this is weird (compliment). also catchy. approved
Israel - whats the etiquette on talking about Israel now. abstain
Germany - kinda giving charli xcx. epilepsy warning
Serbia - i think it's a love song, I don't approve of love songs in Eurovision purely because they lack the insaniy
Finland - (pre watching: extremely high expectation ater Cha Cha, the Finnish are always on their bullshit) I don't know. I think they might have fallen victim to my high expectations.
Eurovision semifinals liveblogging
Australia - appropriately insane, approved
Montenegro - very artsy which is not what I expect from a Eurovision song
Ireland - praise Laika, approved
Latvia - I see the vision but not the eurovision
Armenia - I feel like I'm watching an Imagine Dragons video (derogatory)
Malta - Serving? Serving what? Serving cunt? (prophetic first impression) weird costumes, weird visuals, controversy, 15/10. mwah (diva not down. screaming.)
Georgia - the dancers did not stutter. the song spoke normally. pretty visuals tho
France - "I despise the French" sister michael, derry girls
Denmark - it's a song that you hear on the radio when you're waiting at the post office
Eurovision semifinals liveblogging
Australia - appropriately insane, approved
Montenegro - very artsy which is not what I expect from a Eurovision song
Ireland - praise Laika, approved
Latvia - I see the vision but not the eurovision
Armenia - I feel like I'm watching an Imagine Dragons video (derogatory)
European Australia - had it muted to listen to the Polish entry but looked like a generic angsty guy song?
UK - Spice Girls? The Schuyler Sisters? the more I'm watching, the more it's growing on me. strangely captivating
Greece - early impression: you cannot perform a funky song in glasses. I need Eurovision songs to be insane
Lithuania - didn't deliver on the initial weird impression :( makes me think of Rush of Blood to The Head era Coldplay
Eurovision semifinals liveblogging
Australia - appropriately insane, approved
Montenegro - very artsy which is not what I expect from a Eurovision song
Ireland - praise Laika, approved
Latvia - I see the vision but not the eurovision
Armenia - I feel like I'm watching an Imagine Dragons video (derogatory)
Eurovision semifinals liveblogging
Australia - appropriately insane, approved
Montenegro - very artsy which is not what I expect from a Eurovision song
Ireland - praise Laika, approved
Latvia - I see the vision but not the eurovision
Armenia - I feel like I'm watching an Imagine Dragons video (derogatory)
the x files {script to scene) + 1x01 pilot