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A gun

A quick escape

To exit this thing called life

My Brain can’t take no more

Every day I force a smile

For what?

For fuck all

My head can’t think no more

I don’t want be on this place called earth

I want be dug deep in the ground

Out of this crazy life

Where there is no escape

From my self .

It’s a mess.

I give up fighting the urge everyday

To just end this shit.

For real.

If I had trigger

I wouldn’t hestatie

To know it would be over within a blink

It’s the perfect escape .

It’s lucky I don’t owe one

Or I would be in a place I call home .

Heaven .

Away from this nightmare

I can’t escape.

Please lord give me strength not

To put a end to my own light.

I don’t know why you placed me upon this life

And have me air to breathe

Every night

I ask why ?

What is my purpose to you under this dark light

Maybe the easy way out

People will say

But there don’t know the state of my mind .

It’s hard to cooperate

When all I see around me is snakes

I’m done with life .

Even the ones who claim to love me

Can’t see what is doing to the insides of me.

Life is a joke

No one gives a flying fuck

That my brain is turning into sticky glue

With words I can’t relate to .

Just tired of the pain my mind plays daily

I would rather live in a zoo

Then play this game of 2.

Hate is a strong word

But belive me when I say I hate this earth.

It’s full of devils

Ain’t no angels here

Just a fuckin game of tug .

I ain’t got the strentgh to pull

The fucker to my side no more.

Years of fighting with my own

To now just want be put in a hole.

I’ve learnt to accept it’s the only place

Im going be at rest

With my crazy soul.

I’m close to admit

The fucker has won .

@trueemotions91

Law and order

What the hell has happened

You all want the same thing

Peace love and harmony.

We just want freedom

To explore our own minds

To walk across the land

We was giving for free.

We stand with hands in the air

Chanting we just want to be heard

While your stood on the line,

Distorted face , a devils eye.

We was placed upon earth

By your mother and mine

I was giving life , by a wife ,

But I did not choose

To be put upon this world

Which is falling apart in front of me.

I did choose to have a mind

Not to be controlled by the side ,

But to many sheep are falling for the governments lie.

Your hitting innocent humans

While you glare with your power

Think your better then any other .

I don’t disrespect you job

But why do you defend the slobs

And not your job

Which is to protect your family and mine.

Not to use the bat

Given you to by the mighty rats

To a innocent man without a hat

We have no weapons , just a voice

We beg you can hear ,

But we know we fall upon deaths ears .

If we was to bring shields , bats and the world

You would be the ones running for the hills.

We out do the majority of you

But we still carry nothing

We don’t throw stones ,

Our hands are clean

We don’t carry a gun

Just a empty thumb.

We can all play games , believe me so,

But you lock the most powerful men in a zoo,

If them wild animals were let out ,

Your power would no longer be felt

As they would out do the devil in you.

We unite as one with out any cause

Millions of us , face off demons

Who won’t let us become one.

We are told violence is wrong

And we agree can’t you see

It’s just me .

I have no riot gear, My skin is my armour ,

A shield is my face , as I have nothing to hide ,

I don’t carry a baton , I carry a lantern ,

To show you the light , in the darkest point of your life.

I bring my energy , you carry a taser

To zap the life

Straight out of me .

We beg you to see

We are peaceful in this sweet lullaby

We only want to be free.

@trueemotions91

I see him everywhere

He smiles at me in the air,

He whispers me lullabies when I’m scared

Keeps the monsters from out my head ,

He holds me when I’m cold

Squeezes harder when I’m warm,

He just knows how , I liked to be hold

Ain’t a secret that could not be told .

I would trust him with my life

But I’m not to sure about a wife .

He is gentle , I know that so

But he is also very powerful .

Would he scare her gentle soul

I honestly don’t know .

@trueemotions91

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91