Gen Z Problems - Blog Posts

I think the reasons why so many of us gen z are practically frothing at the mouth to fight politicians and other things is because:

A. We aren't really afraid to die. We grew up being bombarded with statistics along the lines of "by 2050 all forests will cease to exist" and "the oceans are going to have a worldwide ecological collapse in the coming years" that we just we kinda accepted it and collectively lost hope?? Like, I realised that I truly, subconsciously believed that the world would end in my lifetime and I just? Didn't care?? And all of my friends think the same way??

B. Most of us grew up seeing our parents being depressed and divorcing and we couldn't accept that as our future too. We have unlimited access to an unlimited source of information and everyday we are bombarded by a hundred different sources of horrible news that either fuels are anger, turns it into apathy, or both. We need something to take that anger on.

We are not old enough to change this system that makes us so angry through politics and career choices, so we do what we can through the technology that we've had access to our entire lives. That is why we want to fight. Because we are desperately clinging to the hope that we can change things for the better and fix this planet the way everyone expects us to.

my dad is watching the real time with bill maher show and I just heard the stupidest thing. He says something like ‘gen z doesn’t know what 9/11 is because they’re too young. they don’t care. their 9/11 is when Kim kardashians ass broke the…’ (not word for word but the just of it). I mean wtf kinda thing is that to say? He’s saying like we haven’t lived through all the discriminating aftermaths of 9/11. how can he stand there and say (joke??) that gen z doesn’t care when, if anything, we probably are one of the ones who care most about it. We were born right after it happened we grew up with all the negative aftermath of that tragic day we care about all the shit that went down. I know he was being comedic but I think he pushed it too far. gen z is the revolutionary generation and to say that we don’t care about something as terribly sad as 9/11 and replacing it with Kim k’s ass is insulting. Rest In Peace to everyone who lost their lives in 9/11.

Tom on tomblr: he’s got so many defenses; even his charm and his charisma and his playfulness is a kind of defense

me, watching intently while fancily waving my hand that is holding a turkey stick like a cigar: isn’t it just the same for us all, dear tomithy. I would never admit to feeling depressed to my family without some sort of “underlying” humor to it *laughs in french*

you know that part of the movie, The Princess Bride when they’re going through the fire swamp and as soon Westley stops carrying Buttercup and she starts walking on her own, she immediately falls through the quicksand stuff? That is an exact representation of my life every time I attempt to get out of bed in the morning

One sign that I really have commitment issues is that I am rn in the phase of letting my hair grow again.

But hey what can I say my mum said „You wont do this you are not able to actually go through it you will just cut them again.“

I am spiteful okay, i will let them grow until i have shown her i can do it!!!!

Also i just want linger hair cuz its kinda easier to handle and i dont want my pixie anymore....after only 10 weeks of having it..

Update: So i decided to let them grow again

Parents Ig

I just had a lowkey fight with my mom.

She is like „you need to see the happy in life otherwise you wont notice it“

And I am like „this world is shit, it’s breaking but I have to live with it and I’d rather take a good moment than faking and lying myself into how beautiful it is, cuz it isnt but I still love it. After all its the only world and life I’ve got.“

She doesn’t understand this, she dont want to.

But I still have the feeling with the both of us, I understand this world better and feel way more comfortable. Cuz I just have accepted it and not trying to idolize it.

And she is such a hypocrite. But yeah anyways..

I’m just so fucking miserable rn.

I want to be calm again.

Moving out

I seeall this stuff from my childhood. So many things where I realize, everything I did from my 8yrs old self, was coping.

I had a shitty childhood, but really

With 8 I cut the eyes from old pictures out.

With 9 I drew black over my father in every picture I own of him.

With 10 I wrote in a diary telling it how I hate everyone and everything.

With 12 I got letters from my bullies telling me how worthless I am, I spit in them.

And with 15 I wrote a letter how I will kill myself.

I found this now, cuz I now move out I just realize how bad I actually was. I never fully understood why everyone is so impressed and stunned bymy behavior and casuality about all of this. Until now.

And now I’m sitting here, almost crying, realizing how fucking messed up I was. I am. How fucking good I am at coping and ignoring. How fucking stupid I was thinking I wont get better.

God, I cant fully comprehend the fact that the little girl, destroying her possessions out if anger, trying to kill herself, always mad and angry at the world. The little girl who was insuch a bad spot, was me. Is me idk.

Im still so fucking mad. Still so fucking vulnerable, I never realize how vulnerable, because I well, just keep going, keep living.

Is it a good coping mechanism, stubbornness or just ignorance? Idk all I know is I’ve got better.

My depression and anxiety will never go fully away again. But I’ve got control and freedom.

First Time

This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.

And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.

And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.

I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.

Do i need to add more??

Mood

Summer break is a funny thing, I get slapped by my extroverted side too often, sit the whole day at home being bored and then suddenly start questioning life.

Overall, I’m pathetic and don’t know how to survive starting work in September. And I’m stressing over my driving license test.

My life in a nutshell

„Veni, Vidi, Reliqui“

„I came, I saw, I left“

That’s probably my life quote and my life in a nutshell.

Even though I don’t really know what to do with it.

I don’t really like my brother but nowadays I relate to him more than I want to.

And it scares me like hell, because I never thought I’d get why he is so aggressive and mad about my mom.

I just want to figure life already out without getting scolded.

Life I guess?

I fucking hate my family rn, my grandma is a bitch who destroys everyone’s life. My aunt is an alcohol addict and doesn’t care about anyone, my brother has a aggression problem and hurt my mom really bad, and my stepfather is a mix between my mom and my grandma.

Also we’re not talking about my biological father cuz just nope.

And to top this, my mom has depressions and is having a bad week taking all out on me.

How do I cope with it? Well guys, I grew some balls (imaginary ones cuz I’m a girl) and just don’t bitch about it, sure I have bad days too but it’s 2018 bitch we deal with our problems.

Wine bottle

My mom accidentally dropped a bottle of wine, after that she came to me.

Mom: „Look, this is a good bottle, stable and well-built“

Me: „I wish my life would be that stable and well-built”

She laughed at me. Like literally laughed, thanks mom; thanks.