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Argh how am I even supposed to get a career? I do technician work on cars and have an electro-mechanical engineering associates but neither of those really feel like something I wanna do long term. Like how is one supposed to just. decide that. Especially at 18. And in the middle of a pandemic, which is when I was expected to. It doesn't help that there are so many things that sound like they would be fun and/or interesting but then most of them don't seem to pay very well (like landscaping or baking) or require a lot of math that I am subpar at (like all of the science that interests me) or I am just not very good at and feel like it would be very difficult to get into now (music, theater) (I know these still don't necessarily pay well either).
And like. maybe I could manage to get good enough at one of these to make a career out of it except I have the attention span of an actual gnat and I am really good at getting bored of things at top speed so what if I commit to something and then decide that it still isn't something I can to for 30+ years? I have found that the grass really is greener on the other side. But I have decided that I really don't want to work on cars for 33 more years so now I gotta find something else that is tolerable.
anyway end rant. thanks for reading, if anyone sees this. I just don't know what to do and need to put some thoughts out into the Void.