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I've read/listened to CO more times than I can count, and I think why I have (when I typically don't ever consume one type of media like this) is because I always come out knowing/understanding something new.

Obviously, I'm here for Baz and Simon and the rest of the gang. But I remember my second time reading, I grasped more the actual tragedy of the story. Particularly with the adults story. They aren't the main focus, but there's so much there that you can infer. I think what really hit me was the lost friendship between Lucy and Penny's mom. The scene were they last saw each other doesn't seem that important, but personally I see it as a prime example of how a manipulative partner can influence your other relationships and consequently add distance to them. Lucy had people who truly cares for her. And though maybe the Mage cared for her in his own way, he used her. I couldn't help but morn the life her and Simon could have had. And writing about it now, I believe the second time reading I truly morned for the characters. For Lucy, for Simon, for Ebb, for Baz, etc—they have been and go through so much but you wish they don't because they deserve so much more. But that's life. Tragedy where it's not fair and in the end you just have to carry on.

And now more recently I got in the mood to relisten to the audiobook. This time around, having read WS and many tumblr treads about the series, I noticed more about Simon. How the Mage treated him, how uncomfortable he is with physical contact, how he thinks people view him. But honestly I think this time around, I just realized how sad Simon is. He doesn't really act it, seeing how that's how he lives life. He doesn't think about the past or the future—he more or less always lives in the current. But we know he dreamed of having parents. The best he had was the Mage and Ebb. Physical contact isn't his thing because he never had it. Only kissed on the lips, never a parental or familiar kiss on the forehead or whatnot as a way to show a sign of care and affection. Always sent off to care homes in the summer. A place he never felt safe in where he always had to have his guard up. And the only time he was wanted somewhere was to fulfill a position in their society. It's no wonder Simon is at a loss in his life, let alone his relationship. I know it's been said, but he's no longer the choose one, and the closest thing he had to a father (is his father but he doesn't know that) told him that was his worth. And URG, there's just so much to say about him. Like how he had trouble speaking as a child and he himself recognized "it was easier to take than to ask." (Which is, admittedly, not a good quote, Simon.) He never learned to communicate, so his actions are the closest to speaking his truth. But now he doesn't know how to communicate what he feels and probably doesn't realize how good it can be to figure stuff out together rather than always be in your head. And don't get me started with WS and the ending. I'm glad he's starting to make goals and try to get in a better place, but he's still has a ways to go. So in conclusion: Simon needs a fucking hug, a therapist, and I need to cry.

But the real conclusion is that Carry On has so much to give. I didn't even scratch the surface. But it's what makes it one of my favourite book and how I'm literally dying for the third book.

Now if you'll excuse me, I will be in a 7 monthish comma until AWTWB is out.

What if Agatha was ace?

Spring Reading Reviews '16

This spring's list: NK Jemison, Rainbow Rowell, Stephen King, & Agatha Christie #amreading

Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve written anything here.  I’ve been hard at work at my new novel, so apologies for my absences but really Sorry, Not Sorry. I have been reading though, and here are my thoughts on what I read this spring (March-May).  Minor spoilers (nothing plot related) below for The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms by NK Jemison, Carry On by Rainbow Rowell, The Future of Life by Edward…

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It’s real wild how you can enjoy something on your own wholeheartedly but as soon as you find others whole love it just as much it feels 100% more intensity kind of love.

I’d give him all that I am.

I’d give him all that I was.

I’d open up a vein.

I’d tie our hearts together, chamber by chamber.

-Simon Snow

“But I still didn’t let myself dwell on any of the good things, you know? It’s the good things that’ll drive you mad with missing them.”

If meeting you was a pretty coincidence

then

losing you would be a charming curse…

@liztical

// Any way the Wind Blows by Rainbow Rowell //

Happily ever after, or even just together ever after, is not cheesy. It’s the noblest, like, the most courageous thing two people can shoot for.

Wren (Fangirl, Rainbow Rowell)

Sometimes writing is running downhill, your fingers jerking behind you on the keyboard the way your legs do when they can’t quite keep up with gravity.

Fangirl, Rainbow Rowell

❝You were the sun, and I was crashing into you.❞ -Carry On, Rainbow Rowell

i’ve always loved the sun/moon aspect of simon and baz’s relationship. they were complete opposites yet so similar. “because we match.” i’ve had this drawing lingering at the forefront of my mind for quite a while and i knew i had to illustrate it. the biggest problem for me is being afraid of not having the drawing live up to the expectations i’ve had of it in my mind, but i’m quite (read as ‘very’) satisfied with how this turned out. watch me make this my phone wallpaper. 

baz is looking a little grey, and simon’s hair is a bit browner than i intended, but nonetheless, this is completed. done. this is it, chief. 

do not repost on tumblr at all, and without credit on IG, please!

all ability to draw has left me 

concept: baz with the little bun 

if anyone has any artistic skill at all please draw this or show me a drawing of it

wait i forgot i can draw

concept: baz with the little bun 

if anyone has any artistic skill at all please draw this or show me a drawing of it

concept: baz with the little bun 

if anyone has any artistic skill at all please draw this or show me a drawing of it

Did she miss him? She wanted to lose herself in him. To tie him around her like a tourniquet. If she showed him how much she needed him, he'd run away.

Eleanor & Park, Rainbow Rowell

Books I’m Reading Right Now:

Made You Up - Francesca Zappia

Eleanor & Park - Rainbow Rowell

Ready Player One - Ernest Cline

Looking for Alaska - John Green

wait so carry on is like... published drarry fanfic right

My road to hell isn't paved with good intentions-or bad-it’s just my road.

Rainbow Rowell.