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To be scared is a under statement,

That fear no longer dwindles in my bones ,

Tumblr has taught me ,

Friends are just ghosts , or empty egg shells.

Strangers have more empathy then the man next door,

I was just a fool ,

all along , playing to the devils own dirty tune .

Emotions that ran high ,

Words that didn’t make much sense ,

To a soul opened my eyes

By just a few tiny words.

I realise now ,

it is not, who is here to pick up the phone

It’s the ones who are in the dark

But yet take the time to pass your name in there own daily thoughts.

Yet I’ve done nothing for them, yet there speak of me so kindly.

In this world that’s distracted by so much colour,

Them bright doors don’t hold the key to this earths heavens,

It is the doors that are hid in the darkest shadows,

waiting for someone to find them, to help them flourish.

So Don’t go looking for the brightest light ,

Search for the darkest gate

that’s where we will find all things beautiful in

such a dark cold world,

that’s flourished with colour To distract us ,

from the true treasures of this world .

@trueemotions91

@tammyfeabakker

The rush

From the blood.

The crimson rose

Against my pale white skin.

The Taste of evil and heaven I swear

it’s what feeds my darkest sins.

The pain I don’t feel

When the blade runs bare across my soul.

It’s not for me , I promise you that,

It’s for them who keep turning their back.

I love the way the blood trickles

Makes me realise , I’m here alive,

To breathe another day

Even if hell is on my side.

It’s twisted I know

To crave the rush.

They don’t care

As there push the demon

To the core

To blind to see the damage they truly cause.

Mine is temporary

A release from the demon

Within me .

Please don’t judge

When you see my scars

It’s proof to me I’ve lived

Through the pain

But I’m still here on the other side,

With nothing but love to give

To those who caused, the blade to sink in.

@trueemotions91

I don’t want to see

What is hidden beaneath the leaves

I’m scared it will shake my knees

Something I ain’t ready to please

I beg you

Don’t shake me to hard

I fall to fast

My soul won’t last

If you make me shiver

My heart will quiver

I don’t know when to stop

That’s when I lose the plot

I’m sorry

I can’t stumble

Upon these troubles

I want you to be happy

And

To show you inside

Would make us both the perfect disaster .

@trueemotions91

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

Why is life so raw

I only wanted to get up off the floor

But you won’t let me rise

You just want to watch me fall.

Scared I will rise above yourself

Difference is , I ain’t a whore

I’ll do my chore

But you still keep pushing me to the damn floor .

Fear is greedy

I get that now

But your only feeding the demon within me .

Your negative words fall all around me.

You made me so sore

I just don’t care no more

So you see ,

I may be upon the floor

But inside I’m ready to roar.

I see him everywhere

He smiles at me in the air,

He whispers me lullabies when I’m scared

Keeps the monsters from out my head ,

He holds me when I’m cold

Squeezes harder when I’m warm,

He just knows how , I liked to be hold

Ain’t a secret that could not be told .

I would trust him with my life

But I’m not to sure about a wife .

He is gentle , I know that so

But he is also very powerful .

Would he scare her gentle soul

I honestly don’t know .

@trueemotions91

A rose is red as the blood

That trickles when you prick

Your self with her thorns ,

The moon is as bright as the path

Lit , only enough for you to see the scary stuff,

The sun only shines, when it’s enemy’s are asleep,

Like the eagle in the sky

Waiting for its next victim who can’t escape,

The frog will watch each tiny slug

Against the river bugs,

While the spider etches her sketches

Against the moon lit sky,

The water speckles her nightmare

As it lights up her silver lined lie ,

The flys retreat from her secret trap

While her baby’s wait for it to fall

In their lap,

And all is lost in a blink of the eye .

@trueemotions91

Not wrote by me - but I had to share as it is amazing , ❤️. So all enjoy x

Her eyes remind me the first sea that I saw,

The kind of sea you only see in a draw.

When I’m looking at them I am getting out my mind,

The most beautiful thing a man could even find.

She took possession of my mind, of my dreams, of my soul.

When she is not there, I am feeling like if I was stuck in a hole.

Her presence is giving me the faith like if she was giving me a rope,

To get me out of that well and offer me the hope,

To see her one day having a rest in my arms,

While she doesn’t realize how effective are her charms.

I could spend my whole days looking at her sleeping face,

As long as she is there, I will never leave this place.

When everyone else is no longer there .

You see , the sun smiles on a sunny day

But hides when the clouds come to play ,

That’s just how it goes

But one thing I know

Is ,it always comes and goes,

It never stays in the same place

Because we don’t move at a snail pace ,

You see , you just have to watch the space

To open the gates ,

To all the things you misplaced

it will then ,all fall into place .

Just don’t hide from the same game

That’s got you playing in a hoop

Coz the game we play , ain’t a loop

We go high, we go low,

We go from side to side

But we never stay still

We keep climbing that hill

Coz it don’t matter about the pills

Or the window sill

You sat on for so long ,

Waiting for Them To sing you a song

As long as you keep moving along .

Then it don’t matter if no one is there

You can do it all alone .

@trueemotions91

She was my baby girl

I told you so

Never wanted to let her go

But you made me do her wrong

By always being the other girl

Making her feel low

I just couldn’t say no.

She was my baby girl

now she can’t be found

Because I dug her, deep into the ground.

Broken hearted by a clown

I’m sorry , now I know

How low, I made her go,

I wasn’t ready

For the love ,

She blew my world apart

now I’m done fooling about .

I was confused , lost

I promise you so

Just come back baby ,to our home

I’ll show you my love , hands down

No more broken promises

No more late night kisses

I just need you back on my ground

You are , who kept me so sound

The reason I thought I was on top of the world

She was my baby girl

I just need her home .

@trueemotions91

I was lost

In a plot

Of my own fucked up emotions

No one to help me

No one ever understood

I was called a crazy bitch

Forced in a ditch

To dig myself out of

While the soil crumbled under each finger tip

Still they called me a crazy bitch

Coz I was fighting this shit

All just watched and laughed

Like a bunch of crazed clowns

To my head shut them out

I cried and screamed

Believe me I fucking did

My eyes have never cried

As the tears ain’t my sin

It’s just the opening

Of this tin I’m trapped in

The cuts were a release

Each time I dug my nails deep in

Was a understanding of the place I was laying

Each fall

I pulled harder

No matter how much they call me a crazy bitch

I am getting out of this ditch

They forced me in .

@trueemotions91

A man I hear them call

Is a danger to all?

Do you honestly believe that story

If I repeat them words quietly ,

If your going paint a ugly picture

Of my son, brother , father

Before there even have a chance to alter

Your perspective of all men

Then I would not bother ,

To waste your air on this planet earth

That’s ludicrous , to human nature

Can you really hear yourself loud and clear?

So your afraid of your father ?

Please tell me so,

How on earth can we scoop so low,

Men are humans , I swear to your

Have two eyes and usually bigger shoes ,

But all ain’t to fear,

I know the hands that raised me were full of care & order

Showed me love & courage ,

But to fear my son , is to loud and clear

When you all cheer , the words I hear ,

A woman I know who abused her own

but yet I don’t hear you call her mistakes

To the moon,

Would you to brush me with the same words ,

Because another mother put upon this earth,

It makes no sense , it’s all a laugh,

I stand with a woman , power and all,

But to call every man a danger is a different law,

Just think of the words before you make your own

father sore ,

Imagine his face when he sees you chore the words

That - all men must fall .

@trueemotions91

Warning - I’m not sure if some people will take this I’m ignorant which I’m far from , just easiest way for me to explain a voice in my head so please do not take it personal anyone ! Just enjoy !

Lost young soul ,

Life is low , life is high ,

We have to just ride the tide. ❤️

The biggest challenge in life

Is learning to live , with the voice inside ,

Sometimes he roars and sometimes he whispers,

He’s trapped inside

Constantly taking you on a mad ride

It’s your call to reply

But before you do

Just listen

To what he is speaking

He may drive you crazy and make you hate

Every aspect of life ,

But their is a message hidden deeper then your imagantion ,

But the voice is they for a reason

Even if invisible on the other side

It’s the man inside

trying to make you recognise

I know you want it to go and he won’t shut up

But please just go with the flow

Don’t think the words that are going Through your head

Are a representation of yourself ,

Thats way to far , even for his control ,

That voice is a reckoning

The only way your inside can get you to listen to your true calling

Maybe not in the words you need

But this is where you have to be smart

Our brains are dangerous

The damage is strong

As no other can hear the song ,

He may play you some fucked up lullabies

And make tears come into your eyes

But I promise that’s not you breaking

That’s your soul accepting ,

The voice is usually your own well being ,

Calling for some help , from deep within yourself ,

He is nothing to be scared of

He is invisible , a voice all alone ,

But you can’t let him take control,

You have the power to show him differ ,

befriend that voice in your head ,

make him work for his chatter

we were born wild and free but

our imagantion always runs quicker

then our own two feet ,

So sometimes you need to breathe , it’s all just a release

Its a craft , and once you make the art ,

That voice won’t be a burden, he will be working on your behalf .

@trueemotions91

Why is this world so cold

I was always told,

The world is what you perceive through

Your own living eyes ,

Am I to blind, to see

The love that’s surrounded, around me ,

Is it me who spits the hatred out they mouth?

I question this daily .

I see the beautys of earth

They don’t hide ,

The colours of the rainbow are

Painted all over this earth,

The birds sing me a lullaby

Every morning ,

I open my eyes

To the most beautiful sunrise ,

I watch the moon ,

Dance with the stars ,

But when I enter reality ,

Why do I see , beings

With scrawn up faces ,

Blood on the hands of another man ,

Children being abused by the one who

Brought them to this earth,

Youngsters with no morals,

Graffiti scribbled all over the walls,

Ruining nature for everyone’s eyeballs,

Is that really just perceieved through my own eyes?

Is the government, just blind

To the reality of life,

Hidden behide a obscene ,Law and order,

Where half of them are the cause

Of disorder ,

Freedom of speach

But only counts for the rich ,

I see another begging on the floor

While another swipes his foot across

The same path,

Caught up in his own twisted world

Not a care for the poor,

I didn’t see that this morning ,

When the flowers were dancing along

To the pretty’s bird song,

I saw happiness in the sky,

Pictures Scribbled in the clouds

To make me realise ,

I can be at ease ,

But when I enter the street,

Everyone seems to be staring down at they feet

A pawn in a game of cheat.

@trueemotions91

Always told

I won’t make any gold

With my long life goals,

But they underestimated me

As my goals only consist

Of happy and health,

Not having my pockets lined of coins

I’d rather have a heart of joy,

A pocket full of sweet memories

For the world to see, Is enough for me ,

Riches are nothing

If my eyes are cold

Blinded by the pound sign

can’t see my path is clearly written for me ,

I don’t need brands attached to me

I’m a brand of my own

no one can copy track me

Even when I’m buried in the ground

You still couldn’t even come close

To the place I call home

My memories would make you realise

What a lie yours is.

@trueemotions91

Life is scary ,

Looking through my eyes ,

Your find it blurry,

But don’t be alarmed,

Because I promise your ready .

For this ride, To the top,

Free of charge ,

I promise I won’t ask for a penny,

But I’m going take your emotions

Higher then any,

I’ll hold your hand

I won’t let go

But inside your going be lonely.

Don’t be scared

I promised you so,

All of them emotions

Are part of the journey ,

This ain’t no movie,

First class scary .

Be the best ride ,

As this is the journey of Your life.

@trueemotions91

Fuckin crazy in this house of mine

Kids always fighting

Mothers always screaming

A war against 9

Yet love in the air

Open my eyes

To a war game

Trying push them

In there own direction

Forced eyes wide open

Mouths are all gawping

My brains fucking screwing

While next doors knocking

To a crazy noise

Of just heartache

But in the end it’s going be

Allright

Coz it’s where I call home

Its where my flowers grow

From the floor to the ceiling

I’m crawling

While the kids are scribbling

I’m kneeling

Praying to Jesus for some strength

To just catch my breath .

@trueemotions91

Why does another woman’s body entice me,

The curves I adore,

Skin so smooth ,

The way she shakes her arse .

Maybe it’s jealousy

But I’m not sure .

Is it wrong to admire

The beauty of another

I believe not so .

It’s something extraordinary ,

I just can’t let go.

How she drops so low ,

her hips curve to her exterior

Is just woah woah woah .

Blows my mind,

How another woman can make

My heart beat slow .

@trueemotions91

Man made shit

Tissue to wipe my arse

Man I’d rather some grass

Man made shit

Cant shake the stick

From that drip

He’s hanging on to my every word

Yet he claps

When he gets a slap

From the man in the back.

Man made shit

What a laugh

Stood over their looking like a arse

Man made shit

Just a fart

When everyone laughs

Man made shit

Full of art

But you can’t do the crafts

Man made shit

Do I have to finish it .

@trueemotions91

If don’t make sense to you - take away the words man made shit , 🤪 x

Hey little lady,

Sitting across the bar from me,

With her pretty red hair ,

green glazed eyes

Looking everywhere

But ignoring my stare .

I just want show you how

Your life could be fair.

With a pretty little thing

Like you , I wouldn’t dare ,

I’d give you all the dreams in life,

If you just promise to be my wife ,

I love the way you hold your stare ,

When you no I’m all yours.

I just want show you happiness baby ,

So don’t be scared ,

Promise you my touch ,

Is soft ,

Coz a pretty lady like you

Belongs at the top,

So don’t be alarmed when I pull you closer,

I just wanna smell you a little bit better,

I wanna wrap your hair around my fingers,

And show you how much I really care .

@trueemotions91

A beauty only I can see

Because I hold the key

To my own twisted art

That’s locked inside of me

It’s not my eyes who make me unique

Or the fact I have 2 ears and a nose

It’s the fact I can control

My life long goals

ain’t no one stopping that

You can put a end to my legs

Or maybe even my sense

But my mind won’t let you

Mess up that

It’s not visible to see

For a reason

It tells me daily

Scary .

@trueemotions91

My heart was yours,

True to the core,

I promised myself that ,

I could never give you just half ,

But I regret that .

As you stole my

Identity

Within a flash.

The risk is not opening

Your heart ,

It’s opening your mind ,

Which is when we become blind.

As we are teaching people the

One thing we are allowed to hide .

Don’t give your soul

Until you know ,

The holder Don’t want it to

Steal.

Fake copy created by yourself .

A wolf in sheep’s wool.

@trueemotions91

I found you

Looking so blue ,

I took you

To show you the truth ,

I opened my heart

To help you ,

Never did I think ,

You would rip

Out my soul

And make me beg,

from underneath

You.

@trueemotions91

Did you ever think

The power a child can bring to a man ?

I will admit

It’s about the sex .

But maybe we look past

How a man is made ,

His primarl instinct

To make love to woman

And watch his seed grow

Into something remarkable .

Into a soul

He connected to on a another level

Maybe it’s empowering for him

to watch

Her belly grow

Knowing it’s his well being

Made by his flow.

To allow him

To reinpreganate another soul

To find it attractive

Knowing he holds half the key

For another life

I wonder so .

@trueemotions91

5 boys who are running around,

doing what these boys do.

Power rangers.

Fighting & cars

Bruises from bangs

cuts from falls.

Feet stomping from your moods.

Screaming

All in a hurry.

Baby dolls. Kissses. Cuddles. Helping. Tears.

All the things above are nothing bad.

As they are what are perparing you to be a perfect man.

Your learn to control them paddys and in return control anger.

The tears you cry now will show you that being a man also means you need emotion because you are just another

human .

The bruises and bangs just make you that little bit tougher.

The dolls you play with now will help you as you to one day become a father.

The kisses and cuddles will show you that's all your family will need one day to feel protected just like you do now.

But for now I'm sit back watching you grow with tears, laughter and sometimes a bit of frustration - but mummy knows all the bad and all the good is going make you the perfect man for your future .

@trueemotions91

In life

never loose who you are

never forget where you came from

don't let your self disappear so your left wondering " who the fuck am I "

never lose yourself in the rush

Never lose you self when your dreaming

when it comes back to reality your be the one looking in the mirror

not knowing if the person who is staring back at you is a imposter

or really you.

This world ain't full of love and happiness

its full of tears, sweat and blood

so remember when your dreaming life away to never forget who makes,

you.

Never give up on these unique things that make you the person you are

That's what makes you true

you destroy those unique things about you

your be in that mirror looking at at a shadow of who you used to be

and believe me

life is no fun staring in that mirror

lost in a pair of eyes you no longer recognise .

@trueemotions91

Fucked up words ,

Pulling at the trigger ,

Itching on my brain with this crazy fucker .

My plans in Mars

But yet your only reaching for the stars.

Do make me laugh ,

You look like a giraffe ,

Reaching for the highest branch

Without no arms .

Ground zero.

I hear you call.

The monkeys laugh

With a twisted squeal.

A monkey you know

That’s how low

Your brain has blown

What happened up there ,

Did the air

Lose all control

And now your left floating

Just full of holes,

Please show me your goals

I’m a bit confused

how your still so low

Not knowing which way to go

When I watched you climb

That big fuck off

Hill

@trueemotions91

A joker ,

Hidden from me

Are you really surprised

I can see through the pain,

Painted on smile

In red lines .

Aint hard to see in

Between .

Painted white for the world

To see

But

Under the light ,

Your just another

Delusion of the night,

You think your words can itch me,

I have clowns in my dreams

Somewhere you could never reach ,

Think your nightmares

Can stench me from

My haven ,

Only witches have that cauldron

When they cackle up the night sky,

The birds want to come play ,

Because you will always hide

When the disguise

Falls behind the blind.

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

Spoilt little whore ,

Why you looking at me

Look at the floor.

Fool ,

Your heart is filled of

Stone cold coal.

I was only trying to find

Something inside.

He was petrified.

@trueemotions91

Fondling ,

In between the leaves,

Of a crispy bed of seaweed.

Slithering down my body

To find thier new home

deep in between my legs,

Where the spiders wait

Late at night

Stalking thier next victim ,

The mouse use me for warmth,

Scared of the night time dawn.

the owl holds all

Of my darkest secrets,

The stars have witnessed

My deepest desire ,

She feels me

When I whisper ,

Her leaves curl

Into a twisted picture .

Their all use me for

shelter.

@trueemotions91