Latest Posts by apolloishot - Page 2

just realized for the first time since coming out as a lesbian that i have to come to terms with the fact that the reason why i kinned lance from voltron so much might not be bc we were both bisexuals........

jake from adventure time gives me gender envy, but not like in a furry way, in a i-want-his-whole-personality way

^^this but i dont mind MCD and i just read The Hand That Feeds and it broke me but i NEED more dorlene ASAP

this is a call for help.

we have a ton of beautiful fanfiction in this fandom but I have never found one that enabled me to form a visceral connection with marlene or dorcas hence dorlene. I don’t have this issue with other sapphic ships, just marlene and dorcas have always felt like side characters but I WANT TO BE A DORLENE GIRLIE. I really want to get inside their brains and be unable to stop thinking about them.

So please recommend me such fics if you know any. I am begging🧎🏻 [Just one disclaimer: I don’t like MCD/canon compliant fics.]

dorlene is SO phoebe bridgers coded

*supernatural writers after running out of world-ending conflicts after 11 seasons*: what if there was a second earth

lucifer literary just has serious daddy issues

I just finished the perks of being a wallflower for the very first time and I cannot believe I have to continue to exist today like my heart wasn’t just ripped out of my chest and squeezed so hard by a short book about a boy writing letters during his first year of high school. Like I have to go out and do thing’s tonight like my soul doesn’t feel broken from reading of the greatest books I’ve read in a long while. Part of me is mad that I haven’t read it sooner but I know that if I did I wouldn’t have been able to understand the true significance of it so I’m grateful I didn’t read it till now.

Remus gets little chocolate finger prints on his book pages, especially over the summer when he will sit outside and read and eat chocolate while James and Sirius play quidditch

Regulus-Black-core

*covered in blood & in visible distress* i just need to write a list

another example of this was in one of my classes today we were doing safe space training (basically teaching people how to be allies) and the person leading it asked us to raise our hands if we had come out before and me and the girl I sit next to both raised our hands and looked around and it was literally just to two of us and it was definitely a brutal reminder that I am in fact part of a minority lmao

sometimes when i go out in public i am brutally reminded that being queer is in fact a minority as i am currently surrounded by straight people and i hate it

happy ten years you crazy assbutts

sometimes i convince myself that i could survive the apocalypse or a long term lockdown or something by hiding in my tiny single dorm room without having to leave but then there are days like today where i tried to hid in my room and do nothing but quickly found myself wandering aimlessly around campus with no plan to go anywhere specific or do anything in particular just bc i could not stand another moment of being trapped in that room. i feel like this is a perfect analogy for what it feels like when i get stuck in my head and start to spiral with negative thoughts. i tell myself i can hid from them or stay stuck in my little bubble of a brain, until i can’t and i have to do something to get out of it or ill go crazy. maybe this makes sense, maybe it doesn’t, maybe im just feeling poetic today but like I couldn’t stay trapped in my room, i couldn’t keep this thought trapped in my head.

barty would wear a “fuck your gender roles” crop top

i need someone to write rosekiller babysitting asap

I wanna see what would happen if a child was left with barty and evan

I am a woman in the way that a tomato is a fruit, as in some situations, yes technically a tomato is a fruit, but in other situations, a tomato also does not actually feel like a fruit, you would never put it in a fruit salad, i’m a woman on a technicality and I relate to the same things that women do (tomatoes grow the same way fruits grow) so in that sense yes I feel like I’m a woman, but also why the fuck would you ever put me in a fruit salad

having adhd and anxiety at the same time is so overwhelming bc i constantly have like 6-10 trains of thought going on at the same time and sometimes I just want my brain to be quiet but then i start thinking about how I want my brain to be quiet and that just ads another train of thought

im on season 11 of spn and i love how sam and dean are basically friends with crowely the literal king of hell and have yet to ask about how their dad is doing/if he is still in hell/is he a demon??? they have had him at their beck and call for how long and haven’t even brought him up

I told myself I wasn’t going to read crimson rivers until it was completed thinking I had at least until the summer till it was done only the find out that it’s one update away from being finished and now I have to decide wether I want to start reading it now risking me neglecting my schoolwork in favor of reading it for the next month or wait and save it till summer time like I have originally planned. Either way whenever I start it, I know it’s going to take over my every waking thought and idk if I’m prepared for that.

me and my best friend are watching all of supernatural and we both work/have worked in life-saving positions (lifeguard/emt/etc.) and we realized that so many people in supernatural would have been saved if sam and dean just took a simple cpr/first aid course

maybe re-entering my hamilton phase was for the best bc i just spent an hour hot-girl™️ strutting on the treadmill to every upbeat song on the soundtrack and it was the most motivated i have been in agesssss

my friends are very quotable people so i have started writing down funny things they say and i can’t decide if i want to write some marauders fanfiction and use their quotes in the fic or if i should just do one of those ‘the marauders as things my friends have said’ posts bc some of the quotes are great for that but other ones had the potential to be so funny with more context. for example one of them is “I don’t know I don’t follow cats around to see who they are fucking” which i feel like would be absolutely hilarious in a jegulus fic bc reggie is a black cat and it feels so much like something remus would say to Sirius about Reggie and James together, but then there are ones like “call me cardiac the way I be arrested” and that one just scream Sirius and doesn’t need context to make it funny. either way something has to be done with them bc they need to see the light of day

did i just make the executive decision to stay up way later than i should have purely to get to the fanfiction episode of supernatural? yes. do i have a huge exam early tomorrow morning that i was planning on waking up early to study for bc i decided to watch supernatural instead of study tonight? yes. was it worth it? hell yes.

ofmd has quickly become my comfort show as my mental health this semester just keeps getting worse and worse

no bc i didn’t even read the tags when i went to read it i just had seen a few tik toks about it and thought it was interesting, downloaded it to my phone, and didn’t look back so i realllllyyyy didn’t see it coming

i should’ve taken that “major character death” tag in art heist baby a little bit more seriously because i was nowhere near prepared for that.

if i could just exist in my bed under my comfy blanket with the windows open, a candle lit, and a long playlist of indie music ive never heard before for the rest of eternity i would be the happiest soul in the world

I need to inject the vibe of every hozier song into my veins right this instant

y’all know the art style that’s very smudgy? like it’s oil pants most of the time and it’s general shapes and colors but usually the people in them are faceless/lack details. that’s what my gender is. just faceless smudges of the human body, especially when you can’t tell if they are specifically female or male. yea i am just an oil painting.

these just feel so *gender*

why am i re-entering my hamilton era??? i listened to wait for it on repeat for 3 hours the other day with zero shame and i spent most of today singing my shot word for word from memory. what is happening??

went to go scroll on the dorlene tag bc i was in the mood for some wlw content and tell me why 80% of it is just jegulus content??? I AM HERE FOR THE LESBIANS

the three genders are literally princess (james), slut (sirius), loser (remus)