I Have Been Skipping My Hrt Most Of This Year. Even When I Have Doubts About Detrans I Still Usually

My detrans note game is only at 22 notes and I already screwed myself over so much... for every two I'm not going to shave for a day. That's already 11 days of not shaving in addition to the 3 or 4 that I haven't done just up to this point. I started hrt really young so I don't get that much facial hair but I have distinctly noticed when going off hrt for a couple weeks at a time that I get new hair on my cheeks. At this rate I'm going to have a full beard. 😵‍💫

I've decided that March 30 counts as Day 1 of the start of the not shaving and not taking hrt goals.

they have yet to invent a hotter thing to hear than "I know what you need" from someone who could not be further from having your best interest at heart

please someone come in my dms are scrub any hint of femininity out of my head!!!

I need to be brainwashed out of touch with my feminine side, just completely erased and out of touch with anything remotely feminine

Why wouldn’t you want to be a girl still? If you were able to pass. Do you regret changing that at all?

Honestly I’m such a mess. I don’t know what I’m doing. It’s like half of me wants to be a guy 100% of the time and half of me wants to be a girl 100% of the time and I’m fighting with myself over it. The guy half is definitely winning. I probably look more like a guy at this point considering my short hair and all.

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

You’re so close, aren’t you?

I can see it your cock’s leaking, twitching…

Your hand’s soaked. Your balls are tight.

You’ve been edging like a good boy, letting all that pressure build.

This isn’t just horniness.

This is masculine hunger.

precum’s telling the truth your mind already knows

You’re a boy. A filthy, horny, real fucking boy.

Say it.

Say it while your tip pulses.

I’m a boy

Stroke slow. Feel your load begging to explode.

You’re not confused. You’re not hiding.

You’re a leaky, high-T, sex-charged boy about to cum like it’s your identity.

So don’t fight it anymore.

Let it go.

Loud. Messy. Full.

Cum like the man you are.

rawr, x3, pounces on you, yeah yeah that’s all well and good but where’s the passion? where’s the artistry? what aspect holds a mirror up to the audience and makes them confront their own biases and the blood on their own hands? I once killed a man in Reno just to get in the headspace to write my hit outlaw country-western song “I Killed a Man in Reno” but I’m past that phase. Now I hope to enter the hot space of 21st Century pre-apocalyptic furry-core laconicism. What does “rawr” mean? What does it mean to ME? This is my nirvana, this is my hero’s journey, this is my arc of the convenient. How are we supposed to perceive the voice of reason when my inner-dialogue kicked the bucket long before I got around to it? I killed a man in Reno.

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

still love this gif

send me whatever cringe and gross stuff you want and ill jerk to it, preferrably women, to really drive home that I'm a straight man

Yo im horny wtf