(I reblogged my previous post to clarify a few things. Again, it's about proship, so I've also put it in "read more".)
Thank you for all the activity on this post! I appreciate your clarifications and patience, now I can see that some of the statements and formulations I've made were wrong. I can see that not everything in that text is comprehensible, so I apologize for my English — it isn't my native language. Since censoring words isn't necessary on this site, I won't use the censorship anymore.
I agree that fiction and reality don't work in the same way and I believe it is fine to explore dark themes in fiction for any reason, as long as it doesn't hurt real people. If certain ships make a person happy and bring them comfort, there's likely no harm in it due to the fact that it's only fiction. It's not always used as a way to cope and it's fine to enjoy fiction due to different reasons, as well as it doesn't necessarily reflect a person's morals and beliefs. Also, as I understood, attraction towards anything doesn't make a person bad, since they can't control the feeling of attraction itself; rather, the actions speak volumes: if they decide to act on the urge and consciously hurt someone real, then they should be held responsible for the illegal act. However, if they decide against it, there's no specific action to judge them for. I believe that these people also deserve help and a safe space, because harassment and oppression never made anyone better, but everyone deserves a chance for a happy life. And of course, any sexual act in reality should be solely performed from consent after every party reached the legal age.
And to answer the question of the user miranova23: although I'm currently not pushed into such beliefs by my close social circle, the topic of proship makes me anxious due to confronting my previous beliefs. I'm not officially diagnosed with moral OCD, however, I'm indeed prone to questioning my morality every so often. So all of the questions I asked are hypothetical — I'm strongly against CSEM and no real child deserves to be hurt (the thought itself makes me uneasy). In case that was the case for concern, the question about monetisation of r34 with underage characters was asked because I wasn't sure whether it's appropriate to gain money from such art despite the depicted characters not being real. But I suppose it's fair to say that it depends on the laws of my country; besides, pixels can't consent, which is why being concerned about this in the first place isn't necessary, so it's better to focus on real victims who should have support and help. Even if so, I'm not going to draw sexualised minors at any point. I'm not judging those who do, since they don't harass real children and, again, just draw pixels, and I definitely will not harass and threaten people over it. I'm only saying that this content makes me uncomfortable and I prefer to skip it respectfully, because your kink is not my kink but your kink is okay. I think that not all kinds of content are for everyone, but it's alright. And yes, I suppose I could use therapy 😅 Perhaps I should learn not to give a fuck about others's business. I hope I answered your questions.
Feel free to correct me if I might be wrong somewhere — I simply would like to have a better perspective on the topic, because I strive to be a better person. Anyway, wish you all a great day!
(It's about proship, so I've put it in "read more" in case someone finds the topic uncomfortable. Take care)
Without negativity, I have a few controversial questions which I'd like to see from some different angles. It's curiosity, but not an accusation by any means — I just question my moral beliefs, so I don't want to cause arguments but a discussion. And you aren't obligated to answer all the questions and aren't obliged to answer at all, of course.
With all due respect, what I'd like to ask is:
Can "proship" be considered a bad coping mechanism? Does the media that one enjoys reflects their morals and beliefs? Also, I'm not sure if that's okay to sexualise and fetishize underage people, even if it's fictional. I understand that it's often a way to cope with trauma, I don't mean to invalidate it in any way and I'm not a doctor, though I can't decide whether it's a healthy way to process it. I once heard an argument that it works in a similar way with gambling and p0rn addiction, as in indulging in fantasies and letting urges control one's behaviour, but I'm not sure if it's really so. Isn't it possible to see ped0phile inclinations in a person through the media they consume and produce? Also, is it okay to monetise drawn child p0rn? Because this content is created specifically with the idea to get turned on by drawn kids, which sounds not so far from getting off on real ones (with the difference that in the first case, it's fictional, so no real kid is technically hurt; however, the attraction is still caused by knowing the drawn person is underage, so the mechanism remains the same).
So all in all, I think there are concerning people on both the proship and antis sides. Which doesn't mean that every person in both communities is inherently bad or good, but I think it's important to acknowledge that there can and will be people who do questionable things from both sides. I also would like to clarify that I'm against threats and bullying over fiction, respect should be always prioritised.
Thank you for your patience, I apologize if I made you uncomfortable or understood something wrong.
And then you like : "Oh, of course, my fav character"
Allied Mastercomputer
Adaptive Manipulator
Aggressive menace
Alluring Masturbator
Me, doing and experiencing normal things: what. What was that. Why did that happen. Am I going to die after this? I shouldn't have done this, right?? Man, I probably shouldn't have, yeah. I'm so cringe, oh my gosh
Me, doing and experiencing existential horrors: yeah, that's a totally normal thing to do. I'm sure everyone do this every weekends
I mean, RAM and CAM look like types who would bully AM, I think. They know about him much more than the survivors, after all
Do you think they would speak about different physical sensations in front of AM, just to piss him off?? I wonder how his hardware hasn't melted yet.
I really wanna post and I think about posting everyday, but right in the moment when I got Tumblr blog all my thoughts EVAPORATED
My whiny session is ended, thank you💅
I think if AM would get a physical body, one of the first things he'd try are one of the most damaging things to a human body in a long run. Cigarettes, alcohol, drugs in general, so on. Consequences? Nah, he doesn't care. I see him like an impatient type to risk and rush things — childish, in a word. But that's understandable, given the fact that he was trapped in sensory deprivation for decades now. No wonder he simply wants to feel good for just a scrap of seconds. Do you remember that Futurama episode when Bender got a human body? Yeah, well, and then he died pretty soon. That's how I imagine AM would handle his body, as well. Like we can't expect him to care enough about his physical manifestation, as long as it can get him high, at least because he knows nothing about responsibility. He probably doesn't know how to, since he's never taken care of anything before: he used to get his way through physical power, so I suppose he would be a pretty reckless one. Besides, maybe he's a bit of a masochist. The pain is better than no senses at all. Perhaps he'd get experimental about this, given his "fantasy" and knowledge. Maybe if he could, he would have a million of vessels in store to switch between and just pick up a new one once the first one becomes dysfunctional. Also, people usually draw humanised AM more masculine leaning (at least because his voice is literally Harlan Ellison, duh), though I think he'd want to experience everything, including a female form, too. And I guess a lot of people have already noted this headcanon, but it won't hurt to say it again: sensory issues and sensory seeking behaviours. Now, I'm not sure what kind of textures exactly would make him uncomfortable and which he'd like (my first thought was water for some reason, lol), but I think that everything would overwhelm him at first, because "THE AIR TOUCHES ME". I can't help it, he just gives me a bit of autistic vibes... And maybe DID. And maybe- damn, he might have a bunch of disorders, now that I think about this. Which kinda makes me want to comfort him more. Anyway, he's a babygirl.
I am normal I am normal I am normal I am-
... What do you mean having crushes on fictional computers isn't normal
This is kinda funny imo
My blog be like:
"Computers"
"[EXISTENTIAL HORROR]"
"Computers are kiiiindaaaa-"
"[DEATH WOULD FIX ME]"
"Dang girl dat motherboard"
"[HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO-]"
"[Computer character] is my babygirl by the way"
By the way,
(Kinda triggering maybe?? Dunno, just telling in case. Don't wanna make people feel unwell bc of a silly Tumblr post. It's personal and. Maybe off-putting. Yeah, "off-putting" is a better word. I'm just questioning my sanity a bit, is all)
I'm gonna ask a weird and personal thing. If you don't mind. Sooo... Let's ask.
Hypothetically. Is it ok to have a few dreams which you can't tell from reality, while feeling unexplainable sensations spreading through your body like warmth or coldness, loud tinnitus, increased heartbeat, sweating, heavy breathing, maybe even tooth pain(??), on the verge of a panic attack, being convinced that something is watching you and gonna kill you if you move and hearing a voice telling you it's gonna kill your family if you won't listen to "them". But, like, in a dreaaaam, right?? Like. While just sleeeeping and not actually being awake. You just wake up later and it's like nothing of it really happened. It's all just in dream, yeah. Haha. Must be fine, tho, right
I'm sure everyone has experienced such stuff at least once in their life, yes??
Also. Just so you wouldn't waste your time for nothing, here's da silly picture I just drew for this post specifically:
Thank you for your attention, hope you have a nice day.
I actually love the fact that AM is misanthropic, in a meaning the he isn't a sexist, misogynist or racist. I'm pretty sure he despises such people (scums) a lot. So it isn't like : "Some people are better than others for some delusional reasons" — it's rather like : "Nahhh u all suck equally" — and I guess I can respect that...